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oops i fell for the dark-haired immortal not exactly human boi with a tragic backstory once again

[aleksandersshadow]

i'm so sick of this shit can someone please invite me to a masquerade ball in a mysterious castle in the middle of the woods already

[aleksandersshadow]

The anon is right, there isn’t enough Logan content :( This was really sweet!

There’s not nearly enough Logan content and that makes me :( can you do something soft and sweet like just waking up together? Please? Thanks!

you’re after my heart, anon 😩😮‍💨

“Five more minutes-“ Logan groans, his protests muffled by the pillow his face is pressed against as you gently push his overgrown hair back from his eyes.

The sun is starting to rise, eclipsing the remaining darkness in the sky with soft pinks and bright oranges. You can hear the gentle crash of waves hitting the shore on the beach just outside your bedroom window and you’re glad you decided to leave the windows open the night before. Waking up to the call of the ocean, the smell of salt in the air, and vibrant sunrises were some of your favorite things to wake up to.

The first was requesting a few more minutes of uninterrupted slumber.

“You said that five minutes ago.” You remind him, poking his bearded cheek in an attempt to disrupt the sleep that’s threatening to pull him back under. He lets out another groan, and you opt for placing tender kisses to his cheek, instead.

“And I meant it then, just as much as I mean it now.” He tells you, finally opening his eyes to meet yours and he can’t help but smile. He’ll never get tired of waking up next to you.

His skin is cold from the ocean breeze that lingers in the air. Desperate for the warmth he knows only your body can provide, he rolls onto his side and opens his arms to you. Happily accepting the invitation, you allow him to pull you closer towards his side of the bed, until his chest is pressed against your back.

You shiver when you come in contact with his skin and he tightens his hold on you, surrounding you with warmth.

“If you don’t get up soon, you’re going to be late for your first day.” You remind him, knowing that if it were up to Logan, he’d never let you out of his embrace.

“Well, I am the boss-“ He says it with a small chuckle, void of the cockiness his tone carried only a few years prior as he presses his lips to your bare shoulder.

“The boss who sets the tone for the rest of his employees.” He knows you’re right, but he really doesn’t want to leave his bed, he really doesn’t want to leave you.

He’s been waiting his whole life for this day to come and now that it’s finally here, he’s absolutely terrified. He never thought he’d get the chance to start his own company, let alone put his name to something that he was proud of, but he did.

Today felt like the first day of the life he’d always dreamt of having and part of him is afraid that that’s all it is- a dream.

“We only have three employees.” The laugh he lets out is one full of nerves.

Logan’s always had a knack for undermining his success, a nasty trait he picked up from his father, no doubt. Luckily, he had you to remind him just how incredible he really was.

“For now-“ You agree with a smile as you turn to face him. “All things that are worth it take time to build and grow.”

He remembers the rocky start to your relationship- when he was too afraid to let his walls down, when he was too stubborn to accept your love or even believe that he was capable of giving or receiving such a thing.

He knows better than anyone that the things that are worth it take time, and patience, before they can grow into something beyond what his wildest dreams thought possible.

“Besides, once people start seeing what you’re capable of, once people realize that you’re a force to be reckoned with, then you’re going to need a lot more than three employees to keep up with your workload.”

Logan’s still not used to genuine praise or having someone believe in him. Some scars take longer to heal than others. Your optimism, your support and your love, mean everything to him.

“I love you.“ He beams, the words falling from his lips much easier than they used to.

“I love you, too.” Your lips meet the stubble on his jaw and he hums happily. More than five minutes have passed and he knows that he has to start getting ready for his big day, despite the fact that he’d be content with spending the rest of his life in bed, with you, and not a single care in the world.

“Now, you better get a move on, or you’re going to be late.” You reluctantly untangle yourself from his hold as he rises to his feet, stretching his arms above his head with a deep sigh before taking a few steps towards the bathroom.

“Care to join me?” He calls over his shoulder. His smirk is downright sinful, and you know him well enough to know that he has a hidden agenda.

Still, you rise from the bed, letting the thin sheet fall from your body as you follow him towards the bathroom.

Maybe, just this once, you could manage to take a shower with your boyfriend without it turning into something more, but that was highly doubtful.

Send me some feedback! Requests: OPEN!

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Aww!

