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[agmaknae]

During the 4STARZ days, Taejoon’s style was on the darker side of the color wheel. Mostly blacks/grays/whites. But he would have some little pops of colours but they were also dark. It was nothing like his ‘Baby Saja’ persona.

He doesn’t hate it, the colours—he genuinely enjoys cute things. but…he only really wears the brighter colours for appearances. Signings/TV/concerts, ect. Outside of that, he usually goes back to his darker wardrobe, and will also wear more colour, but like deep teals, purples, reds, ect. It’s not usually bright unless it has to be, if that makes sense.

[agmaknae]

Before the SAJA BOYS, Jeong Taejoon was a part of another group known as 4STARZ. This group was made up of himself and three of his friends, including Chu Woohyuk ( @silklies ) who all had shared a collective dream of making it big, like anyone who pursues music as a career. They did everything, they worked hard and even made a few songs that managed to get onto the charts—but as quickly as they had appeared, they had crashed and burned—and 4STARZ were quickly forgotten about after their first album.

After the disbandment ( what else were they going to do? Finances were bleeding out dry ), the four of them were trying to figure out how to recoup from this ( if they were even able to ).

Approached by Jinu, the four were offered a deal from Gwi-Ma—Give up their souls and their humanity; serve him, and they would get the fame they desired. Fuelled by their desperation and greed, the boys blindly agreed; leaving their past lives and becoming demons, reaping souls to feed Gwi-ma and then becoming the next group sensation: The Saja Boys.

( signature and group logo by @erobret )

[agmaknae]

taejoon’s relationship with his parents was good, all things considered. Despite having outbursts and pursuing a career they didn’t consider feasible, they still supported his endeavours. They were however, traditionalists, in a sense, and he was an only child. So when they ate meals together, Taejoon always ate last, as per the tradition of the youngest eating after the elders.

This bleeds into his relationship with 4STARZ/The Saja Boys. He will literally sit there and wait to eat. It’s ingrained into him. If anyone is older than him and they’re eating, he waits. For example ( I was talking to anu abt this ), Woohyuk would push Taejoon to eat with them bc he doesn’t follow those traditions—and while Tae would decline—with enough gentle pushing over time, he breaks out of the habit and starts eating WITH people instead of after them.

[agmaknae]

Oh yeah I’m pretty sure 4STARZ were considered missing for a long time after their deal and eventually declared dead even without finding their bodies. They probably ended up as a cold case.

[agmaknae]

I think about taejoon post movie after woohyuk comes back and they start their duo career and Tae’s hair is a bit longer and he dyes it back to his natural black and looks like he did in his 4starz era…and then anu said woohyuk would dye his hair black for a bit too ( before he cycles through different colours ) and how they both feel nostalgic about it—

anyway look at them I just want to bash them together like Barbies

[agmaknae]

thinking more post movie taejoon things :/ mostly things I’ve spoken to @sl4ghtrs and @queenrumi and @gwiima about lately sooo here we go.

Taejoon DOES think all of his friends are dead. 100%. And that’s why he harbors so much guilt and dread in him during his time. He saw Jinu die; he doesn’t know his soul is in Rumi’s sword. He didn’t see that part. He watched Zoey kill Hyunwoo ( mystery ). He saw Mira kill Woohyuk ( abby—unaware that his soul went into Taejoon’s own body ). He didn’t see Jinhwa ( romance ) die, however, he assumes he did because he had fled before he had even seen it happen.

He does grieve all of them. I know I’ve focused a lot on his grief with Woohyuk. it makes sense, they were a couple, and Taejoon has had feeling for him since before they became demons; and even then they were very very close and spent a LOT of time together once Taejoon got comfortable enough with him and Jinhwa after 4STARZ was formed.

But regardless of that, he does mourn Jinhwa ( not knowing he survived bc Jinhwa is hiding among HEARTSTEEL where his little bf Ezreal is taking care of him ) because Jinhwa had become his best friend—someone to talk to when he needed it, someone he relied on other then Woohyuk, someone he got close to in the most platonic and familial sense, which was nice since Taejoon was an only child himself; it was nice for him to develop that kind of relationship with him and have someone he could open up to that wasn’t Woohyuk ( bc lbr there’s stuff he talks to Jinhwa about that he wouldn’t talk to Woohyuk about anyway ).

