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I shrug. It wasn't the first time someone's told me that. People always accuse me of somehow cheating --which isn't really possible-- just because I had no kills and a low training score. "It doesn't matter what your score is. You can get a high score and win, but you may just have a target on your back then. Or you can a low score and win, but you may not get sponsors. It all comes with pros and cons. But in the end, you come up with your results. Every action comes with a consequence."

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

«Yeah but Jeb and Link got the highest score of their year and won.» I said with a sigh. And Omega with her 13 was killed near the end but I had the theory the game maker did that to put a taarget on her head. She must have done something.

I flip my second pancake -a bit better- and look at her. «No offence M…Alnanah, but you winning with a 5 its not usual» but winning without killing too. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I smile at his pancakes, seeing it is a little under cooked but he was still making an attempt. I sigh, realizing that I had not talked to the other mentors yet but I guess that didn't really matter. "Yes sponsors will be there, but there are other ways to get them as well. I don't know if you remember but I got a 5 in private training," I admit, blushing and laughing a bit. "But then people disregarded me as competition which gave me an advantage."

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I sigh as I flip my first pancake, a bit uncook but the first is always a failure. «Yes…already» That week went so fast. It felt like months since I volunteer in district 6. So little time, so many things to do and on top of that I fell in love. What the hell. «Private training worry me a bit. I know I’m watch by sponsors, i dont want to disappoint them. If we have one on our side during the arena it could be great»

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I smile as he prepares the stuff for the pancakes. It was sweet of him to make her breakfast. I shake my head and smile. "No thank you." I wasn't very hungry right now, probably because it was so early in the morning. I let out a yawn, pulling my hair out of its ponytail. "So, last day of training. Before private training of course."

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I laugh at the image of her with a paperbag on her head. We did do weird thing together. I prepare a mix with what I found and smile. I wasnt really good at cooking but I’ll try for Ade, I wanted her smile. «Pancakes» I said warming the oven. «want some, I can make more?» Somehow waking up at 5 am have some advantage. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I smile when he finally calls me by my name. "I like when you call me Alannah a lot better than ma'am. Y'know, I did put a paper bag over my head. I don't think someone like me deserves to be called ma'am." I say with a laugh. I smile when he tells me that he loves Ade. "What are you making her?" I question, watching him pull out some food for breakfast. I nod my head in agreement at his last statement. "It was the same with Griffin. When I told myself I loved him I didn't think it was possible because of how fast it happened. It's strange how love works, isn't it?"

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

«Thanks Alannah» I said, saying for the first time her ame. Because for the first time I feel she was an equal.  «But I love Ade, dn’t worry about it.» I said, whipping my walking to the kitchen to start making her breakfast. After all I came for that. To wake her up, make her smile adn snuggle a little before we have training. I needed to let my messy head away from her. Why when she was there everything was easier? «It,s just…amazing how she went so fast into my heart and fall for her when I never wanted that to any girl from my district.» I chuckle

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I lower my eyes, feeling guilty for having asked. I didn't know he's told it four times already and I felt bad that he had to tell it again. He probably just wanted to keep his mind off of it but I guess that didn't happen. I sigh. "No one deserves that to happen to them. Especially someone like you. I'm sorry..." It wasn't fair, and if I could change what happened to him I would but I can't, and that makes me upset. "I know this may sound selfish but I'm glad you told me." I was glad he told me because it gave me something to get closer to him with, even if that would make it harder later on.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

«Yeah, yeah sorry» I said whipping my cheek after letting her hug go. «I just hate to talk about it.» I said in a sigh. «In my district many people know my story so I dont have to explain it» I explain. Which is true Not many kid got my story back home. «Still hard for me, And its the fourth time in five day I tell it. Its…» I sigh again an scratch my neck. «I miss her. I miss them.» I never knew that baby. But I liked him the moment we knew Az was pregnant. I was so ready to be a dad. 

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I frown when I feel him shaking in my arms. It made me upset to see him like this but I refused to cry because I didn't want him to either. I rub my hand in circles around his back, trying to comfort him without words. I didn't want him to go back to Ade feeling upset and guilty. After about a minute, I back out and give him a smile. "You okay?" I squeeze his hand again.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I didnt want to cry. I didnt. But still a tear fall into my cheek. I held her close and shake into her arms. I think I needed that. I needed support. more than  what can you do with your emotion in the arena? A help for the time I wasnt in the arena. A help of the fact that in a few minute I’ll go back in Adelaide’s room and I needed to earase the guilt out of my mind. I dint want her to think I regret her. I dont. But Im afraid. I didnt talk. I just held her and felt so much better in her arm.

