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airacuddles · 3 years

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My mom called today. It so happens that I was changing the baby's diapers and I had the phone on speaker then si Ate Am-am nisud sa room. She offered na sya lang mutiwas ug change sa diapers. So ok. Then continue kog sturya ni mami. Take note that the call was still on speaker. Wa nalang nako gi off ang speaker kay murag feel nako lain sad pag ngon kay abi naay laing taw. But nakuyawan sad ko if mangumusta si mommy about that covid situation here. Hehe.

Mami said "Ging, ganiha si Beb pag uli niya sa ato, naa kunoy trysikad nangutana niya kung siya raba usa sa balay. Dugay pajud kuno nihawa ang trysikad. Nangutana pa kuno kung wala ba daw ang mama ug papa. Niingon rsad tawn si Beb nga naa rata sa balay. Unya ma obvious baya to kay nag open pa sya sa lock kay gikan sa gaisano. Unya dugay pajud nilakaw ang trysikad kay nagcge pa ug pangutana. Nahadlok intawn sya ging. Wala pajud ni bark ang mga iro kay nag wiki2 ra sa ikog. Nahadlok jud si beb".. Upon hearing that, nahadlok sad jud ko for her! Oh shit. Mao nani. Sa akong sigeg unya2 nga muuli kay nag ikog2 ko diri, mao na hinuon ni! I could only blame myself if anything happens sa balay because I could really have gone home about 2 weeks ago pero naikog rako diri nga muuli na kay mingawn silas bata. Nya ako manghud delikado na diay sa balay. Atay njud. Nakuyawan ko uy. Ako jud na konsensya tanan. So ni ask si mami "Kamo ging kanus.a man mo uli? Kay nahadlok baya si Beb."... Uhmmm my mind was in a race for an answer kay ultimately, mao njud ni akong ikarason nila diri why we have to be back sa Talisay. I was thinking already how to tell them. Mao to I said, "Sige lang, ako lang ingnon si Jan" then I remembered naa man diay to si Ate Am-am sa room, nagchange sa diapers sa baby. I don't know if she heard the convo, she was talking to the baby.

Then mao to. Hang up nami sa phone.

Chika mi kadiyot ni Ate Am. Then she asked "Nus.a man ninyo pabunyagan si dodong kay muuli bya mo inig December 24 para magpasko sa inyo?"..

Side chika.. One time naghisgot to si Mama Medy about magpasko diri nya akong manghud paanhion.. Like wow. Di jud diay mi nila papaulion oy. Nag expect pajud diay sila madugay mi. Then I told her," Kuan tah ma, ang plano nako adto mi sa Talisay mag pasko inig Dec 24 para makasuway sad syag pasko didto" . Di baya namo ma dali2 ug paanhi si beb kay unsaon nalang sad ang mga doggies walay mabilin sa balay nya pasko and possibly naay pabuto.. Lol naka think najud ko ka selfish naba ani nila nga sa ila huna2 di njud mi manguli oy 🙄 After ato, ni spread diay dayon na nga chika sa tanan diri. Hahaha.

Mao to na caught offguard ko gamay nga nachika na diay sa ila kadtong convo namo ni Ma Medy. Ang gitubag nalang nako ni Ate Am-am kay "murag ma sayo2 raba mi ug uli sa Talisay Te Am kay kadtong pagtawag ni mommy ingon sya... Bla bla bla..<Gichika ra nako niya tong nahitabo ni Beb>"

Then wala nako nakahisgot balik ana diri sa balay kay I have to tell Jan first. But I planned to tell Jan inig uli nalang niya.

I was a bit happy nga finally naa nakoy strong kaayo na reason to go home. But also afraid kay Wednesday pa and the nearest day we can move back sa Talisay kay Saturday pa kay work pa si Jan. Mao to everytime ganahan mukarga sa baby silang tanan diri, pinapaubaya ko nalang kay anyway hapit naman mi mulakaw. Naka notice pud ko gamay na murag ganahan sila magcge napud ug kugos sa bata. Ni lay low baya sila gamay ug kugos because of what I said before na ako na dapat mag anad ug pahilom sa bata 😅

When Jan got home, I told him about sa giingon ni mami. But just like before, since wa man mi gi ultimatum papaulion, wala rapud mi naghisgot kung kanus.a mubalik Talisay, all we know is it is gonna be very soon. Then mao to. Nawagtang napud sa amo huna2.