He mourns Hyunwoo, his childhood friend since middle school. He’s the one that 100% killed with no way of coming back ( to his knowledge. Who knows! Woohyuk and Jinu come back, anything is possible ) and he feels terrible for essentially letting him down. He could have done so much more in that fight, but he panicked and fled like a coward ( in his own words ).

He misses all of them. There’s several times where he will literally be in their empty penthouse by himself, surrounded by their things, and he just can’t take it. He leaves a lot—to try and get away from the memories everything in that place holds but he can’t be gone for long. He goes back, mostly to sleep. He wears Woohyuk’s clothes to bed bc they’re oversized on him. They smell like him. He has sleepless nights pretty consistently, and when he does sleep he’ll have those realistic dreams where you wake up in your room, or your house and don’t know that you’re dreaming, and Woohyuk will be with him, talking to him. Taejoon doesn’t realize that it’s the soul inside of him communicating with him, and eventually it becomes too much for him emotionally and he tells Woohyuk’s spirit that he’s just his subconscious and that he needs to leave him alone, and the dreams stop. Taejoon’s loneliness grows.

Rumi ( @queenrumi ) pushes for a few months for Taejoon to live with HUNTR/X which he declines instantly. After they share a meal together the night of the idol awards and that…mess, she has suddenly become a constant in his life. Eventually, he agrees, finding the loneliness too much ( there is a point where he thinks that he would be better off joining his friends in death ), and so he gathers his things, a few things that belonged to the others, and he moves in with HUNTR/X. All of The Saja Boys’ other belongings are moved to a storage facility, and Taejoon sells the penthouse suit the group had lived in as he settles into his new home.

He’s extremely wary of Mira—he hates her the most. Zoey and Rumi he tolerates. He doesn’t want to live here—but he doesn’t want to be alone either. He’s extremely closed off, but the others seem to be patient with them. He doesn’t understand it; why these women want him to live here, why they care, when they killed the others and planned to kill him beforehand? He is constantly on edge; thinking that this whole thing is a trap, thinking that his end will come for him soon. He’s mostly okay with that. Something inside of him pulls at him to keep living, though. Eventually he gets used to the girls. Starts to care for them, starting from the ground up.

6 months after the idol awards is when Woohyuk manages to manifest back into existence. Taejoon is glued to him; refuses to leave him in fear that he will disappear again. Abandonment issues had seemed to form since he had lost all of them. Anxiety is a core part of him now. After some time passes ( probably a few months, giving Taejoon time to get used to Woohyuk being back in his life. They probably get their own space to live together, and they eventually debut as a rap duo together. Taejoon’s hair has slightly grown out and he dyes it back to black, looking how he did back in the 4STARZ era. The only difference is that his eyes remain blue; permanent from becoming a demon. I think eventually they reconnect/find Jinhwa, but that hasn’t been delved into quite yet.

Taejoon is STILL a demon. Unlike Woohyuk and Jinu ( even if he’s in the sword ) who have regained their souls, Taejoon has not. As in discussion with @gwiima , Taejoon can still hear Gwi-ma talking to him even though he’s weak and even with the sealed honmoon. Gwi-ma will talk to him, will get into his head, and Taejoon will have these ‘episodes’ of talking to himself and secluding himself while it happens to specifically tell Gwi-ma to leave him alone, and to not worry anyone around him. Taejoon also still needs souls to live; so unfortunately, he will take souls from his fans, and Woohyuk has offered to kill help Taejoon get souls for his survival. Despite Taejoon feeling bad, he knows he has no choice, and will allow for Woohyuk’s ‘help’ and continue consuming souls until they can figure out a way to get his soul back.

[agmaknae]

taejoon set the kitchen on fire once.

[agmaknae]

Taejoon’s  thoughts  and  opinions  on  his  bandmates.  Ft  @statiicvhs  and  @sinbihagma . This  is  only  in  regards  to  his  opinion  on  his  bandmates  in  the  canon  lore  of  this  blog.  For  any  other  Sajas  outside  this  canon,  Taejoon  will  have  different  opinions  on  in  different  ways.

CHO  HYUNWOO  (22  -  Mystery  Saja  )  —  Taejoon’s  childhood  friend  since  middle  school.  Their  relationship  was  strange  from  the  beginning;  a  quiet  boy  and  a  wild  child  weren’t  necessarily  a  common  match  for  being  friends.  Their  friendship  had  a  lot  of  up’s  and  downs;  they  had  a  tendency  to  clash  until  something  finally  broke  and  they  stopped  talking  for  a  year.  It  gave  them  time  to  cool  off,  they  reconnected  and  auditioned  as  a  duo  together.  Taejoon  enjoys  his  company,  overall.  He  thinks  Hyunwoo  is  a  good  person;  and  he  is.  Or  he  was.  The  demonic  changes  had  changed  Hyunwoo…a  little  more  than  expected.  The  extra  eyes,  and  animalistic  tendencies.  He’s  the  same,  but…he’s  not.  Taejoon  worries  about  him.

