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4+4 = 16?

So whenever people ask me the answer, i will definetely say correct!

Everyone has their own perception about life, works, love, academic, current issue matters. Over the time it might not match with other(s) opinion, but does it even wrong? I mean everyone has the right to talk and walk.

Time does exist in life but it depend on how you manage it, if it fills with something that makes you busy... you’ll get to feel the time flies quickly but if you got nothing to fill in your day.... exactly it became slower than your thoughts.

Does your life being fair to you?

Im on the other side, thinking why do i accepted people came to my life faster than a rain drops? But slowly the thougts whispered ‘Because you are ready’ 🥰

and suddenly the inner me says ‘Are You?’

*Back to the number, when the answer were wrong that you should erase and write the correct one. If you only let the other person believe with the answer, your life are on trouble.

Sincere,

A flower of your life ❤️

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Sacrifices ❤️

A word that keep on yelling at me.

Assalammualaikum,

Its been awhile after months not updating my tumblr, hah i feel so bless for having a chance to write up! 🦋 okay lets move on, what is sacrificing actually? Well for me you do something for someone without any other intentions, i mean like you spend out of all your time just to make someone happy. Well, i guess that is too general, right? Hahahahahaha! Issa big word kann? Like not everyone would really sacrifice on sumth to another person. Barely keep in mind, not everyone even your bestfriends does accept you for who you were, please appreaciate other in your life too, Nadihah 🦞 and please study harder for your final, the bells ringing at your front door! Pleasela sedar. Hahahahaha.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku, Izinkan aku untuk lakukan yang terbaik dalam final exam ku dan bantulah aku untuk menjawab kertas dengan semudahnya, berkat dari Mu dan pertolonganMu Ya Rahman Ya Rahim, Aamiin Aamiin Allahumma Aamiin 🌼

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Aku Gagal Lagi Ya Allah :'(

Ive really wanted a beautiful life which i only been tested with few trials in life. Ya Allah no, it doesnt mean im not grateful or being harsh but im quite tired of what ive did over and over again. Im hopeless Ya Rahman!

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Kinda stuck now. Im forever loner and always be 😑

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‘THINKING ABOUT TAKE OFF MY TEETH’

Assalammualaikum, 

Why do teeth wanna leave me so bad :( 

Dear Teeth,

Im so glad that you have coming to my life since i was a little girl who love to had candies around. You never get mad of me even i’ve beaten the most keras foods and when i get smiles on camera, you’re shine a lot. 

I know eventho dr only advised me to take off the infected teeth only but i really appreciate all of my teeth a lot. is like missing one of them going to get mourn day of my life. ive been growing with my teeth since years back and now i should willingly to let one of them go because of my careless and not responsible to take care of them.

To my lovely teeth,

knows that i love you so much. i do this for the sake of my health because im sure you want me to get healthy too and stop complaining about get hurts right? i know its not even an easy journey for me too but yeah you give that kind of happy support too teeth, you really help me a lot. I would like to say thanks to you deer teeth since you’ve been carried a lot of wastage foods after i ate and now you are about to gone, I promise to take care about the others.

Rest well soon teeth, we so gonna miss you!

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18/01/2020 : MAI TEKOL DAY!

Alhamdulillah, one step closer to get tin the Veil 😛 Thank You Ein, for made it happen once. Is it now i’m someone fiance already? guess it is still long way to go now! hakhakhak. I really sorry to those who does not know about the story yet since i just kept the relationship it became silence. let people who knows, knew! Please pray a good one for us and may the doa itself return to you! Aamiin 🤗 And please do doa for my upcoming result exam too which be coming out next week, In Shaa Allah. hopefully, it going be a dean list again this time tho all the papers was hard. Aamiin, Aamiin Ya Rabbal Al Aaamin! 💓

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Is it 2020 already? MasyaAllah!

Assalammualaikum,

I miss my tumblr a lot. My last semester were shot of terrible semester and I dont know why. it seem though for me, yes i know it was different with Diploma life but this one was kinda real man. I cant even imagine if having a whole semester year like this. I cant breathe either.

By the way, life is going good dude. now really gonna paid off my works load in semester 5 just laying on my bed and read everything in social media. “assignments, let me rest first and same goes to my brain. we wants to hols!” But im actually scares about my upcoming result exam so well i did not know either i went good or bad on my exam. I really doa that every of my papers got flying colours. Aamiin!

so, hands up. what do i really want to achieve on 2020:

1) of course solat at the exact time. (i know it is not that hard, it just me)

2) be kind to everyone (even they are killing me inside. I need to learn more about sabr. Doa for me.)