Hi! Could you please do a jealous billy because the reader is too much invested in a kitten they got? A mix of fluff and sexy

+ Sooooo... for the request, how about pet!owner Billy ? Could be a cat or a dog, the pet coukd escape and reader finds it ? OR it could be the other way around, reader's cat decides to escape to Billy's apartment every chance it gets ? Bonus if it's scarred Billy 😏😏 🖤@thatbritishactor

I honestly never would’ve thought of this on my own, so thank you anon 🐱💕 also, @thatbritishactor, I love you 🤍 (I combined both of these requests!)

“I thought I told you to stop feeding that cat?” Billy grumbles, watching from the window as the scrawny black cat you’ve been giving scraps to continues to claw at the back door. He watches the animal struggle to gain entry and wonders how long it’ll take for the feline to tire itself out.

Taking a sip from his water bottle, Billy wipes the sweat from his brow with the back of his hand before he turns away from the window. There’s only a few boxes left to pack and he’s certain that the two of you can finish the task within the next hour or two. He wants to finish as soon as possible to gain the upper hand on rush hour traffic, but when you return from the kitchen with a small bowl of milk and the rest of the deli meat from your fridge, he abandons all hope for making it home at a decent hour.

“I can’t help it!” You confess sheepishly, unlocking the door and letting the cat inside.

As soon as you set down the bowl of milk, the cat immediately starts lapping it up and Billy watches with a small pout as you pet the cat behind its ears.

“Dorian and I have grown quite fond of each other.” As if to taunt him further, the cat meows happily, snuggling closer into your leg as you continue to shower him with affection. “I’m going to miss this little guy.”

Sure, moving in with your boyfriend had its perks. His building was a lot nicer than your house in the suburbs. It was also a lot closer to your job in the city. Plus, it came with the added bonus of sharing the space with the man you loved.

Still, you were sad that you’d be leaving behind the adorable creature you’d formed a bond with since he started showing up at your back porch looking for food a few months prior.

“You named it?” Billy all but scoffs in disbelief. Feeding the stray was one thing, but you’ve grown attached to the animal. It’ll make leaving it behind even harder.

“Him.” You correct him, picking Dorian up and holding him in your arms as he licks your cheek. “At least, I’m pretty sure it’s a him.”

Billy’s chest tightens as he watches you cuddle the cat in your arms. He knows it’s stupid, he knows it’s absolutely juvenile, and yet, he can’t help the feeling of jealousy that settles in the pit of his stomach.

You’re looking at the stray like it’s your whole world. If he didn’t know any better, he would’ve thought that you’ve had that cat for years.

“Alright buddy, I guess this is goodbye.” With a small sigh, you set Dorian back on the ground. He immediate lets out a meow of protest and cuddles up to your leg, hoping that you’ll pick him back up.“Take good care of yourself out there.” You tell him. “I hope you find someone that loves you as much as I do.”

Billy can’t watch this anymore. You’re on the verge of tears over a cat that isn’t even yours. He can tell how much the creature means to you. He can also tell that he’s going to regret what he’s about to say, but that doesn��t stop him from saying it.

“Bring the damn cat.” He grumbles, crossing his arms over his chest and your eyes widen.

“Really?”

With a heavy exhale he pinches the bridge of his nose and shakes his head.

“I’m going to regret this-“ He mumbles and you quickly wipe the tears from your eyes and wrap your arms around him.

“Yay!” You beam, standing on your tippy toes to pepper his face with kisses. “Thank you, thank you, thank you! I love you so much!”

Billy loved you too, which was the only reason he caved. While you excitedly tell Dorian all about his new home, Billy finishes packing the rest of your boxes.

He’s most certainly not looking forward to the ride home now.

It takes Dorian quite some time to warm up to Billy. He’s constantly clawing, scratching, and hissing at your boyfriend. There’s even a faint scar on Billy’s cheek from when Dorian got a little too aggressive. You were terrified that Billy would force him back out on the street after that, but much to your surprise, he didn’t. He did, however, milk his injury for as long as he could, using it to his advantage to get whatever he wanted- which usually ended with your hands behind your back and your cheek pressed against his mattress, but you weren’t complaining.

Billy keeps Dorian around because he knows how much you love him, and because maybe a small part of him has grown fond of the creature, as well.

He’ll never admit it, but he’s taken a liking to the pesky little feline. Sometimes, when you’re at work and Billy’s working on the couch, Dorian will jump up on the couch, much to Billy’s protests, and crawl into his lap. Once he’s situated, he usually falls asleep. Billy used to think of it as a distraction, but now he actually quite enjoys their time together.