YOON  JINHWA  (24  -  Romance  Saja  )  —  originally,  Taejoon  was  indifferent  to  Jinhwa.  When  they  first  met,  he  just  thought  he  was  another  pretty  singer,  nothing  to  write  home  about.  Over  time,  despite  Jinwha’s  annoying  behaviour  (  in  Taejoon’s  opinion  ),  he’s  a  good  guy.  They  get  along  fairly  well.  Taejoon  will  sometimes  go  to  him  for  advice;  things  he  can’t  talk  to  Woohyuk  about  (  cough  his  pining  cough  ).  Taejoon  thinks  of  his  as  an  annoying  older  brother,  if  anything.

CHU  WOOHYUK  (25  -  Abby  Saja)  —  This  one  is  the  most…difficult  to  explain.  Woohyuk  is…Woohyuk.  At  first,  Taejoon  was  a  little  intimidated  by  him.  In  4STARZ,  he  was  supposed  to  be  their  group  leader,  so,  the  last  thing  you  wanted  was  to  be  on  his  bad  side.  But  Woohyuk  is  cool.  He’s  fun.  He  has  good  ideas.  Taejoon  isn’t  afraid  to  ask  him  about  his  lyrics,  his  pacing,  his  sound.  Taejoon  isn’t  afraid  to  to  hang  around  him,  or  ever  think  that  he’s  being  judged  by  him.  No,  Woohyuk  makes  him  feel  safe.  Comfortable.  Like  he’s  actually  being  seen  and  not  overlooked  because  of  his  young  age  or  inexperience.  And  even  after  their  deal  with  Gwi-Ma,  his  opinions  on  Woohyuk  don’t  change.  He’s  admirable.  Strong….And  so  much  more  than  that,  too.  Woohyuk  had  always  been  protective  of  the  group—  but  Taejoon  wants  to  protect  him  too.

JINU  (  400+  )  —  Taejoon’s  loyalty  and  trust  with  Jinu  is  very  up  and  down,  like  a  rollercoaster.  Overall,  he  likes  him  enough—  But  they  have  a  tendency  to  clash  with  each  other.  Taejoon  isn’t  afraid  to  throw  Jinu’s  guilt  in  his  face  if  he  feels  that  Jinu  crossed  a  line.  In  the  end,  Jinu  tricked  him  and  his  friends,  and  that’s  where  his  cracks  in  Jinu’s  trust  lies.  Too  much  information  was  left  out,  and  now  they’re  stuck  here  as  Gwi-Ma’s  soul  collectors  &  demons.  He  wants  Jinu  to  grow  a  backbone  and  get  his  shit  together.

[agmaknae]

—Taejoon’s loyalties.

I need to sit here for a second and explain Taejoon’s loyalties. First and foremost his loyalties are with his group. His friends. They’ve been together from the start, they made the deal together, and they’re now here together as demons fulfilling their dream. He will always be loyal to the other three ( jinu is ehhhhhhhhhh ).

His morals are tested every day by gwi-ma and his manipulation. Taejoon is very paranoid when it comes to gwi-ma being in his head. He hates him, he’s disrespectful to him—all of that is known facts.

But when it comes to the ‘your idol’ performance, there’s a shift in loyalties because they are so close. So close to finishing this job, so close to getting to their dream. Just because they steal the souls of thousands of fans, doesn’t mean there won’t be more fans for them later. They can pursue their dream further, they can finally have what they wanted this entire time. And how did they get there? Gwi-Ma. In that moment of realization ( before his friends all die ), Taejoon is loyal to the Demon King. His worries and morals stripped from him. He is the perfect servant, the perfect collector—everything he should have been originally. IF THEY SUCCEEDED THIS JOB, Taejoon would devote himself to Gwi-Ma and no longer be disobedient.

And that’s how and why he was able to summon Gwi-Ma during his rap segment

and then after he disappears and runs away he just goes back to hating gwi-ma again but…there was a lapse there for a bit.

[agmaknae]

[ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ? [ 🎀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is their main love language ? [ 🍻 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat kind of drunk are they ?