3) Dont hate people or revenge. (It just not you, Nadihah)

4)Stop complaining and start better (please avoid yourself from excuses in everything, Nadihah)

5) Umrah tour. (In Shaa Allah. I does not believe in money power but Allah S.W.T. He is the best planners ever!)

6) makes my yayah happy always and reduce his stress. hahaha. 

7) Khatam my Al-Quran before and during Ramadhan

8) more zikr practices in since i wake up in the morning and before i send myself to bed.

9) help more people as much as i can tho.

10) be cool and start my beauty care back (not necessary but i still wan to :()

for all, this might the things i wanna do in 2020. Ya Allah may all my dreams come true and hopefully i can help more people in life for the sake of You, Ya Aziz Ya Ghaffar! and may I get Dean list for this semester 5 once more. Aamiin, Aamiin Ya Rabbal Al Aamiin.

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you cant always believe in ‘dreamt’ :)

I chose not to.

Assalammualaikum,

its been awhile im not write up anything in here. so, welcome back to myself! haha. Alhamdulillah everything was fine and good. Life? Alhamdulillah, it was smooth around. hehehehe. Well i just want to share about this kind of on going mimpi yang tidak sempurna. chewah! HAHA.

Well, im a type of person who have always ignored about mimpi. for me its not the important situation that need to be focus on.i assumed it always as mainan tidur. but currently, i just felt weird since he kept appeared in my dream and i dont know why. he was my past and I DONT EVEN KNOW what he up to. I stopped. Like I stop myself not to figure out why on earth I have to find out why kan? 

Maybe got any good hikmah or he’s gonna get marry ka what. I just can pray goods to him and gf. I moved on. So do him. I believe we’ve found our own ways of happiness. Alhamdulillah. that must be real good for both kan? It just my past hanging around here, I survived in our ‘cinta monyet’ before. All the ups and downs i’ve gone through by myself. You didnt even to mention about “betangisan”, that’s all beyond me. ahahhahaha. Im glad that i ended everything in a happy ending like he even saw my graduation moments and the success that ive created after he left me. 

like, WHAT ELSE I SHOULD REGRET?

THE BEST REVENGE JUST HIT HIM AND I SHOULD BE THE MOST HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE.

Girls, it does not matter how long youve been with someone. If that guy was play you around, please stop make yourself hurts. You got choices in your life and please think it wisely and make sure DO NOT PICK UP ALL THE PIECES ALONE. it leg-idly painful in the inside guys. hahaha. Just back up and stay focus with life! 

I GOT YOU GIRLS!

Alhamdulillah!

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ReFrEsHiNg!

im in my mid-sem now after all months of struggling on my study but it is okay because i make it as an intention of Jihad while searching for ilm. Well, actually i do not have any content to write right now. Im trying hard for this since im too busy about life until i’ve ignore my tumblr a lot. it is not fair for me since tumblr has been my medium to cherish and share a lot of things in life. 

Lets star!

Oh ya. After finish my final exam that day, i went to Austin Water Theme Park with my girls yasmin, jihan, syu, fifi and atirah 💝 we did lot of fun and tried every slide inside the park wish that it can release all the burdens among the 6 months (1 semester). yea, it was happened at last since it about to cancel due to postponed of our final exam. (Isn’t that a funny miracles happen in student life?) 😛 but with all the tests on that day completed with sabr, we’ve enjoyed our moments together! LOVE LA!💋

But actually im way to worry about my final exam result which will come out real soon! Ya Allah may my grade been very success and may this semester I deserved of Dean List, again. Aamiin, Aamiin Ya Rabbal Al Aamiin. Im way not competing with anyone Ya Rahman, I just did what I could do. If someone has the feeling to battle with me, Ya Allah, you give them a very best their version, so they can forget about mine, what i need to focus here, nothing can make me happy while giving the best grade to my Ayah :’) I’ve disappoint him in past and try to reconcile the relationship between me and him. May this Jihad brings good to my future Ya Allah even it may certain consists and mix out together with my sins but Ya Rahim, You’re most Forgiven and I really need that like so much 💓

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The last cried, I promise.

5 May 2019: The day I believe you’re not living in the same earth as mine :’(

Me: Pinky tauk sik man return balit dengan ex nya agik? hmm.

Pinky: eh kauuu. ku dah padah udah gik. UDAH!

Thats how i felt now dear pinky. like how the last conversation you and I about the broken relationship i had before. you were there with me and gave me the motivational words. That was my fault for did not believed in Jo at first, I thought it was a joke :( but now I realized after few months now and i felt guilty. Seriously :’( You are such a good friend to me, eventho u got the ‘lazer mouth’ but i know you have the pure heart. You are going to be the best memories for me and I will keep all the moments forever in my heart. In Shaa Allah.