Even when the Dorian manages to find his was to the fire escape in the middle of the night and makes the trek all the way across town back to your old house, Billy’s the one that goes to bring him back home. Even if it means sitting in traffic both ways. He does it because you love Dorian, he loves you, and maybe, just maybe, a small part of him has grown to love Dorian, too.

Somebody send me some Billy and Dorian fan art ASAP

Send me some feedback! Requests: OPEN!

[aleksandersshadow]

This was so funny!

One shot for @schlotzshewrote, based on this text post: 

“ one time at h&m i thought a guy was a mannequin so i started feeling the material of his coat and i screamed when he moved and we were both really freaked out”

Billy Russo x Reader

Warning: swearing.

Words: 971

You can’t remember the last time you’ve had a good night’s sleep. You’ve been sleepwalking for weeks now, and the holiday rush is only making things worse. You’re running around in the busy mall, your sister’s voice on the phone fading as you yawn, making your way through the crowd.

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oh no. oh no. oh no no no no no.

A Woman’s Worth: Chapter Four

Pairing: Billy Russo x Female Reader

Rating: Mature (18+)

Author’s Note: This is an AU of sorts, where Billy has ended his dealings with Rawlins and never betrayed Frank.

Summary: You and Billy have been friends for years, and you are pretty sure you’ve been in love with him for most of that time. But when one of his flings looks to be something a little more serious, you decide it may be time for you to move on. Unfortunately for you, Billy is a man with enemies in high places, and you are an easy target.

Story tags: Friend!Reader, Inexperienced!Reader, Protective!Billy, Friends to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Jealousy, Thoughts of Cheating, Manipulation, Kidnapping, Angst

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< Chapter Three

The bar Milo suggested was respectable and sold his favourite scotch, but that was doing little to help Billy’s enjoyment of this “bonding” excursion. He was already thinking of excuses to leave, and it had barely been 20 minutes.

Milo seemed to think things were going well, though.

‘I’m glad we’re doing this,’ he said, ordering another round. ‘It just didn’t feel right not knowing my girlfriend’s best friend, you know?’

Billy took a sip of the drink that had appeared in front of him, not wanting to admit that Milo was probably right. He should be making more of an effort to get to know the guy. For you, if nothing else.

‘So, have you two slept together?’

Billy almost choked on his scotch.

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Sirius: *Sees Snape walking into Grimmauld Place*

Sirius: I didn't break out of Azkaban for this.

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Stories We Lived Through sirius black x fem!reader

Summary: Sirius tells the story of how he met you in Azkaban.

requested by anon | masterlist | not my gif

Sirius was nothing if not the human version of every upbeat song ever. He was warm, happy, and joked around a little too much. Even after the death of his best friend, even after he spent god knows how many years in Azkaban — the one thing he never let go was that smile on his face.

But there were times when Harry would note how his godfather stared off into empty spaces, or looked like the mask he was wearing was a bit heavy. Everyone had bad days, but Harry was determined to help Sirius, even if the man in question was the most stubborn being ever.

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Please reblog this if fanfiction has been beneficial to your mental health.

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This one photo of him looks like those advertisements they have for home furniture in magazines BUT I DONT NEED THAT GODDAMN FURNITURE THIS MAN WOULD DO

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Aw I’m so happy you liked it!! Happy 2022!

Never Let Go - BB Secret Santa Fic Exhange

Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader

A/N : This is for @agirllovespaghetti​  for the BB secret santa fic exchange hosted by @the-purity-pen​ and @flightlessangelwings​  . I hope you like it and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it longer! I originally chose Caspian and wrote half of the story before being hit by a massive writers block. I couldn’t continue it because it had a lot of plot. 

—

Billy was sitting on the couch watching a show on the TV as you read the book that had finally arrived today after a long wait. He loved evenings like this, when the two of you relaxed together, not a single worry on your minds.

He looked away from the screen and his heart fluttered a bit as he took in the sight of you. You were completely immersed in the story. There was a small smile on your face and Billy found himself smiling back. 

He looked back at the TV when he heard a song play. The main leads of the show were dancing together. Billy bit his lip as the song brought back a train of memories.

Dance with me under the diamonds 

See me like breath in the cold

Billy was at your old place surrounded by piles upon piles of paperwork. He had been reading and signing documents for over 2 hours but had barely managed to make a dent in the mountain of work. You were standing near the sliding glass door that led to the garden, looking at him every now and then. Finally your patience ran out.