Later, si daddy najud ang nanawag while me, Jan and baby are in the room. "Te, musta man ang bata?".. "Ok raman daddy. Natog gikugos ni Jan".. "Ahh.. Te, si Beb kay nahadlok na raba tawn to kay naay nangutana niya nga trysikad. Nus.a man mo manguli? Ugma na?"... Baaam! There's the ultimatum I needed!.. "Kuan dadi, trabaho paman si Jan ugma".. "kanus.a man wai trabaho si Jan?".. "Saturday pa".. "ahhhw.. Cge byernes naman kaha ugma".. "Dili daddy. Thursday pa ugma. Wednesday paman karon".. "Hee mao ba.. Uhhh.. Naa pay trabaho si Jan ugma diay? Sa friday naa gihapon syay trabaho?".. Wew naluoy kong daddy kay nabalaka jud iyang tingog nga di katarong ug huna2 or wa na kabaw unsay lain solution na maka uli mi ug sayo2. I was worried about Beb too. Makauli raman jud ko nga kami ra duha sa bata. But I have to call Claire for a ride home. Pero wa sad ko nisulti kay I didn't want to assume na ok sad jud dayon si Claire. And also, murag lain sad mukalit lang mig lakaw while on work si Jan. Although di jud gud lain. Pero ahhh my mind isn't working anymore. I said, "Naa pasad work si Jan Friday daddy. Saturday pa sya walay work".. "Ahhhhhh.. Mao ba.. Ahhhh sige tawagan sah nako si Beb" then we hung up.

I told Jan "Papaulion na raba ta ugma. Pero basin Sabado nalang kay giingnan nako trabaho paka".. "

Later, Jan said "Bai kung adto nata Talisay, makabisita2 ra sila Clara ug Chenee nimo para makatabang pud nimo ba".. "Oo makaadto raman sila, mga wa man toy lingaw. Ingnon pa raba nato sila ha (referring to the people in this house, including Jan's mama)".. Then Jan said "Sabado man sah?.. Kahibaw naman lagi si Mama sa nahitabo ni Beb? Imo na giingnan"... Like ha? Wa pa gani ta nananghid about ato. Then flashback, hala ohh diay, giingnan nako si Te Am-am. Nachika najud diay dayon sa mga taw diri oy. Waw. Mao cguro nagcge na sila ug kugos karon sa bata. Lol. "Ha? Ayyy kaganiha man gud pagtawag ni mami, naa man gud si ate Am-am diri. Nya naghisgot man to sya na muuli ta ug Dec 24, nya ako giingnan na basin ma sayo2 ta ug uli"

So that's it.

Lol. This is a late post. This was supposed to be posted last Dec 2, 2020 😁

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airacuddles · 3 years

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Chika here! Hear! Hear!

Lately, already about a week, my baby has been crying A LOT unexplainably for 2hrs. Maybe this is what they called COLIC.

Backstory. You know how down and kind of a bit insulted everytime the 2 lolas call the aunties whenever the baby cries, right? Calling them instead of trusting me to calm the baby down. Again, I AM THE MOTHER. Nganong ang mga auntie ang tawagon? So okay. Here's the chika.

Baby cried a lot again. The 2 auntie's and Jan's mother came to our room. Jan was still not around. I was carrying the baby trying to calm him down. Automatically, ang mama ni Jan said "Auntie Am lang kugos nimo dong". I didn't immediately put the baby down or passed the baby to Ate Am-am. Until niingon jud mama ni Jan "Ihatag nang Am-am ber"... Wow! Straight up telling me nga ipasa sa auntie! Abog nsad jud kos ilang panan.aw oy. So ako gibutang nalang ang baby. And Ate Am-Am already held the baby. I got a little bit (or a lot), I mean maybe I already got fed up a bit, I said out loud "Si mama mani langga. Di naka ganahan ni mama?". Bang, lingi silang tulo nako gud. Murag nakuyawan. But there are two possible inner messages that they may have taken from what I said: "Hala overstepping nami"... Or... "aw luoy ka kay naanad na namo ang bata kay di ka kamao"