Burning Incense: Burning incense is a way to purify the air and ward off evil spirits.

Taejoon’s mother had a habit of doing this when he was growing up and it sort of rubbed off on him. He does it even now, every now and elapsing, hoping it would ward off Gwi-Ma if he’s in his head too much ( it doesn’t, but in a way, it brings Taejoon some amount of comfort to do it ). He’s knows it’s just a superstitious habit, but that doesn’t stop him from continuously trying anyway. Plus, he likes the smell.

Taejoon’s main love language, surprisingly, is physical touch.

Despite him not liking public displays of affection, in private, he sticks as close to his partner as possible. Clinging to them, leaning on them, sitting on them, ect ect. In public he might hook their pinkies together and would stay as close as possible, or even piggy backing on them.

An embarrassingly affectionate drunk.

If Taejoon drinks enough that it tips him over the age, you cannot get him OFF of you. It doesn’t matter if it’s public, it doesn’t matter who you are, if he’s around you and he’s drunk off his rocker, he’s a part of you now. Like a weird Siamese twin. He’s stuck to you. You’re stuck either way him. Until he sobers up and denies everything.

[agmaknae]

I realized the other day, especially after talking to @statiicvhs and @gwiima that like. Post events of the film, Taejoon ran, and he doesn’t have his soul back.

Jinu’s soul went into Rumi’s sword. When Mira ‘killed’ Woohyuk/Abby, his soul was re obtained, and put into Taejoon’s body, where it lay dormant for 6 months until Woohyuk could separate from Tae and come back. Woohyuk has his soul, he’s human again.

Taejoon is not.

This means he is still a demon ( I wrote him that way anyway I noticed too I just started thinking about it more ). This means Gwi-Ma still has his soul. Gwi-Ma is weakened, and ‘blocked off’ because of the New Honmoon, but Taejoon can still hear him every once in a while, which grates him.

This also means that to stay ‘alive’, Taejoon needs souls. With his solo ( or duo career with Woohyuk bc they become a rap duo <3 ), it’s been discussed that he takes souls from his fans here or there or…Woohyuk helps him get souls for his survival yes, by murdering them. How else?

And this will go on until they can figure out a way to get his soul back.

thank you for coming to my Ted talk about my very complex character who only had 1 line in the whole damn movie.

[agmaknae]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐀𝐑𝐄  𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆?

𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒:  "what  should  i  apologize  for;  what  i  am  or  what  i'm  not?"  //  oh,  little  hero,  how  close  are  you  to  crumbling  under  the  weight  on  your  shoulders?  how  heavy  has  that  heart  of  yours  gotten?  how  deeply  has  the  guilt  burrowed  into  your  bones?  how  permanently  has  the  grief  been  seared  into  your  soul?  you  were  so  tender,  and  the  world  so  cruel.  loss  after  loss  after  loss,  each  another  chip  on  your  shoulder.  because  you  deserved  it,  didn't  you?  if  you  could  be  better...faster...stronger...smarter...then  maybe  it  wouldn't  have  happened.  right?  the  blood  stains  your  hands,  and  it  won't  wash  out  will  it?  but  darling,  it's  never  been  your  fault.  you've  learned  to  turn  the  rage  and  the  regret,  the  guilt  and  the  grief,  inwards.  if  you're  hurt,  it's  your  own  fault  isn't  it?  because  then  there's  a  reason  for  it,  because  it  gives  you  some  semblance  of  control,  doesn't  it?  what  you  seek  is  forgiveness,  for  your  perceived  wrongs.  but  oh,  little  skeleton,  you  do  not  need  it.   stop  blaming  yourself  for  what  was  beyond  your  control.  let  go  of  the  past.  grow.  and  learn  to  breathe  with  both  of  your  lungs.  stop  choking  on  your  own  self  hatred.  the  weight  will  ease,  i  promise. 

tagged by: no one, I stole it. tagging: @statiicvhs ( woohyuk ), @gwiima, @witchcraftandburialdirt ( robin ), @erobret ( zoey ), @nepalmera, @parasociallly, @romaences

[agmaknae]

Alright. For my heathens…here’s the list of nsfw headcanons for this awful little guy.

ORAL FIXATION — Taejoon likes to use his mouth on his parter and vice versa. This can be a variety of things; Kissing, eating them out, giving head, and all of those also done to himself. He likes the feeling of a warm tongue on his skin and saliva streaking his body. He is SO GOOD AT GIVING HEAD. You will have an out of body experience.