“Billyyy,” you whined. “Aren’t you done yet?”

“Not even halfway through yet, sweetheart.” He answered without lifting his gaze from the pages in front of him.

“Oh.”

Hearing the disappointment in your voice, Billy finally looked up and stretched. 

“You wanna do something?” he asked.

“Not really. Just..take a break?” You tell him.

He smiled as he got up and took you outside, his hand in yours. He had to admit, the fresh cool air felt delicious after sitting on a chair behind a stifling pile of papers for so long. It was a clear night, your face was shining in the moonlight. 

“What are you doing?” you giggled as Billy hooked an arm around your waist and pulled you close.

Instead of answering, he started to sway. You copied his steps and soon the two of you were dancing under the stars without any music like a pair of lovesick fools.

Sleep with me here in the silence

Come kiss me silver and gold

The wound hurt like a bitch but Billy was too stubborn to admit. He had even been getting ready for work before you had woken up and dragged him back to bed exasperatedly.He had stayed put since that, but the pain had increased because of his hurried movements. Billy knew that he had scared you badly when he had arrived home in the middle of the night that Friday with his shirt drenched in blood. Some of it belonged to him, some didn’t. A job had gone wrong and one of the consequences was the stab wound on Billy’s upper abdomen. He didn’t want to wake you up and worry you so he tried to ignore the throbbing injury. Billy squinted as sunlight began to creep into the room. The pale curtains were slowly turning golden. He shifted to get into a more comfortable position and ended up on his side, facing you. Half of your body was touched by the sunlight, giving you an ethereal glow. Not for the first time, Billy thanked the universe for your presence in his life. He fell asleep after a few minutes with a smile on his face.

Looking back on my life

You’re the only good I’ve ever done

Billy inhaled deeply as a strange feeling enveloped him. He knew he wasn’t a good man. His moral compass was like a roulette wheel. How he had earned your companionship was beyond him. He felt as if everything he was or had accomplished, it was because of you. And none of it would matter if you left. You were the best thing in his life without a doubt.

Every morning I find you

I fear the day that I won’t

There were days he got insecure. The abandonment issues had seeped into his heart and planted themselves there firmly. After all, there were better people out there. More deserving of you. Who didn’t have the blood of countless people on their hands.

You say that I won’t lose you but you can’t predict the future

‘Cause certain things are out of our control

You had developed the ability to know when Billy got into one of his moods. Sometimes it felt like you realized what he was feeling before he did himself. You reassured him with your words, your actions. With your unconditional, never-ending support. Once, at the beginning of your relationship, he was feeling terribly and he had told you bluntly that you couldn’t predict the future. He had calmed down when you smiled softly and said, “I believe in us.”

If you ever move on without me…

Billy got out of the memory lane and up on his feet, sitting in front of you before he even realized what he was about to do. You marked the page and closed your book, surprised.

“Y/N..I gotta tell you something.”

“Is everything alright?” you asked anxiously.

“I…” 

He didn’t have any speech prepared. Nor had he planned some grand gesture as one would assume he would for something like this. In that moment, all that mattered was that he had you with him.

“I love you.” 

That you are the only one I’ll ever love

Billy waited for you to look surprised, apprehensive, anything. Instead you looked down and smiled.

“I know, Billy. I love you too.”

He gasped and pulled you until there was no space left between you and him. The world faded around you, the sounds disappeared. All that you felt was Billy. His arms around you, his lips on yours. In that moment, the two of you were all that mattered.

Just hold on like you will never let go

[aleksandersshadow]

Thanks!  💖

Never Let Go - BB Secret Santa Fic Exhange

Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader

A/N : This is for @agirllovespaghetti​  for the BB secret santa fic exchange hosted by @the-purity-pen​ and @flightlessangelwings​  . I hope you like it and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it longer! I originally chose Caspian and wrote half of the story before being hit by a massive writers block. I couldn’t continue it because it had a lot of plot. 

—

Billy was sitting on the couch watching a show on the TV as you read the book that had finally arrived today after a long wait. He loved evenings like this, when the two of you relaxed together, not a single worry on your minds.

He looked away from the screen and his heart fluttered a bit as he took in the sight of you. You were completely immersed in the story. There was a small smile on your face and Billy found himself smiling back. 

He looked back at the TV when he heard a song play. The main leads of the show were dancing together. Billy bit his lip as the song brought back a train of memories.