“aok kelak aku tobat bah” I really hope the time you’re went to meet Allah, you’ve change in a better person and may all your souls being accepted by Him. I dont know if i get the strength to fly to Sibu. I wish to. But you know there is a lot of memories there with you, Joe, Nas, Ester, Nad, Apis, Fab and all? If I could turn back time, I would ask you “Apa khabar kau?” every time we’ve started the conversation but I never did. I’m sorry :’( 

Did you remember this “Mun kau dah kaya kelak eboh lupak aku k” words that always pass by eveytime kita duak jumpa! :’) “Oi ngek kau sine? Aku di Kuch. jumpa jumpa” Now you literally left me in Dunya. I’ll keep you in my Duas always. In Shaa Allah. You need to be strong there, Be happy and have a long rest ya? We who were still alive here will be gather in Akhirah one day. I miss you friend. No wonder I keep telling myself where is Pinky over these years. You’re back for good. Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun. Please remember our friendship Forever, dear friend.

Most of that, Thanks for keep fighting with the cancer battle dude, I never knew you did! :’)

Al-Fatihah Mohd Syafiq :’( *28 November 2018*)

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woooooots, Ramadhan Tiba!!

Alhamdulillah another year to celebrate my Ramadhan but not at home but in hostel (kinda new environment here) Cannot Wait! Tonight is going to be our first Tarawih! heee So Happy for this! May this Ramadhan bring me to more focus not only in Dunya but always in Akhirah. Im overly excited of this month. Aamiin.

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Bang Bang 🔫

Yesterday was the best day ever when Iam with him. (14/04/2019) Where the main of our conversations is all about the future planning! And obviously about our past and how we will overcome the consequences in future. 🔕 I need a guy like him to be keep. Why? Because he's so understanding my most of situations without doubting. "Sorry, ya salah kmk" (most of the time) like where on earth i would find someone like him. No rejection btw 😂 He really enjoys looking/ searching for houses while me just *okay julah* but at the end of it i just had fun with my phone (the most part he will bubbling at me) 🤣 what some quoted says true, Where Allah S.W.T will send u the wrong person first before the right one enter as a lesson and save the last as it best! Alhamdulillah. After a heart-break and tears fall, everything seem to be fine with the help of Allah S.W.T by sending him to me as a companion and my forever best friend yet a future for me. In Shaa Allah. May all of our plannings as same as Allah S.W.T one. Aamiin! 🤲 i seriously didnt even have any ideas how come we've go through this by far but im just happily going with the flaws now. Alhamdulillah. Most of all, He truly the one who've ask for from Allah S.W.T and reminds me of Surah Ar-Rahman ♥️

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5 YEARS ^ 7 YEARS past & 2 YEARS ahead= In Shaa Allah! 🙊

Another good news for 2019! I’ve known this guy for 7 years back at here during my National Service 2012! He was one of my classmate at that time and the one who’s annoyed me a lot in class (Now also).🙄 Nahh, well actually we were came in one school too yet not at the same class and never greet to one another. hahahaha.😁 But look at us now, I never plans for all this and could not imagine how we have come to this far.🤗 It’s true that life comes out more surprisingly, Yes because Allah S.W.T has sent him to me at the right time when I needed someone to cheer me up yet Allah S.W.T is the BEST planners! Since then, we’ve discussed about our future like who did that to someone he has knew? like bf gf is different matter la. We are even not declare for anything but he’s willing to take me for his future. are that for real? 🤷 In Shaa Allah! I’m still surprised by the way. 😂 I have no idea what will life heads me after this but true said Sabr is the best key. EVER! hah. Ya Allah, may u ease everything and may all of our duas are accepted and forgive all our sins Ya Rabb!. Aamiin 💗

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everything is not under control now and 999 couldn’t help tho👮‍♀️

im overreact or somehow my environment does? but yeah it is okay. always remind myself that something way better awaits me if i keep sabr and tawakal to Allah S.W.T. I should remain my intentions why im here and what I actually plan for my future here. Other than that, sorry couldn’t commit much on some precious problems because I do have my own problems that even myself couldnt solves. yes. I am selfish in my own way because no one can really knows what i’ve carried in life. but sure i know my limits too im not that cruel to underestimate people. IM SO GRATEFUL FOR HAVING PEOPLE AROUND ME NOW but through hard times, I only need Allah S.W.T other than humans. IM okay. yes I CAN DO THIS!👯‍♂️  Allahuakbar! 🙇‍♀️

