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How do you know if it’s the end?

        I am with this guy for over a year already, Sucks to know but we are in a Long Distance Relationship. I’m here in the Philippines while he’s in Riyadh. Typical relationship, We fight but we always make up. But I didn’t know that being in a relationship with a “hot-headed-control-freak” boyfriend will make me go crazy. We are both christians, That is the best part ... NOT! Everytime we fight, He’ll lecture me about how to submit to him because HE IS THE GUY, And being the SUPERIOR in our relationship is a MUST. 

         We are both the eldest among our siblings, So that’s why when we argue.. No one will surrender without giving a good and messy fight. Whenever we argue, He’ll make our every problem  bigger because , Like He always says.. “Ano at Sino ba ang puno’t dulo ng lahat ng ito?” Surprise ! Suprise ! .... ME ! 

           Just because he cannot control his anger, He’ll blame me for making him mad. Sucks right? 

           I, on the other hand whenever we fight, will move heaven and earth just to make things up to him. Because like he always says “IKAW NAMAN ANG MAY KASALANAN NG LAHAT NG ITO”. Being guilty, And so in love with him.. I’ll say sorry. Even call him endlessly just for us to talk personally even if we are far away with each other. But everytime I do that, He’ll always end the call after the first ring. So the “cry-baby” me will bawl my eyes out just because he won’t answer the phone. “GALIT KASI AKO, ANONG AASAHAN MO?” , This was his lame excuse whenever I ask him why he won’t answer the phone. 

         I won’t sleep until we make things okay, While he on the oher hand? SLEEPING. See what’s wrong in this situaion? He doesn’t care, He never really cared. I can see the red flags but I chose to ignore it because I AM MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM. If he really loves you he will not make you cry , He will not let you go to sleep feeling unwanted and unloved. He will not let you doubt yourself. He willl not let the day or two to pass by not talking to you JUST BECAUSE  HE. IS. FREAKING. MAD. And when you try to talk to him, That’s the only time when he will decide if he wants to talk to you. How Brilliant! Because he will not give up his PRIDE. HIS. FUCKING. GODDAMN. PRIDE. just for you. “Talk to me first if you want me to talk to you.” Then you want me to believe that I WANT TO BE THE SUPERIOR HERE. Irony isn’t it? 

           Making me beg, For him to answer my goddamn call a couple of hundred times, Was the last straw. NO. ONE. SHOULD. EVER. BEG. SOMEONE. I promote equality and fairness here. I never make him beg. Nor make him wait just because I am mad. If he can’t do the same.. Better yet, Leave. It’s not worth it. You’re just wasting your time. 

So that’s how you will know if it’s really the end. 

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Burn !

Para sa babaeng papakasalan ko na (sana)

Mahal kita, kahit na klepto ka. Ninakaw mo nga ang puso ko ngunit ibinalik mo naman. Sa’yo na ‘yan! Sa’yong sa’yo na ‘yan!

Ano kaya mararamdaman mo kung may nag-snatch ng phone mo tapos after 1 or 2 years, ibinalik ulit? Confused ka syempre. Hindi mo alam kung magiging masaya ka pa dahil ibinalik sa’yo ‘yung dating iniingat-ingatan mo. Siguro, oo? Siguro, hindi? Wala ka nang paki. Pero sa pagmamahal, ibang usapan na ‘yun. Masaya ka na dahil sanay ka na sa kung anong meron ka ngayon… na nasa iyo ang puso ko, pero ibinalik mo rin. Ninakaw mo na ang puso ko, sana dinamay mo na pati apelyido ko. Kahit hindi mo na ibalik.

Ilang beses na tayong nag-</3, pero naayos rin natin ‘yun. Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, “Sana ‘di na ako nagmahal, para lang 'di na ako masaktan pa. Kaya lang, makita lang kitang nakangiti, handa na 'kong masaktan ulit.” at sabi ko nalang rin na worth it lahat ng ‘to.

Ang nagbibigay ng liwanag sa bahay ko ay ang Meralco. Ang nagbibigay liwanag naman sa buhay ko ay ikaw… Mahal ko. Ganern. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang plano ko sa buhay ko bago ka dumating sa akin. Binigyan mo ako ng rason na mag-work hard para makasama kita. Binigyan mo ako ng goal sa buhay. Medyo mala-#AlDub rin tayo. Magkikita’t magsasama rin tayo sa tamang panahon.

May nagtanong sa akin kung posible bang mahulog sa taong 'di mo pa nakikita. Kung sa kanal nga na 'di ko nakita habang naglalakad ako, nahulog ako… Sa’yo pa kaya?

Sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga ako mahilig magdasal dahil nakakalimot ako. Pero simula nang maging tayo, nagdadasal na ulit ako. Natuto akong magpasalamat kay God na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Pero ayun, our souls were just meant to stop by for a while, not forever siguro? Pero kung para sa akin ka, para sa akin ka. Kung hindi, ipipilit ko talaga.

Sa tingin mo pa na kung hindi tayo nagkakilala, sana sobrang yaman ko na ngayon; sa ibang lugar ako nagtatrabaho, etc. Sobrang successful ko. Wala akong pinoproblema, at baka napagpatuloy ko pa ‘yung paggawa ko ng libro or nagagalaw ko ‘yung social media accounts ko. Tapos fan parin kita. (Hihihi. Fan ko kasi siya dati.) Pero mas gusto ko ‘yung idea na nagkakilala tayo, dahil napasaya mo ako ng sobra. Ayaw na nga kita pakawalan e. Pero kailangan… Sa ngayon. Dahil hindi ako papayag na hindi tayo hanggang sa huli. 

Hindi ko na kailangang magpa-cute or magpa-sweet pa dahil nasabi at naipadama ko naman ‘yun sa’yo mismo. Gusto ko nito para arte lang. Hihi.

Happy birthday! (Ngayon ko ‘to pinost kasi 12mn na diyan sa Japan.)

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That feeling when you’re getting too attached to that person.. :/

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Yassss !

Blaire talking right there, ftw! ✌

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Nick may be bit of a man-child but that’s one of the many, many things that makes him so endlessly lovable. Sure he’d rather spend his entire life on the couch than literally anywhere else, but the way he looks at Jess is enough to make us believe in love, even couch love. And that kiss? That kiss is in the Kiss Hall of Fame where it will never, ever be dethroned. 

Source : Nick-Jess' Kiss 

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