Dance with me under the diamonds 

See me like breath in the cold

Billy was at your old place surrounded by piles upon piles of paperwork. He had been reading and signing documents for over 2 hours but had barely managed to make a dent in the mountain of work. You were standing near the sliding glass door that led to the garden, looking at him every now and then. Finally your patience ran out.

“Billyyy,” you whined. “Aren’t you done yet?”

“Not even halfway through yet, sweetheart.” He answered without lifting his gaze from the pages in front of him.

“Oh.”

Hearing the disappointment in your voice, Billy finally looked up and stretched. 

“You wanna do something?” he asked.

“Not really. Just..take a break?” You tell him.

He smiled as he got up and took you outside, his hand in yours. He had to admit, the fresh cool air felt delicious after sitting on a chair behind a stifling pile of papers for so long. It was a clear night, your face was shining in the moonlight. 

“What are you doing?” you giggled as Billy hooked an arm around your waist and pulled you close.

Instead of answering, he started to sway. You copied his steps and soon the two of you were dancing under the stars without any music like a pair of lovesick fools.

Sleep with me here in the silence

Come kiss me silver and gold

The wound hurt like a bitch but Billy was too stubborn to admit. He had even been getting ready for work before you had woken up and dragged him back to bed exasperatedly.He had stayed put since that, but the pain had increased because of his hurried movements. Billy knew that he had scared you badly when he had arrived home in the middle of the night that Friday with his shirt drenched in blood. Some of it belonged to him, some didn’t. A job had gone wrong and one of the consequences was the stab wound on Billy’s upper abdomen. He didn’t want to wake you up and worry you so he tried to ignore the throbbing injury. Billy squinted as sunlight began to creep into the room. The pale curtains were slowly turning golden. He shifted to get into a more comfortable position and ended up on his side, facing you. Half of your body was touched by the sunlight, giving you an ethereal glow. Not for the first time, Billy thanked the universe for your presence in his life. He fell asleep after a few minutes with a smile on his face.

Looking back on my life

You’re the only good I’ve ever done

Billy inhaled deeply as a strange feeling enveloped him. He knew he wasn’t a good man. His moral compass was like a roulette wheel. How he had earned your companionship was beyond him. He felt as if everything he was or had accomplished, it was because of you. And none of it would matter if you left. You were the best thing in his life without a doubt.

Every morning I find you

I fear the day that I won’t

There were days he got insecure. The abandonment issues had seeped into his heart and planted themselves there firmly. After all, there were better people out there. More deserving of you. Who didn’t have the blood of countless people on their hands.

You say that I won’t lose you but you can’t predict the future

‘Cause certain things are out of our control

You had developed the ability to know when Billy got into one of his moods. Sometimes it felt like you realized what he was feeling before he did himself. You reassured him with your words, your actions. With your unconditional, never-ending support. Once, at the beginning of your relationship, he was feeling terribly and he had told you bluntly that you couldn’t predict the future. He had calmed down when you smiled softly and said, “I believe in us.”

If you ever move on without me…

Billy got out of the memory lane and up on his feet, sitting in front of you before he even realized what he was about to do. You marked the page and closed your book, surprised.

“Y/N..I gotta tell you something.”

“Is everything alright?” you asked anxiously.

“I…” 

He didn’t have any speech prepared. Nor had he planned some grand gesture as one would assume he would for something like this. In that moment, all that mattered was that he had you with him.

“I love you.” 

That you are the only one I’ll ever love

Billy waited for you to look surprised, apprehensive, anything. Instead you looked down and smiled.

“I know, Billy. I love you too.”

He gasped and pulled you until there was no space left between you and him. The world faded around you, the sounds disappeared. All that you felt was Billy. His arms around you, his lips on yours. In that moment, the two of you were all that mattered.

Just hold on like you will never let go

[aleksandersshadow]

Thank you!  💖

Never Let Go - BB Secret Santa Fic Exhange

Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader

A/N : This is for @agirllovespaghetti​  for the BB secret santa fic exchange hosted by @the-purity-pen​ and @flightlessangelwings​  . I hope you like it and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it longer! I originally chose Caspian and wrote half of the story before being hit by a massive writers block. I couldn’t continue it because it had a lot of plot. 

—

Billy was sitting on the couch watching a show on the TV as you read the book that had finally arrived today after a long wait. He loved evenings like this, when the two of you relaxed together, not a single worry on your minds.

He looked away from the screen and his heart fluttered a bit as he took in the sight of you. You were completely immersed in the story. There was a small smile on your face and Billy found himself smiling back. 