Well, shit. 🙄

Anotha wan. Baby cried a lot again. Maybe from what I said before, both aunties were calm enough to get out of the house..kanang wala ni isa nila nagbantay. So okay. Yes yo! I got this. Pero si Ma Medy was in the other room. She immediately went to our room. Again, baby was inconsolable. She offered me to go sa ila room because gi anad nila ang baby to listen sa nursery rhymes which is played via Youtube sa ila wifi TV sa room. Wala dayon ko niadto while I was carrying the baby. I put the baby down kadiyot just to check unta if the baby has pooped. Hala, pagbutang nako, gikuha man dayon sa lola ang bata. Ay na wow nasad ko noh? So gipa play niya ang Nursery rhymes sa tv. Baby was still crying a lot. So i took the baby back in my arms but stayed in their room kay para maminaw nalang sa music. Then she said "Unsa man sad ning mga tawhana oy".. Although I know she was referring to and was a bit angry kay nanglakaw lagi ang duha ka auntie, not one nabilin to help me, I asked "kinsang tawhana man ba?". She said "Sila Am-am ug Ana".. Bang nipitik nasad ko. I said "Sige lang ma kay di man namo sila madala sa Talisay. Ako dapat mag anad ani". Mao to murag boom naka realize iya nawng nga still hesitant kay di jud lagi sya mahimutang dili iyang mga anak mupahilom sa bata oy 🙄 Niingon pajud sya "Inyong TV man kaha dai ing.ani man kaha?".. aw shet ataya gud? Kanindut ba diay sa inyo TV? Naka one up namo ana kay ingana inyo TV? Nainsulto jud ko pramis. I said "Oo".. Hahahahahha atay baya. Sorry di pud nako anaron akong anak ug screen time. I only need a bluetooth speaker. Not a TV. Duuuhh 😒

So mao to. Hehe. 2 events na wa najud ko kapugong 😅

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airacuddles · 4 years

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What I dont like living here is that people are overstepping. They're not even like 2nd gen family. They're like.. 3rd! 🙄

Calm yo titties. I AM THE MOTHER. please know nga advises rajud mo kutob. Di mo magbuot please. Goodness!

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airacuddles · 4 years

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You're already stepping over! Dafuq! Ganahan jud ka i bottle feed bisan kabaw ka ganahan kog breastfeed. Mao nalang nay bond namo kay kamoy mupahilom, cge mog kugos, pirmi rako ninyo ingnan "pahuway lang". You wanted the bottle para ikay mu feed. You keep wanting me to pump. Nya nagpump ko, and you knowing nga naa koy gi pump, ikaw dayon ang nifeed sa bata. Wa man lang pangutan.a if ok ko mu feed. Ikaw mag inahan sa bata? Taympa ha. Hapakon kag birth certificate ron.

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airacuddles · 4 years

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Oo na. Perfect naka. Yes, I get insecure na. Because sa imoha na muhilom ang AKONG anak. Kay ikaw pirmi tawagon sa mga lola. Ikaw pirmi tanan. Ikaw nalang untay mama ani oy. Nag laag2 nalang diay unta ko. Nag kaon2 anywhere. Natog na ta kos unsang orasa nako gusto. Nakatrabaho unta kog tarong. Naapas nata nako ang dapat buhatonon sa opisina. Kadaghan nakog gisacrifice only for my child to look for your arms. Unsa naman intawn ni oy

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airacuddles · 4 years

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You know what fucking hurts?

Imong baby mangita nas kugos sa auntie because auntie is always to the rescue bisan di kailangan kugoson. Atay pakyo tanan.

