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fathers day .. her father in general .. are .. addy wishes she could say complicated that sure things hurt, things go wrong and people say the wrong thing but she knows he loves her, that hes her dad and he loves her and wants her to be happy .. but things aren't complicated .. things are tragically simple with henry morris.

addy knows things weren't always like this with her dad, knows there had to have been love, had to have been care .. just not enough left after everything, especially after she gave them a storm cloud of a daughter. slowly, like a storm giving its last scream she felt that care, that love fade until it was like white noise in the background of their relationship. it lingered there between phone calls, facetime videos when she couldn't make it home for holidays .. lingered and lived on until snapped ... and died.

addy can still remember sitting at the dining table across from her seething father thinking she didn't withstand a storm that should have killed her, didn't drag herself out of hell by her own bloodied and broken fingernails to back down from anyone, even her own father ... can still remember the moment she saw it all fade ro nothing but cold and clear anger, a line thrown down with her blood family on one side and herself on the other .. she still remembers walking away from it all that night.

its not that addy expected anything from her father after that night, hell she would have been more surprised if he had extended any sort of olive branch but .. then el reno happened and addy knows once more her picture, her name was splayed all over, gracie was constantly on her side of the phone .. javis mom had called to check on all of them, so had cathy who had driven all the way down there .. it made her fathers silence, the father who used to let her ride around on his shoulders, who snuck her ice cream in the middle of the night when she had a bad dream, the dad who kissed her forehead whenever he left for work, all the more deafening and she realized once more standing in the hospital in el reno that she really was an orphan now.

things with henry morris aren't complicated, they aren't messy or loving .. or anything. they are tragically simple ..

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will most likely be posting a fathers day study for addy later because i have Thoughts

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𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

“ am i not good enough? ”  

“ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ”  

“ why did you help me? ”  

“ who do you fight for? ”  

“ why do you hate me? ”  

“ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ”  

“ you’re not dating anyone, are you? ”  

“ i’ve got your back, okay? ”  

“ where do you think you’re going? ”  

“ how long have i been asleep? ”  

“ are you going to kill me? ”  

“ why can’t i come with you? ”  

“ we all have secrets, don’t we? ”  

“ did you want to be alone? ”  

“ why should i trust you? ”  

“ wait. did you hear that? ”  

“ promise me? ”  

“ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ”  

“ do you remember anything at all? ”  

“ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ”  

“ you wanna know what your problem is? ”  

“ may i have this dance? ”  

“ can i ask… what happened? ”  

“ how many people have you killed? how many? ”  

“ do you ever hear yourself? ”  

“ would you run away with me? ”  

“ could you be happy here with me? ”  

“ you can’t or you won’t? ”  

“ you slept with them, didn’t you? ”  

“ well, how do i look? ”  

“ after all you’ve done how can i possibly trust you? ”  

“ why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of? ”  

“ what did they do to you? ”  

“ so why’s it so important anyway? ”  

“ where have you been? ”  

“ why are you looking at me like that? ”  

“ why did you come? ”  

“ what are you doing out here by yourself? ”  

“ is… that my shirt you’re wearing? ”  

“ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ”  

“ why does it always have to be a fight with you? ”

“ why can’t you look me in the eye? ”  

“ can you forgive me? ”  

“ what if i never see you again? ”  

“ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ”  

“ how about a little midnight snack? ”  

“ are you… smelling me? ”  

“ how did you get this scar? ”  

“ what do you want in exchange for it? ”  

“ what did you want to tell me? ”  

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𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐌𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

“ everybody lies. ”

“ weird works for me. ”

“ truth begins in lies. ”

“ humanity is overrated. ”

“ pain happens when you care. ”

“ reality is almost always wrong. ”

“ i don’t care much for apologies. ”

“ i’m too handsome to do paperwork. ”

“ i’m gonna pretend to go to work now. ”

“ do you listen to what you’re saying? ”

“ you’re a disgrace to your stereotype. ”

“ never is just reven spelled backwards. ”

“ perseverance does not equal worthiness. ”

“ i know what’s bugging your subconscious. ”

“ new is good. because old ended in death. ”

“ if i was kidding i’d be dressed like you. ”

“ there’s nothing any of us can do about it. ”

“ do i get bonus points if i act like i care? ”

“ we all make mistakes, and we all pay a price. ”

“ i have almost no knowledge of alien physiology. ”

“ i cared for eight seconds, then i got distracted. ”

“ that is not the last feeling i want to experience. ”

“ if nobody hates you, you’re doing something wrong. ”

“ i’m deflecting because i’m avoiding something shallow. ”

“ almost dying changes nothing, dying changes everything. ”

“ i’m not deflecting because i’m avoiding something deep. ”

“ i don’t want to be in pain, i don’t want to be miserable. ”

“ i’m branching out from self-loathing and self-destruction. ”

“ i think when you do change, it’s not so simple to go back. ”

“ people don’t get what they deserve. they just get what they get.

“ if you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything. ”

“ we formulate our questions based on the answers we want to hear. ”

“ death is the opposite of a cool puzzle, it’s eternal nothingness. ”

“ livers are important. you can’t live without them, hence the name.”

