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I help but who helps me?

The real thing is that people do not act good or altruistic to grunge good to the world. To act without wanting something in return is not wired into our brains. Almost every single individual takes decisions at their convenience. Since we are born we have been instructed to see what we can obtain from others and give little to nothing in return. There are only a few individuals that act genuine to others. These individuals are the closest thing we have to altruistic humans and even though they think of others, they are doomed to fall and become as selfish as the others. 

I have always thought of helping others. If someone requires help, there is no reason why I should not at least attempt to help. These actions should not be required but should emerge from all individuals as an act of kindness. That was what I had once set in my mind, but as I have lived, my mind has changed continuously. I thought that helping should be to everyone since it is more of an act made by you than the reward you will receive. I have learned that not everyone should be helped. It has happened that helping others only ruins myself and the actions that I was supposed to do. Helping others only prevents me from doing what I want. This would not seem as bad if the actions were reciprocated. 

If you do good you are supposed to be given good right? No, it is not always like this. Wait, it is rarely. There are a few people that do good for others and even less if you did not help them before. If you find someone who helps others not waiting for something in return do not push them away. These people are precious and with them, you can succeed and have happiness. Just remember that you should also help them. Remember that this is a two-way street.

I have concluded that I should not change. Everyone should be altruistic for this world to prosper, but society has rewarded selfishness. Everyone has changed to only focusing on his needs and maybe it is the only way to move forward. From now on I decide whether I help others or not because good does not always come from helping people. Most of the time it is those actions that prevent me from doing what I have to do. It is an obstacle rather than an opportunity.

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In my thoughts, wait, what was I thinking?

Did I take a dump today? Thoughts like this fill my day all the time. They may seem as insignificant, but there are times when these thoughts get a bit too serious. From general to personal, my mind starts to think more critically. Especially when I spend time by myself, I think of the future and present. Sometimes I congratulate myself but most of the time I criticize my actions. 

Am I enough? Am I capable of succeeding? This is the main deep thought that emerges in my lonely mind. All my life I have been competitive. With others or myself, I compare my actions and achievements to analyze whether I have done enough in life or not. Especially in these months when we're going to university is just around the corner. People have told me their experiences in this process of leaving their homes to being on their own. Some have told me that at first it was hard and exhausting developing habits, but with determination they were able to achieve a stable life. Others have explained their horrible experience. They emphasized the fact that they felt completely lonely and anxious. The situation was so direct that they could not take it any longer and instead returned to their homes and gave up on their dreams. 

Now I turn to myself. Am I strong enough to keep going and brah through obstacles? At first I big-up myself. You are ready. This situation is a piece of cake. You will cruise through it with ease. My mind was held high with the ideology that I will be able to overcome everything they throw at me. I felt capable, but everyone felt skeptical. It really hurts when people in your inner circle really believe you will not be able to achieve what you want. When you hear this a thought rushes in. Does he know something about me that I cannot decide which proves my lack of capacity? 

These comments really get to me, but I always try to see the positive side of everything. A song pops up in my head to help with my mentality. Lose Yourself by Eminem is my main tune to increase my determination. The fact that it states that you may have one shot or one opportunity, makes me think that each opportunity should be taken no matter how unlikely it is for it to succeed (Eminem – Lose Yourself, s. f.). People may say that I do not have what it takes to take care of myself, but I have decided to prove everyone wrong. These inner thoughts have made me stronger and when the day comes I will take that opportunity and seize everything I ever wanted (Eminem – Lose Yourself, s. f.). 

Eminem – Lose Yourself. (s. f.). Genius. https://genius.com/Eminem-lose-yourself-lyrics 

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March 8th

So yesterday was March 8th,  the International Day of Women and even though I do not identify as one and do not believe I am qualified to define what a woman is, I can say that the 8th and 9th are days which seem confusing. 

Just to start, I was informed that it is improper to congratulate women. My first thought was, if it is your day, why not allow people to celebrate it? but when talking to people, they made me realize something. The goal of this day is to promote justice for women to get the equality they deserve every day. Women and especially in México have been mistreated and hurt for reasons that seem horrendous. So…… should this event be celebrated, acknowledged or taken as a normal day since what they pursue should be the norm? From one side to celebrate it is incorrect since you emphasize women just for that day and seem disrespectful. On the other hand, to take it as a normal day is like not caring. There is a problem in this country and even though you are a person who treats all people equally, there are others who don’t and not doing something to change it kind of makes you part of the problem. 