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airacuddles · 4 years

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Here's a list of all the superstitious beliefs being followed by in this household:

🙄 Always sleep with light on kay kuhaon sa abat ang baby if walay light. Also, magbutang bagakay inside room

🙄 Magbutang ug thread cut from anything owned by the baby, lawayan, and ibutang sa forehead sa baby if mag HICCUPS para ma break ang sumpa

🙄 Baby's first tae is ipahid near lips of baby to avoid mga sakit2 if baby is already TEETHING

🙄 The cut umbilical cord (pusod) of baby kay ibitay sa door para di mauwawon si baby inig dako; and hipuson then on the next baby, join both children's pusod to hang para magka suod ang children

🙄 Palinaan ang bata if the baby always cries. Maybe to break sumpa, again

🙄 Dili mag nail cutter when the day falls on a day with letter R, ie Martes, Biernes, etc. But like, this does not apply if english ang day? Tuesday? Zzz

🙄

I've got 2 questions to all these superstitions

1) Where is the science in these?

2) If these were true, how come the americans don't follow these too?

I'll be updating as more superstitions are raised from this household. Everything ridikulus! 🙄

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airacuddles · 4 years

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Isn't it a little too insulting for a mother when your baby is crying and your mother-in-law only calms down when your sister-in-law gets hold of YOUR OWN baby? Like dafuq is going on here?

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airacuddles · 4 years

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Diba kung muhilak ang baby, tawagon ang mama? Nganong diri kay ang auntie ang tawagon? Abog nalang jud ko diring dapita

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airacuddles · 4 years

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POST PARTUM STORY

Here is the very bad part during post partum. First day, what ran into my head was I couldn't feel like I was really a mother. What I had envisioned was the pushing during delivery. The putting of baby on the chest. The sweaty me and all tired from pushing hard. All those didn't happen. It was all so easy. I slept thru it. I didn't feel any pain during delivery. I only slept. No pain. No hardship. Nothing. I felt nothing. ☹️

Lucky I had friends like Clara and Chenee. They supported me thru it. I couldn't tell Jan about it because it was too emotional and maybe kind of absurd. But it wasn't absurd for me. It was a bit of depression coming over me. But I fought it.

When I finally saw my baby personally, I didn't feel so much. I just knew in my head that it was my baby. But I couldn't feel in my heart. 😢 I didn't held him yet because I didn't know if I could already hold him. He was also sleeping.

On the 2nd day, the nurse told me to hold my baby. That's when it felt real already. I was happy. He was so small. 🥺

I gave birth on a Friday, and discharged on Monday. Baby still had to stay and finish antibiotics until Thursday. All the time I came back to the hospital nursery, it became more real to me. I wanted to have the responsibilty. He's mine. My baby.

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airacuddles · 4 years

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LABOR AND BIRTH STORY

This COVID 19 pandemic has caused a lot of inconvenience to the people. Especially to senior citizens, minors, persons with immunodeficiency, comorbidies, and health risks; and pregnant women. Above mentioned are at high risk in getting the virus.

Last October 3 on my prenatal check up, I was advised to get a swab test before I was due. As per hospital protocols, pregnant women should have a negative swab test result first before delivery. If not, mama and baby will be joined with other people (covid positive or not) upon delivery. This is just sad because we won't really know when a pregnant woman could deliver the baby.

My expected due date was November 7. But from hearsays, first babies are usually born later than expected due date. Just like Reynald's baby was. So I estimated to have the swab test scheduled on October 29 at Vicente Sotto for free. Obgyne's suggestions for swab were at APM mall near SM City Cebu and at UC Med Mandaue. But swab tests were costing 7k and 5k, respectively. Jeez. So much inconvenience.

The obgyne said she can only be there for her patients when admitted at St Vincent General Hospital. It is the only one of her three affiliated hospitals that does not accept Covid patients. So that's where we planned to get admitted.

I was also advised for prenatal visit on October 17. That was already my 37th week of pregnancy. I have searched that pregnanct mothers can already give a normal delivery at that week. The obgyne said she was also going to perform IE on me on that visit.

So on that day, I thought performing IE's would be thru a device inserted down there. Turns out, it was just pure fingering down there 😭 mind you, Jan and I havent had any contact all throughout the pregnancy. And right now, I am being fingered. It hurt. I felt virgin. Lols. But it did hurt 😂😭 like vaginal shock.

The doctor said my cervix was still closed. I need to have it opened already. The earlier the delivery, the better, so that the baby does not grow too much while inside the tummy, to avoid caesarean delivery. The doctor prescribed me Evening Prim Rose oil to help open up my cervix and expecting at least 1 cm opening by the next week.

