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David had a speech impediment when he was younger and couldn't pronounce certain words properly, which led to Elias calling backpacks, "packpacks" to fully grown men once

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quiet moments

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Do you think Logan had medium/long hair before he joined the military? I'd like to think he did, he'd play with it while he was bored or waiting for Elias to pick him and Hesh up from another wilderness survival trip.

Speaking about Logan with long hair, do you think Hesh learned how to braid hair for Logan when he was younger? He learned how to do fancy things like French braid and stuff, and was a tiny bit sad when it was cut off when they joined the army.

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fucked up hurt/comfort. the person who stabbed you tends to your wound. the person who killed your loved one helps you grieve.

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I wanted to draw Hesh with his gear on but I got a little sidetracked and it turned into an anatomy/rendering practice lol

Version 2 Under the cut 👇👇👇

(btw please refrain from making sexual comments)

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logan who, after returning, tries to drag some comfort back out of the bright stars at night like he used to as a teenager; back when he still had his father by his side, listing out constellations until he slept.

logan who is ridden with sadness (and trauma) after only being able to see the dirt under his nails, the blood staining the soil, rorke's face taking over the only positive memory of his father, just like always.

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you ever think about how significant and symbolic beaches are for the walker brothers' lore?

the one set of footprints left by the two of them on the beach in point loma, as logan walked exactly in david's footsteps, not only showcases logan doing everything after his big brother; it also symbolizes hesh' leadership, logan's loyalty, and them always protecting e/o.

the beach is coincidentally also where they see each other for the last time. david, unable to help logan due to his injuries, can only watch as his only little brother, who joined the army in his footsteps, tries to reach out for him in a plea to be saved as he's dragged away through the sand by the man who killed their father.

in the end, they don't leave that beach together. logan doesn't walk in david's footsteps anymore. david couldn't protect logan, he couldn't follow after him. it's safe to assume logan's loyalty for his big brother wavers after that.

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Get Well Soon

i'm so happy to get to share this with all of you. that spread is gonna be may and aug's patron post cards, sub between now and july 31 to get simon's half.

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what if rorke took logan's dogtags and/or mask and shipped them to hesh and keegan to torment them and make them think he's dead

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how it feels rn

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lol I wonder how long he kept up hope that his big brother would save him from the torture like he always did before he realised nobody was gonna save his ass 😂😂 i wonder how many of those ten years he was in the pit he wondered if his only family had truly given up on him lol haha

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I wonder if he still thinks about how his dad's final words were praise to his brother and only his brother even though david was sat directly next to them 🤣🤣🤣

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I bet when he wakes up he has a moment of peace where he still thinks Logan is safe and his father isn't dead 😆 bro thought the suffering was over

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limbus autism..

could you do hong lu or sinclair from limbus company ?

Yes!

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