He looked back at the TV when he heard a song play. The main leads of the show were dancing together. Billy bit his lip as the song brought back a train of memories.

Dance with me under the diamonds 

See me like breath in the cold

Billy was at your old place surrounded by piles upon piles of paperwork. He had been reading and signing documents for over 2 hours but had barely managed to make a dent in the mountain of work. You were standing near the sliding glass door that led to the garden, looking at him every now and then. Finally your patience ran out.

“Billyyy,” you whined. “Aren’t you done yet?”

“Not even halfway through yet, sweetheart.” He answered without lifting his gaze from the pages in front of him.

“Oh.”

Hearing the disappointment in your voice, Billy finally looked up and stretched. 

“You wanna do something?” he asked.

“Not really. Just..take a break?” You tell him.

He smiled as he got up and took you outside, his hand in yours. He had to admit, the fresh cool air felt delicious after sitting on a chair behind a stifling pile of papers for so long. It was a clear night, your face was shining in the moonlight. 

“What are you doing?” you giggled as Billy hooked an arm around your waist and pulled you close.

Instead of answering, he started to sway. You copied his steps and soon the two of you were dancing under the stars without any music like a pair of lovesick fools.

Sleep with me here in the silence

Come kiss me silver and gold

The wound hurt like a bitch but Billy was too stubborn to admit. He had even been getting ready for work before you had woken up and dragged him back to bed exasperatedly.He had stayed put since that, but the pain had increased because of his hurried movements. Billy knew that he had scared you badly when he had arrived home in the middle of the night that Friday with his shirt drenched in blood. Some of it belonged to him, some didn’t. A job had gone wrong and one of the consequences was the stab wound on Billy’s upper abdomen. He didn’t want to wake you up and worry you so he tried to ignore the throbbing injury. Billy squinted as sunlight began to creep into the room. The pale curtains were slowly turning golden. He shifted to get into a more comfortable position and ended up on his side, facing you. Half of your body was touched by the sunlight, giving you an ethereal glow. Not for the first time, Billy thanked the universe for your presence in his life. He fell asleep after a few minutes with a smile on his face.

Looking back on my life

You’re the only good I’ve ever done

Billy inhaled deeply as a strange feeling enveloped him. He knew he wasn’t a good man. His moral compass was like a roulette wheel. How he had earned your companionship was beyond him. He felt as if everything he was or had accomplished, it was because of you. And none of it would matter if you left. You were the best thing in his life without a doubt.

Every morning I find you

I fear the day that I won’t

There were days he got insecure. The abandonment issues had seeped into his heart and planted themselves there firmly. After all, there were better people out there. More deserving of you. Who didn’t have the blood of countless people on their hands.

You say that I won’t lose you but you can’t predict the future

‘Cause certain things are out of our control

You had developed the ability to know when Billy got into one of his moods. Sometimes it felt like you realized what he was feeling before he did himself. You reassured him with your words, your actions. With your unconditional, never-ending support. Once, at the beginning of your relationship, he was feeling terribly and he had told you bluntly that you couldn’t predict the future. He had calmed down when you smiled softly and said, “I believe in us.”

If you ever move on without me…

Billy got out of the memory lane and up on his feet, sitting in front of you before he even realized what he was about to do. You marked the page and closed your book, surprised.

“Y/N..I gotta tell you something.”

“Is everything alright?” you asked anxiously.

“I…” 

He didn’t have any speech prepared. Nor had he planned some grand gesture as one would assume he would for something like this. In that moment, all that mattered was that he had you with him.

“I love you.” 

That you are the only one I’ll ever love

Billy waited for you to look surprised, apprehensive, anything. Instead you looked down and smiled.

“I know, Billy. I love you too.”

He gasped and pulled you until there was no space left between you and him. The world faded around you, the sounds disappeared. All that you felt was Billy. His arms around you, his lips on yours. In that moment, the two of you were all that mattered.

Just hold on like you will never let go

[aleksandersshadow]

Yayy I’m so happy that you liked it!! Thank you for your kind words!  💖

Never Let Go - BB Secret Santa Fic Exhange

Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader

A/N : This is for @agirllovespaghetti​  for the BB secret santa fic exchange hosted by @the-purity-pen​ and @flightlessangelwings​  . I hope you like it and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it longer! I originally chose Caspian and wrote half of the story before being hit by a massive writers block. I couldn’t continue it because it had a lot of plot. 