The next week October 24, I visited the obgyne again. Cervix was still closed. She advised to double dose the primrose oil to be taken morning and night. I was advised again to visit on October 30 if I still havent had the delivery yet.

After the prenatal visit, Jan and I moved to his Aunt's house.

During pregnancy, I usually wake up atleast twice at night to pee. I also get super thirsty at night 🤷‍♀️

But on October 27, 2020, at 11:30pm, I woke up to pee and then drank atleast 1 glass full of water. This, I found to be normal and usual.

Then around 1:30am Oct 28, I woke up again to pee. And drank another half glass of water just to satisfy the thirst. I know I shouldn't keep drinking to avoid peeing a lot, right? But I was always thirsty at night.

At 2:30am, I had a little accident of peeing a little but stopped it before peeing all the way at the CR. I noticed my pee color was a bit cloudy. It wasn't normally like that. I have made research before about gush of water bag. It only said the color would be the same as pee. The definite sign is when the pee smells metallic. I dont really breathe thru my nose when Im inside the CR, but this time, I had to because it was a bit suspicious. But I smelled nothing. But when I came back to bed, I suddenly felt like pooping. I drank half a glass of water again.

At 2:54am, the sudden urge to pee again and this time, it was really hard to hold it. The pee has flown while I stood. I woke Jan up because I wasn't sure about it anymore. Then I went to CR to finish peeing. It still was cloudy but there was no odor. And the feeling of wanting to poop was still there and my back hurt like how my back hurts when I have my period. Jan wiped the pee on the floor. I felt so greatful he wasn't grossed out about it. Or maybe he did, but didn't show it 🥺❤️

I felt really worried about it already so I texted my obgyne at 3:27am of what happened. Jan and I just thought maybe it was just really pee. But there's still little trickles of pee, so I wore a sanitary napkin already. And this time, I didn't drink water just to be sure it wasn't because I kept drinking water.

At 6am, my obgyne called. She informed me that it was really water bag rupture. She told me to go to the hospital already but then I wasn't swabbed yet. So she told me to go to UC Med for swab since UC Med and St Vincent Hospitals are sister hospitals. After swabbing, she advised for me to go to her clinic at 3-4pm for an IE just to be sure it was already the water bag rupture.

We then went to UCMed at 8am together with Ate Ana. My stomach already hurts every once in a while.

When we got back home, the hurt becomes a little stronger. So I texted the obgyne if I could visit the clinic sooner. The doctor said we could visit at 1pm.

When we arrived, I got IE'd and the doctor confirmed it really was the water bag rupture but I was still at 1cm. Like omgggg. Everything felt so real already. But at the same time, I was really worried because as per doctor's experience with other patients, it takes 1 week to open up to atleast 6cm. Like, whaaaat is going on here? 😭

We then went straight to St Vincent General Hospital and arrived at 2pm. But I was still placed at the Out Patient Department as we were advised to wait before endorsed to the Labor Room for the swab result from UCmed to avoid bigger costs of the attendants' PPE. They also called UCMed to follow up results, UCMed said they would try to have the result given by 5pm. Wew. Another 3hrs of pain. I was advised when it hurts, I just had to breathe thru mouth. I was constantly asked for the intervals of pain. It was still at about 10-15mins.

At 5pm, they called UCMed again. Unfortunately, they moved the time to 9pm or 10pm. Like whaaaat, another 4-5hrs of pain! Jan was with me at the OPD. His face concerned and caring. Like, this is another part of Jan I haven't seen yet. I was so happy 🥺❤️😭

At around 9pm, I wanted to pee. When I peed, I noticed my pee was already colored brown. I told Jan. There was a little bit of my pee on the floor. He was not grossed out about it and even took a picture and sent it to Ate Ana.

At 10pm, UCmed has yet again disappointed. They said to wait until 1am. I was already in strong tummy pain. Intervals were already at 2-4mins. I told Jan what if I want to be in the Labor room already? But he kept encouraging me to wait and if I can still hold it for a few more hours.

So at 1am, I asked the nurses to call UCmed. They havent made a feedback until 2am already. Result was negative for COVID. Wew. Finally!