Now, I am writing this on the 9th and when I was at school, only a couple of my female peers attended. Why were they absent? I knew that it had to be related to yesterday’s event, but since only a number of my female friends were in class I was not sure. It was later explained to me. This day was the day that all women supposedly stayed at their homes. The result of this would be to show the world how valuable women are and why they need to give them the respect they deserve. 

So now that I was in class I reflected. Why was it that some of my female classmates still came to clases… Maybe the act of not leaving the house is not the solution that some women prefer. By staying at your homes you will make an impact on the day to day life, but leaving your homes and doing certain actions could also be a solution. The thing is that from where I see, both sides are justifiable and could make a change, but by doing both it divides women and will end up making little to no difference.

This event has multiple ideologies which are contradicting all aspects. These make my brain boggle immensely. The thing that I have clear in my head is this, it does not matter which take I have on the topic, either way I will treat all genders equally and give them the respect they deserve.

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School is either chill or stressful. There is no inbetween. 

School:

Six 

Cruel 

 Hours

 Of 

 Our 

 Lives

That was what my friend and I wrote during most classes, especially in science. That day, our class was watching a “very interesting” video about bat’s echolocation. It was so descriptive and the narrator had the most relaxing voice, that I could not let myself pay minimal attention for a second. My eyes were starting to close and I began to lay my face on the bed to begin my typical sleeping period. It would always begin so peacefully and then. BANG! Right on cue, the question would pop in my head. I turned to my friend to ask him, “What homework do we have for tomorrow?” Arrgh…. We both knew that we always had homework to do. The real question would have been how much we had. These were either classwork that realistically were impossible to finish in the 50 minutes of class time, or the everlasting homeworks that would drain your will to live. We were both starting to worry. Just like the other days, we would have to stay late to finish it. 

On the other side of the classroom I saw two of my classmates. They were giggling and talking to each other. Their posture was relaxed, like they did not give a …. about what work was left to be done. I partially envied their mindset. No trace of worry was in their faces which made me think, they do not struggle with the homework at all. What I did not perceive was that they actually did not care about their performance in school. They knew that they would still be able to do good in life since their family was in a good position. Was that actually the correct way of thinking? Maybe if you did not force yourself to do the homework and rather go with the flow, it would all resolve at the end. Nahhh that sounded too good to be true. That did not guarantee success and if they could achieve it I would say that it was because of luck. 

I have deducted this. You could stress in school but because you care about doing or you could chill and leave it to a coin flip whether the result is what you want. For me, I prefer to stress a bit but make my goals attainable rather than wishable.  

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Manifestos, should they really be as controversial as Mein Kampf?

Manifestos could be seen as :

a written piece of writing in which people or parties express an ideology. It normally tries to express one that is different from the norm and tries to make an outbreak in people’s minds. 

Now, I believe that all manifestos, even though some may be unacceptable by ethics, are worth being made. It is free of speech after all and every individual can express the topics they want. It is how they are seen by people which make them seem as readable or needed to be banned. What people do is relate these manifestos wrongly as they see them as a resistance to ideas set by the many. From the get go, people misjudge these pieces since they see them as attacks. We need to understand that pieces of writing can be read but are subjective to all people. It can be that this piece of writing is not for you, for them or even for the many but you should at least understand what the author is trying to convey before doing an assessment of the piece. 

These manifestos are normally seen in political points of view, but a manifest could be introduced to any aspect that tends to be subjective. It's just that people just see these pieces for politics because it is where they have shined a light on them. Let's take art as an example. Pieces, structures and techniques of art tend to be subjective since creativity is not something that can be measured or qualified by a concise checklist. Poems in art can be seen as a delightful flow of emotions written in a piece where you portray yourself and what you are going through at the movement. There were manifestos that completely go the opposite way, they think that poetry is more like an army of stragglers. At first people could be like why would he say such a thing, but have you taken into account how poetry is sometimes hard to understand the way that the author wants. These forms of writing could be hard to understand since with the use of figurative language, When you write a poem, can you do it with your first thought in your brain? If you say yes then I envy you but for the others just take into account all the aspects that go into when you make even only the first stanza of a poem. How would you believe that it is straightforward when you that is writing it have to make so many decisions and multiple choices. 

Manifestos are normally the enemy. They are painted red by society straight out the fact that they are different. That is what people do, they deny different things. Just take a peak of them, you do not need to follow them 100% of the time. I would say that maybe just stay away from Mein Kepf, but any other Manifesto is worth making and reading.