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The thing that’s important about Sawyer and Juliet is that they are very much people who did not want to be the people they are. They reached a point where their only hope for survival in a bad situation was to emulate the best liars they knew who also happen to be the men who ruined their lives. They learned how to be alone despite longing for personal connection because they will always get left behind.

Two people defined by being liars, one who chooses to wallow in the endless cycle of misery it perpetuates and one who uses it against the person who taught it to her as a newfound weapon she’s never had before. Two people constantly chosen last by the world united by one fundamental truth that hits them both where they most needed it: no matter what, you still got my back.

NO ONE ON THE SHOW WAS DOING IT LIKE THEM.

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I'm tired of wanting more, I think I'm finally worn

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Cassandra: Romanticizing your own loneliness and turning it into a cool girl thing only works for, like, a few months, and then it just becomes a throbbing black hole I think. Not that I’ve experienced anything like that.

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most important thing to remember about being a woman is if youre married you have to go under the covers with your husband and laugh cutely and play wrestle so when you die to progress the narrative he can remember it in slow motion montages

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i just want to experiance kind of love where when we see each other we are left breathless for moment that we just stare at each other then run all flushed and hide somewhere catching our breaths becuase we cant talk because words would betray us because it's on tip of our tounges how we really feel but we are both full of pride and dont wish to make a fool of ourselves so we rather swallow all the intensity of emotions that we cannot forget no matter how hard we fight them, kind of love where we are meant for each other but would never believe it if someone told us before and now it cant be that its possible we suffer realizing it might be true and oh to just take someone's breath away and experiance snow on the beach phenomen, oh the intimacy of yearning for each other in same moment

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Obsessed with lovers and piners calling the object of their affections their best friend. Like yessss blur the lines between platonic and romantic love. show how important they are to you in a multifaceted way. Cover up your feelings with another kind of love that is just as true. One type of love does not negate the other and but tragedy can rip both out from under you single handedly, and it will hurt so much more that way. Losing a friend and a lover. Gaining both and not needing any labels for what they are. Using labels but having it be so much more than a title. Were they friends before they were lovers? Or were they lovers whose friendship grew inside of their love? Unclear! Who cares!

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Thinking abt that one quote that’s like “you are a language i am no longer fluent in but still remember how to read” like how soul crushing is that…. What the hell

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maybe one day you'll relate to the poems about being in love and being loved back. and not the ones about longing for it like it's something distant & unattainable for you.

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a specific detail i love in stories is when two characters who share a deep understanding of each other nevertheless only addresses each other by their title or last name, which somehow makes it even more intimate than if they were to just call each other by their first names. it’s about the veil of propriety, the false detachment and imposed distance, it’s about the restraint, the high esteem held in each other, the meeting-each-other-at-the-boundary-and-stop-before-crossing-it, making it even clearer they both KNOW where it is; all at once both full of yearning and of fond contentment

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When Mulder accidently wishes away the entire Earth's population after asking for "Peace on Earth" but still goes looking for Scully anyway expecting her to be there because he knows he'd never want to be alone in the world without her.

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Rainer Maria Rilke, The Dark Interval: Letters on Loss, Grief, and Transformation

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Jenny Hval, from Girls Against God

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"I cannot think of you apart from love."

~ Marina Tsvetaeva, The Selected Poems of Marina Tsvetaeva

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*isolates myself* why am i lonley

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does anyone have the post thats a leonard cohen quote talking about being empty