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

Azalea, pretty name. I feel my heart breaking as he tells me his story. I knew about her death but I didn't know there was a child and how it happened. Although I wasn't the one who it happened to, I still felt horrible. A tear streams down my cheek so I quickly wipe it away. I grab Oliver's hand and squeeze it. "Oliver, I'm so sorry..." Apologizing would not make it any better but there was nothing that I could say to make it better. "I know what that guilt feels like, but we can't help the way we feel. If we could, I would never have fallen in love with Griffin because I still loved Jarrod...I still do, both of them." I felt so much closer to Oliver now. I pull him into a hug, not wanting to let go of my friend, my brother.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

Her story broke my heart. I didnt know about her love story. The only thing I knew about Alannah is that she won without killing anyone and she was in the curse but that’s about it. And now that I knew that, I just feel more related to the mentor. «Azalea…» I whisper like her name was forbidden here And then I realized she knew nothing of my story. Fourth time telling it. And it was getting harder to do it without crying but I will try. I cried too much yesterday «She was my fiancé.» I said lookg at my hand. «Died six month ago…with our child-to-be because I didnt fix our roof and it fell on her.» I said with a shaky voice. 

«And like…Ade is the first girl that I looked and wanted to be with since then.» I admit. «But I was with Azalea for four year, six months shouldnt be enough to move on. But I do. And it felt good but it made me feel so guilty sometime. » I put my hand into my hair, confuse. «I love Ade…its just….» I put my head in the counter. «ugh….» 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

My mouth opens, his question taking me by surprise. At first I'm afraid that there was another girl but then I realize that it is probably his dead fiance that is worrying him. "Yes, I do. A few days before the reaping I was going to marry my best friend, Jarrod, but he was taken to the Capitol and became an Avox. I never knew what he did because no one would tell me but apparently it was bad. Anyways, when I was reaped and came here, I fell in love with the boy from District One, Griffin. At first I felt guilty as hell because all I wanted to do was find Jarrod, but then I realized that I loved Griffin too. And then I realized that I would probably never find him ever again. I've never forgot him but I had to move on with my life." I pause, lowering my eyes. "What was her name?"

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I laugh and bite my fruit lost a bit in my thought. The fear that struck me yesterday came back to me and I took deep breath to calm down. Somehow, I never doubted when Ade was around. But when alone my mind was working and I hated i. «Do you think it,s possible to love two person at one time?»

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I laugh when his cheeks turn red. "Why are you blushing, Oliver?" I poke his cheek with my finger and giggle. "That's cute." I tease, taking another bite of my apple. My mouth opens a little when I realize the age difference between the two of them then roll my eyes and smile. "Well it's a good thing I'm so calm about all of this."

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

Her question caught me off guard and I laugh a little, biting my apple before answering. «oh yes we have.» I said blushing even more that I should  «again and again and again until we had to stop before something else happen.» I confess. I dont know why, I just feel nothing should be hidden from Alannah. 

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I freeze mid-bite and raise my eyebrows. "Wow, I didn't even realize. How weird..." It was like the District 6-District 10 curse now. I think back to the day that Jolie and Amity died, how hard that was to watch. It made me think about how much harder it would be if that happened to Oliver and Ade. I shake the thought out of my head, not wanting to ruin this happy time for them. "So, have you two kissed yet?" I tease, wiggling my eyebrows and smirking.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I laugh. I said bitting my apple and trying to imagine Adelaide with a bag on the head«Yeah, do you believe it, I think my district is linked to it too.»  I said, realizing how weird years are different but so similar. « Jolie and Amity. now me and Ade, somehow district six and ten find each other. » Both D 6 and 10

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

"Trying is the only thing you can do." I smile at him, actually happy to know that Ade had him and he had Ade. I laugh when he brings up the paper bag again. "Aw man, I guess there's no point in that anymore." I joke. "Not even a paper bag can overpower the District 10 curse!"

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I sigh at her word trying to fight the image of the ring on my nightstand. But I know I had the best sleep since I got reaped. Having Adelaide in my arm and feeling her breathing against me was the  best thing to fell asleep. I might save her. I will. I won’t fail again the girl I love «I’ll try» I promsie Alannah

I hugged her back and start laughig when she threaten me to kick my ass. «I should have give her the paper bag.» I joke. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I nod my head and squeeze his hand again. "I know. I've been through the same thing. It doesn't matter how hard you try to fight it, love always wins." I knew that firsthand. When I was in that position, I tried so hard not to cave in but I couldn't help the way my heart was feeling. "At first I was scared too. I was scared of what would happen when we got into the arena. But for now, I don't want you to be scared. Please, if you're going to do this then do it right. Spend as much time together because time is precious and it will fly by faster than you could imagine." I wrap my arms around him and give him a hug. "Ade is like my little sister, so treat her right or I'll have to kick your ass." I joke, laughing and giving him a wink.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I look up at her and I exhale, relief when she told me she wasn’t mad. I was ready to have a lecture how I lied to her or how it wasn’t fair for Ade. But no. As always Alannah was «Yes we both try to fight it but it still happen.» I said remembering how our axe training was confusing for both of us. And we barely train in fact. «And to be honest it scare the shit out of me» I said in a chuckle. 