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2019 ❣️

i have no new resolutions for this new year (even a bit late) but who cares? hahaha. i just got my free time after sacrificing on my final exam. it finished already and i was like YAY. whatever happen on the result later, i did my best already, so dont judge (but deep inside, I STILL WANT TO BE DEAN LIST STUDENT AGAIN) 😂 I do not have any specific things to do on 2019 since yeah i’ve received lot of wedding invitations this year plus my own best friend will end her single life this year too, In Shaa Allah. How excited iam but surely im the one who cry a lot that day. 😏 after so many years of friendship and she finally meet her jodoh (like marriage is one of our fav topic before since we still “teenage girl”) but since she’s getting married soon, we try to avoid by talking this topic everytime we met each other. IM STILL NOT READY TO LOSE MY BEST FRIEND. please, note that 🙍 okay, why iam only focusing on marriage topic now? haha. isn’t my attention of this blog btw, hahaha. but yeah really hope that this year gonna be my happiest of the year and really hope that time will passes very fast so i can finish my study like real soon! wanna prepare myself for Umrah trip (In Shaa Allah) hopefully Allah S.W.T make it ease for me. Aamiin. Yet, i just got realized something this morning whereby i should thanks Allah S.W.T for more because of what i’m having right now is really beyond my expectations. it’s like a dream but Alhamdulillah life become more happier than before. I must say. 🙊 oh yea, i was failed on the MPP session this year hahahaha but it’s okay still believe that i can work for something else because by the time of manifesto campaign i’m focusing on my final exam that time, not fair right? i knowwww! 🙋 but i do have one plan for degree student to collaborate with MPP for next semester but of course (talk session) because i want to improve more on my communication skill. yes. Besides, i wanna cari my jodoh. ehhhhhhhh hahahahaha how could i say that huh? when it come to writing, i just type and type yknowww. hahahaha but it is okay, about jodoh, i can put aside first but whoever wanna come into my life with the good intentions...the door is always open of course but still im just going with the flows because i believe something goods will happen to me when im truly ready with the blessings of Allah S.W.T.  aww 😇 hey hey, move! well, should be more writings next ya!

xoxo

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I CAN FEELS SITI KHADIJAH INSIDE ME NOW  🧕

Assalammualaikum,

Alhamdulillah one of my achievements in 2018 was success! one of them is to own the Siti Khadijah telekung even it is the classic one (the most affordable one) but it is okay. Alhamdulillah as long as i can bought for myself and Ims (as her graduation gift). this is the most happiest surprise for myself. i love it so much Ya Allah :’) Thank You! Hopefully with the existence of life-wishing-telekung, my solat will be more Khusyuk. Aamiin! Im so happy like terribly happy. I just like wanna grab all of the designs. I swear! Alhamdulillah, my scholarship already in, hopefully there is still loads in pending  😂 Aamiin! hee please please I better save my money for my Umrah trip In Shaa Allah right after my Degree program if the faster could it be, it’d be better! right? I REALLY WANT. still cannot fully imagine the day i make dua’s and perform my prayer in front of the Kaabah, Allahuakbar! 💕

it is true when they say when u keep urself closer to Allah S.W.T, the more easier your wishing lists will becomes true. Alhamdulillah i just cannot stop feels thankful toward Him for the things i’ve received so far! Ya Allah may all these things are over Your Barakah. Aamiin! Over you Ya Rabb, I feels overprotected, loves, cares, name it. I could not describe. im not depends on the past anymore, try to remove myself with all those negative vibes, be more independent, be a clear minded person, loves all the people around me, be more straight forward, avoiding myself to listen gossips and top of that STILL BE ME.  💃 

xxx 💋

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Sejahil-jahilnya saya di masa lalu, saya bukanlah perempuan yang suka upload foto di media sosial.

Saya memang gak cantik (menurut saya). Tapi perasaan insecure selalu menghantui saya semenjak dulu di masa kuliah ada beberapa abang-abang fotocopy di sekitar kampus yang kadang-kadang godain saya, katanya saya mirip selebritis A. Ada juga yang bilang saya mirip selebritis B. Di situ saya merasa ‘jleb’, rasanya harga diri dan kehormatan saya jatuh.

Saya benar-benar gak suka ketika dipuji cantik oleh yang bukan mahram. Karena itu bukanlah kemuliaan saya sebagai seorang muslimah.

Tapi tentang upload foto di media sosial itu adalah pilihan. Dan saya memilih untuk gak upload foto dalam bentuk/pose apapun, entah itu hanya tampak belakang, tampak samping saja, tampak kepala belakang saja, atau apapun. Tak lain hanya untuk menjaga, agar saya terjaga. Sebab cantik atau tidaknya seorang perempuan, mereka tetaplah godaan terbesar bagi kaum adam.