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Billy was sitting on the couch watching a show on the TV as you read the book that had finally arrived today after a long wait. He loved evenings like this, when the two of you relaxed together, not a single worry on your minds.

He looked away from the screen and his heart fluttered a bit as he took in the sight of you. You were completely immersed in the story. There was a small smile on your face and Billy found himself smiling back. 

He looked back at the TV when he heard a song play. The main leads of the show were dancing together. Billy bit his lip as the song brought back a train of memories.

Dance with me under the diamonds 

See me like breath in the cold

Billy was at your old place surrounded by piles upon piles of paperwork. He had been reading and signing documents for over 2 hours but had barely managed to make a dent in the mountain of work. You were standing near the sliding glass door that led to the garden, looking at him every now and then. Finally your patience ran out.

“Billyyy,” you whined. “Aren’t you done yet?”

“Not even halfway through yet, sweetheart.” He answered without lifting his gaze from the pages in front of him.

“Oh.”

Hearing the disappointment in your voice, Billy finally looked up and stretched. 

“You wanna do something?” he asked.

“Not really. Just..take a break?” You tell him.

He smiled as he got up and took you outside, his hand in yours. He had to admit, the fresh cool air felt delicious after sitting on a chair behind a stifling pile of papers for so long. It was a clear night, your face was shining in the moonlight. 

“What are you doing?” you giggled as Billy hooked an arm around your waist and pulled you close.

Instead of answering, he started to sway. You copied his steps and soon the two of you were dancing under the stars without any music like a pair of lovesick fools.

Sleep with me here in the silence

Come kiss me silver and gold

The wound hurt like a bitch but Billy was too stubborn to admit. He had even been getting ready for work before you had woken up and dragged him back to bed exasperatedly.He had stayed put since that, but the pain had increased because of his hurried movements. Billy knew that he had scared you badly when he had arrived home in the middle of the night that Friday with his shirt drenched in blood. Some of it belonged to him, some didn’t. A job had gone wrong and one of the consequences was the stab wound on Billy’s upper abdomen. He didn’t want to wake you up and worry you so he tried to ignore the throbbing injury. Billy squinted as sunlight began to creep into the room. The pale curtains were slowly turning golden. He shifted to get into a more comfortable position and ended up on his side, facing you. Half of your body was touched by the sunlight, giving you an ethereal glow. Not for the first time, Billy thanked the universe for your presence in his life. He fell asleep after a few minutes with a smile on his face.

Looking back on my life

You’re the only good I’ve ever done

Billy inhaled deeply as a strange feeling enveloped him. He knew he wasn’t a good man. His moral compass was like a roulette wheel. How he had earned your companionship was beyond him. He felt as if everything he was or had accomplished, it was because of you. And none of it would matter if you left. You were the best thing in his life without a doubt.

Every morning I find you

I fear the day that I won’t

There were days he got insecure. The abandonment issues had seeped into his heart and planted themselves there firmly. After all, there were better people out there. More deserving of you. Who didn’t have the blood of countless people on their hands.

You say that I won’t lose you but you can’t predict the future

‘Cause certain things are out of our control

You had developed the ability to know when Billy got into one of his moods. Sometimes it felt like you realized what he was feeling before he did himself. You reassured him with your words, your actions. With your unconditional, never-ending support. Once, at the beginning of your relationship, he was feeling terribly and he had told you bluntly that you couldn’t predict the future. He had calmed down when you smiled softly and said, “I believe in us.”

If you ever move on without me…

Billy got out of the memory lane and up on his feet, sitting in front of you before he even realized what he was about to do. You marked the page and closed your book, surprised.

“Y/N..I gotta tell you something.”

“Is everything alright?” you asked anxiously.

“I…” 

He didn’t have any speech prepared. Nor had he planned some grand gesture as one would assume he would for something like this. In that moment, all that mattered was that he had you with him.

“I love you.” 

That you are the only one I’ll ever love

Billy waited for you to look surprised, apprehensive, anything. Instead you looked down and smiled.

“I know, Billy. I love you too.”

He gasped and pulled you until there was no space left between you and him. The world faded around you, the sounds disappeared. All that you felt was Billy. His arms around you, his lips on yours. In that moment, the two of you were all that mattered.

Just hold on like you will never let go

[aleksandersshadow]

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Never Let Go - BB Secret Santa Fic Exhange

Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader

A/N : This is for @agirllovespaghetti​  for the BB secret santa fic exchange hosted by @the-purity-pen​ and @flightlessangelwings​  . I hope you like it and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it longer! I originally chose Caspian and wrote half of the story before being hit by a massive writers block. I couldn’t continue it because it had a lot of plot. 