I was then taken first to the Emergency Room to be interviewed and IE'd by the resident obgyne. There already were tubes attached to me. Dextrose and stuff. And it my tummy reaaaallly hurts already. The resident obgyne was asking me questions and I strongly breathe in between each answers. 😭

I also had to lie on my back. I really didn't want that position as it feels very uncomfortable. After the questions, she IE'd me. She told me the baby has already pooped inside because her fingers were already full of brown stuff. That explained the brown color on my pee! The baby has possibly already ate some of it. What would be worse was if some of it went to his lungs. 😭 Bad news also was that I was still at 4cm! Lord, why all the bad things right now? 😭

Then I was taken to the Labor Room. Dr Geline was already waiting for me there. I was still monitored and we waited some time. Then she checked my cervix at around 4am but I was still at 6cm. I still had to lay on my back. Everything was so uneasy and uncomfortable already. Dr Geline told me to wait until 6am for the opening of my cervix.

At quarter to 6am, she IE'd me again but still at 6cm. She then told the staff to get ready for Caesarean Operation and called for the necessary doctors to be around. I was already so sad. Then she came to me and asked if I was really gonna undergo CS. She then told me "Mag CS jud ta because I already gave the chance. It's already been more than 24hrs since the water bag rupture. 28hrs already. And only 50% of amniotic fluid remains in the water bag. And cervix was still at 6cm open." she told me one of the tubes attached to me was already for induce, to help with opening of the cervix, but I was not responding to it and she has observed it hurt me a lot. She had taken it out and inserted it back and taken it out again but I was still at 6cm. In my mind, I was already so sad. Expenses would already be at 100k plus already! 😭 Dr Geline has also already informed Jan.

Then I was taken to the Operating Room. An anaesthesiologist was explaining to me about stuff that was gonna happen. They are gonna inject the anaesthesia and everything from my stomach down to my feet will be numb. Then I was put in a crouch position to have my spinal column clear to see. There was a specific place in my back where they are gonna inject the general anaesthesia.

They placed a cloth infront of me, like how you see in the movies where you cannot see them operation below. After the injection, I felt so cold. To the point I was freezing and my teeth were already clicking and making noises. The anaethesiologist was talking to me. She told me that it was nothing to worry about as it is normal when general anaesthesia is injected. And catheter was gonna be inserted so I may feel a little tingle down there. My arms were open wide. I cant remember if they were tied. What I knew was that I was awoke by the anaesthesiologist because I was already asleep while they were operating. "Maam, ayaw sag katog kay padung na mugawas si baby, nihagok pa raba jud ka". OMG kauwaw! 🙈😭

A few minutes after, I heard a baby crying. There, I saw my baby. But he wasn't placed on my chest😢 maybe also because I was numb. In my mind was "that's it? I already gave birth?" it felt nothing. Like blank. Also because I was numbed all over. It didn'tnhurt at all. Not the scenario or feeling Inhad expected for months. I could hear from doctors below mentioning "cord coil" but I was just so tired, i had slept again and hagok again 😅

I woke to the sound of my snore at the recovery room. It was just so damn loud. But I didn't care. I felt so friggin tired. A nurse was looking out for me. She asked if I could already move my feet. I couldn't. She told me I couldn't get to our room if I still couldn't move both feet. So I slept and snored again. After an hour or so, although I still could move my right feet, the nurse decided to have me taken at our room and Jan was there. I continued to sleep. I didn't know everyone was already calling Jan for updates. Even my parents. Oh and by the way, Daddy already told Jan to call them Mommy and Daddy already. Awwww ❤️

During my recovery, Jan helped me out. Even on eating, he would spoonfeed me. 🥺I really felt how he cared for me. He's constantly checking if I was okay. Took really good care of me like he was a nurse. ❤️

The next day after giving birth, Doc Geline visited me. She told me what happened. Turned out the baby was cord coiled which was why the baby couldn't descend and why my cervix couldn't open. I had 28hrs of labor. My baby has already defacated inside, already ate some of it, plus some even wen inside the lungs. He had pneumonia on his first day on the world. Imagine the things I was afraid of plus more, all happened on the BIG DAY 😭

But on the good side, atleast both of us are now safe. Things would have turned out bad if we had pushed thru with the normal birth since it the cord coil was only found out during operation, he would have been strangled when pushed out. 😭 It also would have been dangerous for me if I tried to push out on normal delivery because I was already so tired with 28hrs of labor contractions, remember, I snored so hard during operation. 😢

As Claire said, the late result of the swab test was a blessing in disguise. I'd also like to think of it that way.