SENSITIVE CHEST — from the entire area to the nipples, Taejoon has a sensitive chest. So much so, that he can probably cum just from the stimulation there if you can stimulate him and get him hot and bothered enough.

MANHANDLING — Taejoon likes to be manhandled. Whether he’s getting fingers around his throat, fingers shoved into his mouth, his body being grabbed and flipped around, being lifted during sex or his position changed by force, hair pulling ect. I’ll include biting here too, he likes to be bitten. And face fucking cause. I guess that can be manhandling. HE LIKES IT ROUGH.

OVERSTIMULATION — Multiple rounds can get him overstimulated, so can toys when being used on him during sex and he likes that. He likes to be fucked stupid, to cum over and over again until a single thought can’t be formed in his brain.

CUM ENJOYER — He loves it. The taste, the texture, everything. If he’s giving you head, you can bet that he’s going do whatever he can to get you to cum in mouth so he can consume it. He also likes it on him, so if you cum on his face he won’t be offended, just don’t be surprised when he scrapes it all off and eats it while making eye contact with you.

DIRTY TALK / DEGRADING / PRAISE — speaks for itself. Taejoon’s a brat. He likes to be told nasty little things and degraded while being railed by his partners. It can really get him going to be called nasty things and told nasty things. But at the same time he likes the praise, being called a good boy, ect.

SIZE — Taejoon generally likes taking it from those who are bigger then him. He likes it when they make him feel small. Whether it’s their body type ( or their dick if they’re a guy ) When it comes to their dick size, he’s a size king. His own dick is about 6-6.5 inches.

[agmaknae]

Some general headcanons!

high spice tolerance. Makes fun of everyone else who can’t handle it. He also really likes sweet things, including sweet + spicy. Not a fan of sour or bitter foods; will not drink black coffee because it’s far too bitter.

has always been rough around the edges, but since becoming a demon it’s gotten worse. That’s mostly from the paranoia of gwi-ma possibly hearing everything he or the other says.

protective of his friends. He cares about them despite his demeanour ( if he didn’t I don’t think he would be around them or vice versa. They understand how he works and are fine with that ).

doesn’t like his height being pointed out.

really likes cats. He loves that blue tiger of Jinu’s and will go out of his way to go pet him if he’s around, ignoring everything else around him.

very easy to embarrass.

he is not afraid to get into a fight with someone.

genuinely does like cute things. Has a bunch of cute little charms on his bags and his keys. Will probably buy one if he sees it. Will be snarky about it if you point it out.

he likes the idea of arcades but then hates how loud they are.

his favourite flavor of things is melon! Melon candy, melon sweets, melon drinks. He just really likes melon. He doesn’t have a favourite specific melon, he likes them all pretty equally.

Headcanons pertaining to Woohyuk / Abby, Romance ( @silklies ) and Zoey ( @erobret ) specifically

does not like excessive PDA. He can hold Woohyuk’s hand, walk close to him, lean against him ect, but it’s not excessive.

is close to romance because he’s the only one he confided in about his feelings for woohyuk

the only one who was/is ever allowed to shorten his name is Woohyuk. This is also pre-dating. I think there’s just a level of trust there that he doesn’t have with his other friends ( no it’s just bc he’s gay) where it doesn’t bother him. But he hates when anyone else shortens it. He’s fine with ‘Tae’ or ‘Joon’ but absolutely hates ‘Joonie’. Zoey later gets a pass to shorten his name because of their brother/sister relationship.

[agmaknae]

Taejoon has…always been rough around the edges, even in his 4STARZ days, but it got worse after he sold his soul to Gwi-Ma. The added stress, the constant paranoia of being watched, the echoes in his mind when he steps out of line too much. It’s made him a little harder, a little colder than he was previously and much more closed off. But it doesn’t matter. He’ll suffer through it if it means attaining his & the others collective dream. That’s what got them here in the first place.

It’s crazy how good he can be with his ‘cute and peppy’ act for the public, like flipping a weird switch.

[agmaknae]

I was talking to @silklies earlier and like…I’ve been thinking about this more now

Taejoon is jealous. He doesn’t act upon it though. The most he does is side eye or look away or huff; but it’s hard not to be when your tall, attractive boyfriend is out there showing his body to the world like a whore 😩 but it’s fine bc Taejoon likes to look too…so he’ll suffer with other eyes on his man bc at least he gets to take a peek too