—

Billy was sitting on the couch watching a show on the TV as you read the book that had finally arrived today after a long wait. He loved evenings like this, when the two of you relaxed together, not a single worry on your minds.

He looked away from the screen and his heart fluttered a bit as he took in the sight of you. You were completely immersed in the story. There was a small smile on your face and Billy found himself smiling back. 

He looked back at the TV when he heard a song play. The main leads of the show were dancing together. Billy bit his lip as the song brought back a train of memories.

Dance with me under the diamonds 

See me like breath in the cold

Billy was at your old place surrounded by piles upon piles of paperwork. He had been reading and signing documents for over 2 hours but had barely managed to make a dent in the mountain of work. You were standing near the sliding glass door that led to the garden, looking at him every now and then. Finally your patience ran out.

“Billyyy,” you whined. “Aren’t you done yet?”

“Not even halfway through yet, sweetheart.” He answered without lifting his gaze from the pages in front of him.

“Oh.”

Hearing the disappointment in your voice, Billy finally looked up and stretched. 

“You wanna do something?” he asked.

“Not really. Just..take a break?” You tell him.

He smiled as he got up and took you outside, his hand in yours. He had to admit, the fresh cool air felt delicious after sitting on a chair behind a stifling pile of papers for so long. It was a clear night, your face was shining in the moonlight. 

“What are you doing?” you giggled as Billy hooked an arm around your waist and pulled you close.

Instead of answering, he started to sway. You copied his steps and soon the two of you were dancing under the stars without any music like a pair of lovesick fools.

Sleep with me here in the silence

Come kiss me silver and gold

The wound hurt like a bitch but Billy was too stubborn to admit. He had even been getting ready for work before you had woken up and dragged him back to bed exasperatedly.He had stayed put since that, but the pain had increased because of his hurried movements. Billy knew that he had scared you badly when he had arrived home in the middle of the night that Friday with his shirt drenched in blood. Some of it belonged to him, some didn’t. A job had gone wrong and one of the consequences was the stab wound on Billy’s upper abdomen. He didn’t want to wake you up and worry you so he tried to ignore the throbbing injury. Billy squinted as sunlight began to creep into the room. The pale curtains were slowly turning golden. He shifted to get into a more comfortable position and ended up on his side, facing you. Half of your body was touched by the sunlight, giving you an ethereal glow. Not for the first time, Billy thanked the universe for your presence in his life. He fell asleep after a few minutes with a smile on his face.

Looking back on my life

You’re the only good I’ve ever done

Billy inhaled deeply as a strange feeling enveloped him. He knew he wasn’t a good man. His moral compass was like a roulette wheel. How he had earned your companionship was beyond him. He felt as if everything he was or had accomplished, it was because of you. And none of it would matter if you left. You were the best thing in his life without a doubt.

Every morning I find you

I fear the day that I won’t

There were days he got insecure. The abandonment issues had seeped into his heart and planted themselves there firmly. After all, there were better people out there. More deserving of you. Who didn’t have the blood of countless people on their hands.

You say that I won’t lose you but you can’t predict the future

‘Cause certain things are out of our control

You had developed the ability to know when Billy got into one of his moods. Sometimes it felt like you realized what he was feeling before he did himself. You reassured him with your words, your actions. With your unconditional, never-ending support. Once, at the beginning of your relationship, he was feeling terribly and he had told you bluntly that you couldn’t predict the future. He had calmed down when you smiled softly and said, “I believe in us.”

If you ever move on without me…

Billy got out of the memory lane and up on his feet, sitting in front of you before he even realized what he was about to do. You marked the page and closed your book, surprised.

“Y/N..I gotta tell you something.”

“Is everything alright?” you asked anxiously.

“I…” 

He didn’t have any speech prepared. Nor had he planned some grand gesture as one would assume he would for something like this. In that moment, all that mattered was that he had you with him.

“I love you.” 

That you are the only one I’ll ever love

Billy waited for you to look surprised, apprehensive, anything. Instead you looked down and smiled.

“I know, Billy. I love you too.”

He gasped and pulled you until there was no space left between you and him. The world faded around you, the sounds disappeared. All that you felt was Billy. His arms around you, his lips on yours. In that moment, the two of you were all that mattered.

Just hold on like you will never let go