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airacuddles · 4 years

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Hi!

Sharing my Covid Pregnancy Story.

To start, I always had late periods that started last 2016 when I was already too busy at work. It takes me about 2-3months before I get another menstrual cycle. I also got fatter. To which, I suspected I may already have PCOS. In my mind, I really wanted to get checked, also because Jan had already been expressing that he already wanted to have our own child.

Fast forward to Nov 13, 2019, that was my last menstrual period. When December 2019 and January 2020 came and I still had no period, I just shrugged off thinking since it was already normal to have skipped 2 months of no period. But mind you, starting January 2020, Jan has already been doing it and not pulling it out 😬🙈

Everytime I get to the 3rd month of skip, I always get the mini heart attack and buy preg tests. Before I bought preg tests, I decided I wanted to be checked already just so I know once and for all if I already got PCOS. Last February 8, 2020, I visited the clinic our family obgyne (wife of Mama Tas' cousin) together with Jan (just so he also knows whatever is going on down there), but she wasn't around. Instead, across her clinic, her husband, our family pediatrician saw me and Jan. He asked me

"Oh naa lagi ka? Nag unsa ka?".. "Magpa-check up unta kong doctora"..

"Uy buntis ka?"..

"Hehe dili, pa check up ra unta ko"..

"Ahw wala raba sya karon kay nagmeeting, balik lang nya sunod".

Sad. And sayang.

So last February 15, 2020, I bought just 1 preg test. And used it in the morning. He stayed the night before and I tested the preg test while he was there. It was negative. I gave a big sigh of relief. Joked to him about being positive, lol. And went on with the day.

Last February 29, 2020, still waiting for my period to arrive, I bought another 3 preg tests, just to be sure, as advised by Demi. Still, those 3 preg tests came out negative.

March came, the 4th month of no period. This was already the longest period skip I've had in my life and I was already so worried. I really want to get checked already if I really have PCOS, and to have it treated already. Unfortunately, because of Covid-19, Cebu was already placed under Community Quarantine. I wasn't able to get checked because public utility vehicles were already banned.

I prayed that I wouldn't have complications from this very long skip. By the middle of March, I worked out. Had diet. I wasn't eating much and I lost 2kilos in weight. I was happy. Lol. From what I heard, exercise and diet helps fight PCOS. It came to a point a already that I'm already only eating 1 meal a day for 3days. But because I was already vomiting from the lack of food intake, I thought I already had ulcer.

April came and I still wasn't having my period. This time I got so worried, I really want to get to Hi Precision to get an advise on what test to take. But from the advise of friends, luckily, there are already online doctors people can reach thru FB chat.

Before I tried to chat an obgyne online, I thought, I should buy preg tests to let the doctors know that I'm negative and I may already have PCOS. I bought 3 preg tests. That night, the thought that came to my mind was it would have been better if the preg tests come out positive than to have PCOS and the possibility of difficulty in being pregnant. So I prayed. I prayed that the preg tests came positive. I repeatedly prayed for it not being prepared of anything. I prayed for it because it was a healthier choice.

The next morning, I prayed again.

The 3 preg tests gave out 2 lines. Positive!

At first I didn't know what to react. I know I prayed for this result. But I didn't actually know what to do. I called Jan. That's when I cried. I cried because I didn't know how to say it to my parents. I cried because I wasn't actually ready if that result came out positive. I cried because of a lot of things, plans that may already put on hold or may never happen. Jan was a bit speechless at first, but then said "Maayo nuon. Maytag twins." Those words, tho a bit of a joke, comforted me knowing that he wasn't angry or sounding like wanna get away from it. He reassured that it was gonna be okay.