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I laugh as he starts dancing. I watch as he avoids my eyes, then slowly nod my head as he confirms my guess. I had a feeling that they would end up together, even if he told me he just wanted to be friends and I had shown Ade my tape. But now that it happened, there wasn't anything that could change it. I put my hand on top of his and give it a comforting squeeze. I stay silent until he finally looks up at me then I smile. "Sweetheart, I'm not mad." I say. "If anything I'm happy for you two."

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I catch the apple chuckling as she sat down. «No I told you I’m learnign how to dance!» I said. And on that I am starting to dancing like a robot in a goofy way. I chuckle a bit before sitting by her side and playing with the apple. I bite my lips not really knowing how to tell her. Our last conversation I stated that I wanted Ade as a friend. And now I woke up in her bed…. Shit. «Yeah seriously…. don’t be mad but we are kinda together.» I said looking at my apple. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

I put a hand on my hip and smile. "Mhmm, sure. Let me see some dance moves then." I walk into the kitchen and grab two apples, keeping one for myself then tossing the other towards him. "So, wanna tell me the real reason why you're here? Wait no, let me guess. Does it have anything to do with Ade?" I tease. Obviously it had to do with Ade but he would have to tell me the truth by himself. I take a seat at the counter and take a bite of my apple before nodding at the chair next to me, silently inviting him to sit with me.

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I put hand in my hair, happy that, at least I had my pajama and a shirt. How awkward if I would be in boxer here. I put my hand in my pocket, knowing that she would have to know sooner or later. She was close from Ade. «Learning how to dance, obviously» I said in a smirk. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

For some reason I woke up extremely early this morning. Maybe I was nervous for the tributes because time was narrowing down and in a few days they would be in the arena. I pull my hair into a ponytail then wander out into the suite. It was so quiet, but I couldn't wake anyone up at this time of day. When I make my way to the end of the hallway, I realize that I'm not alone. And who is standing there takes me by surprise. "Oliver?" I ask. And although I had a feeling that I already knew the answer, I asked anyways. "What are you doing here?"

This is totally what's it looks like. || Alannah and Oliver

I wanted to make Adelaide happy. I wanted her to wake up and the first thing that she does is smile. I wanted to see her blush and saw her eyes sparkle just like yesterday. So I went out of the bed and was ready to go to the kitchen taking some breakfast and bring her to bed. It was early in the morning, but maybe if she wake up we will have time to eat  and snuggle a little before go to training. 

So I walk out of her room and close the door silently, hopping there was no one up at five am but apparently my wish didnt come true. Alannah was in the hall, in pajama, looking at me a bit confuse. shit. «Morning Ma’am.» I said, blushing. 

[alannahpreston-d10mentor-blog]

To answer her question, I pull the whip up then back down in one fluid motion, hearing the loud crack bouncing off the walls. "It sure is!" I twirl the whip around in quick circles. "So is there anything you need help with before you use it? It's pretty easy when you get the hang of it, you just need to be patient at the beginning." That was true. When I had first been taught how to use one I would always hit myself in the face or it would get wrapped around my legs, but once I kept practicing I gained the skill that I have today.

*Some punny whip title* || Alannah & Gemma

My hand tightens around a whip handle as I pull it off of the rack, the tail-like part of the whips hangs carelessly at my side. The three dimensional dummies looked untouched through out the day and Alannah sounded saved to have someone to speak to and train towards.

I moved the whip in circles slightly. “Knowledge: how to use them, what’s their use, how to not knock yourself in the face. But I have never used one, I don’t know if I can use one just yet. Was this your weapon of choice?” I motion towards the whip she held in her hand.

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No other tributes had decided to train at the whip station yesterday but today was a new day and maybe someone would try it. I grab a whip in my hands and twirl it around until I see a girl approaching me. I watch as she runs her hand across the leather of the whips, hopefully as intrigued by the whips as I am.

"Nice to meet you, Gemma! I'm Alannah, District Ten. Mentor of course," I say with a smile. "Know anything about whips?" 

*Some punny whip title* || Alannah & Gemma

None of the weapons around the training center seemed to fit me and my knowledge. Mentors from various Districts were assembled at casual stations to help out the other tributes, but one station had me at first glance. A mental rack hung whips by their handle that stood by a brunette, older looking woman. 

I walked up to the station and traced my fingers against the whip’s leather. No point, but just as powerful as any other weapon. The weapon has always had an interest in my life, a knowing from Garlen, but I’d never used a real one before.

My eyes trailed up to the mentor before I straightened my back. “Hello. Gemma, District Seven.”