“ did you come for my feelings? because i left ‘em in my other pants. ”

“ what’s the opposite of 'thank you’? i’m pretty sure it ends in 'you.'“

“ it’s one of the great tragedies of life — something always changes. ”

“  there’s no i in 'team’. there is a 'me’, though, if you jumble it up. ”

“ a unicorn isn’t a unicorn, it’s a donkey with a plunger stuck to its face. ”

“ hostility makes me shrink up like a… i can’t think of a non-sexual metaphor. ”

“ pain makes us make bad decisions. fear or pain is almost as big of a motivator. ”

“ it’s normal to be screwed up, but it’s really screwed up to romanticize it. ”

“ well, as the philosopher jagger once said, 'you can’t always get what you want.’ ”

“ everybody does stupid things, it shouldn’t cost them everything they want in life. ”

“ if you wanted fair, you chose the wrong job, the wrong profession, the wrong species. ”

“ if you’re not willing to look stupid, nothing great is ever going to happen to you. ”

“ it’s easy to be nice to people you like. but being nice to people you hate, that’s a skill. ”

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𝑴𝑨𝑫𝑬𝑳𝒀𝑵 𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑬 & 𝑴𝑰𝑨 𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑰𝑺 . Outer Banks ( 2020 – ) .

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art has never been something she's good at, it's why she was always drawn into jeb's editing and the way he created, encouraged any and all of gracie's interests because she was never going to have that painted thumb for lack of a better phrase. it's why brown eyes are drawn immediately to @shesdaylight sketching the girl playing frisbee with her dog. she must be staring longer than she thought and she knows better than that because the last person who had looked at her too long in the bar had gotten her elbow in their stomach because while you never really knew what they were talking about, you always had a clue and addy ? addy had no problem giving them something else to think about .. she wondered if she was about to be on the other side of that elbow, bleu eyes are lifted now to look at addy instead of her sketchpad " sorry, sorry .. didn't mean to stare. "

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she blames tyler for this. was it a fair thought ? no. was it a kind thought ? definitely not. but she wouldn't be sat here with kate down the hall filing javi in on the details of hew newest hospital visit if tyler had just minded his own business instead of looking at her with that concerned look in his eyes, voice all soft as she wobbled around on her prosthetic leg after twisting her other ankle hopping out of the truck after a coffee run of all things. once tyler had said the words addy and hurt in the sme sentence there was no getting out of going to the hospital.

so yeah .. she blames tyler for this.

it's why when the curtain swishes open addy groans low, frustrated and exhausted, a headache growing from the flourescent lights as she scrubs a hand over gritty eyes, " let me guess javi's coming too because of a stupid sprained ankle ? let me guess we're gonna call the national guard next, kate ? " she doesn't realize it's not kate in the entryway until she drops her hand from her eyes and sees @armybled in kate's place, " considering she might actually call our whole team soon any chance we could wrap this up quick so i can sneak out of here ? "

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addy scrubs a tired hand over her face, propping her chin up against her hand as she signals for another coffee, tilting her head to watch the downpour of rain just outside the window, trickling down in uneven and wobbling trails. she raises a finger to trace along them when a voice at her side makes her jump, mug rattling against its little plate,

" did you need something ? " there's a bit of bite in her voice, exhaustion blankets it all though and she curls her free hand, the one not still pressed against the window, into a fist and breathes .. in out and out, in and out before looking up @dumbthink with tired brown eyes " or not ? "

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should i post a study post about addy and fathers day ??

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while i'm actively rewatching tw.isters i'm rolling out a brand new starter call ! just click the world's cutest little heart for a starter !

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while i'm actively rewatching tw.isters i'm rolling out a brand new starter call ! just click the world's cutest little heart for a starter !

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𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘶𝘩, 𝘦𝘧𝟣 𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘧𝟧 𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘥𝘰 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨… 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘦𝘥. 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘪𝘵, 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘦. 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘵.

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘺𝘴, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘶𝘴 ..

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her mother remained unbroken, watching her with the same steel gray eyes gracie had, “ i wanted to name you after a storm you know, but your father insisted it would bring bad luck. ” she let out a huff of laughter, “ he said the storm would take you back, and i called him an idiot, but he was right, wasn’t he ? ”

a study in .. twister swept away your home, haunted by the narrative, surviving the guilt, the storm howling in your bones, where's the rest of me ?

an independent and private writing blog for canon divergent, headcanon based gifted by @sapphic-terror, adaline may morris, by abigail . parental abandonment, loss of limb, ptsd, twisters and severe weather & other triggering content can be found on this blog. due to the nature of source material and addy's background content such as loss of limb, twisters and severe weather and such will not be tagged, please keep that in mind. please read all information before following & interacting.

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for anyone who is still here (if you are i love you and i thank you ) i think i'm going to revamp this whole blog .. maybe create a new one i'm not sure but changes are happening and they are happening tonight !!

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.. taps mic .. is this thing still on ?

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psstt .. sorry i haven't been here my other oc has been taking up all my time but i promise i'll be here soon i'll never give up on addy and that's a pinky swear for all of you <3