After the call, I immediately went to Beb's room and told her. She actually was happy. I told her I was worried on how to tell our parents. She said it was gonna be fine since my parents were already asking me since last year when I would settle down because it might already be difficult already to have kids. So voila mami and dadi, problem solved! 😅

That afternoon, I told Chenee and Claire. 😁 But then felt a bit guilty that I told them first rather than my parents. I decided to tell them the next day.

Next day, I called mami. Told her "Mami, I. Am. Pregnant." just like that. Mami's usual reaction was like a little bit disappointed. Tho she didn't say it, but I could hear it in her voice. But then daddy got the phone and told me "Ok rana ging, walay problema na". I was sooo relieved from those words coming from daddy. Like hello, daddy saying ok that I was pregnant and not yet married. I expected differently from both of them. Since daddy was ok with it, mami came to be ok with it too. Sometimes, mami gives the worst reactions tho. 🙄

After that, I told the rest of the homies.

I messaged an obgyne online. I found her at Facebook as one of the obgyne clinics near me at Talisay. She advised to have the Transvaginal Sonogram. But as I was not yet her patient, she haven't given me a prescription. When I went to Hi Precision, they didn't allow it unless I get a prescription and suggest that an obgyne or hospital should do the TVS. So I messaged another online obgyne. Thankfully she gave me a prescription thru email. I had Claire come with me to drive to South Gen Hospital.

I got the results in 30mins. And, boy, was I surprised to see on the sonogram that the baby was already formed! I was actually just expecting like a little circle or something not clear enough to make out a baby in the picture. But there it was, a baby in my tummy. A baby already 11weeks!

So this was the reason I lost appetite and lost weight. If only I had been able to see our family ogbyne last February, Jan and I might have already known.

Jan wasn't able to get across from Cebu City to Talisay City because of the strict border controls. I got so frustrated, I told him terrible things for not making an effort on crossing borders. He haven't even told his family yet. I felt so alone and I cried. I kept putting the pressure on him because I don't know his thoughts and plans. He didn't say anything much. So I thought I was being abandoned.

Also, since Cebu was under ECQ, clinics were also closed. Even obgyne clinics at hospitals were also closed. Should there be a maternity emergency, mothers are only allowed to go straight to ER. Since I am not in an emergency, thank God, I had to wait till clinics open. But I was worried I wasn't seen by an obgyne and I can't say for sure if the Folic acid I'm taking and milk are enough to get thru pregnancy.

Jan managed to get across when quarantine status was lowered from ECQ to MECQ last June 1. Clinics also opened that time. Finally, on June 4, got the prenatal checkup at Tecson Clinic with Dr. Geline Cabanganan-Tecson. I was really nervous because I didn't have any update on my baby's growth or he/she is still there. But when Doc Geline got that doppler and I finally heard ny baby's heartbeat, I almost cried out. I was so happy the baby's thriving even without proper vitamins before.

Then, I finally got the proper prescribed vitamins and given prescription to do a package lab tests for blood tests, urine, glucose, etc. When the results came, everything was fine except for urine. The test result came out me having Urinary Tract Infection. I was shocked. I haven't even felt any pain in urinating. When I told mommy about it, she told me everytime she was pregnant, she has UTI too. When she was pregnant with me, she was even hospitalized because of the pain in urinating. Wew. The doctor gave me medicine to be taken twice a day for 7days. Then I had to take the Urine test again. Thankfully, after the 2nd urine test, the result was already good.

Chenee and clara wanted to have gender reveal party. I didn't really want one. I mean, for me, the gender of the baby wasn't a really big achievement tho. Like, okay, the baby is a boy or a girl. What are the other people gonna do about that information tho? Haha ya get me? Gender reveals are just a waste of effort and money. Pregnancy reveals are more emotional and wonderful, right? Right.

I secretly didn't tell them I was already getting the gender ultrasound. I just posted a blue heart on my IG story. But Chenee got it right away 😅

Fast forward, everything was doing good. My appetite went back on my 2nd trimester. The food was great again. I had to take caution on my food intake because I was already gaining weight fast 😅

Everything was fine. Baby's body is already in position for birth. UTI was gone. All we're waiting for already was the BIG DAY 😍

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