i honestly need to bail or crash out. real bad. i’ve been so stressed about shit i haven’t had time to focus on how terrible and miserable this wedding is going to be. might just disappear into the mountain mist to be tbh.
it will be so sad to leave my garden and i try not to think about it. but the thai basil and zinnias attract bees and hummingbirds to their flowers and their foliage grew out lush to create a canopy that doves, armadillos, and bunnies live under. it’s this wild beautiful thing and i put so much love into it. and my house is going to get sold and bulldozed or turned back into a rental and it’ll all die and it’s so tragic and sad to me. but it’s life! i’ll start again at the next place, and the next place after that.