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Stuff from the freezer it is! I'm trying to eat healthy ok

I somehow managed to actually plan four meals (yay!) and then went and bought only half of the ingredients for each. How am I alive

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thinking about noah’s nameless wife takes inventory

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I somehow managed to actually plan four meals (yay!) and then went and bought only half of the ingredients for each. How am I alive

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Interesting. Some time ago I read an article (or something like that) that spoke about trauma in other animals. They mentioned that a zebra kid could be snatched by a lion, but wiggle themself out of it, survive, and be fine overall. I think they connected it to the wiggling and I think that's true, motion can help with unstucking emotions and help with trauma. But what they never mentioned was that the zebra kid most likely runs back to their zebra family who will provide further safety, comfort, the feeling of being in a group that cares for you and believes your experience, you and your emotions. I think the zebra would not have been that fine if it found itself alone after nearly being eaten to death.

Imagine if getting core mental trauma was somehow audible or visible. Like you're already having a bad day and you're trying to wrangle two toddlers and a bag of groceries and work was ass and then you hear the sound of something shattering and you just know that one of your kids' emotional core and sense of basic safety just fucking broke and you can't even tell which one it was.

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I'm Erklär (whatever that is supposed to be)

zum folgenden Post fiel mir das hier ein:

Berlin, S-Bahnhof Westkreuz, September 2011

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give yourself a sense of place and time. rotate your wardrobe when the weather changes. update your playlists every month. write down three things you did today. do it everyday. message your friends good morning. buy yourself different flavours of tea based on your mood, the packaging, the weather, your heart. save the little paper labels; stick them in your notebook until the inside cover is full of little colored tags. have it hot in the winter. have it cold in the summer. learn to make apple cider, raspberry cordial. spend the summer knitting a scarf for the colder months. spend the winter sewing loose flowy blouses for the summer. open the windows, five minutes a day if it's cold, all day if it's warm. give yourself a sense of place and time and weather.

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so true

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love when a mother asks if they have ever done anything to hurt you. ma'am, you will literally never be ready to have this conversation

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I need to stop nodding when making phonecalls. Love. They can't see you.

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okay so here's something

if you push up against or cross a boundary and someone has to enforce it

don't just apologise for crossing the boundary. you also need to praise and thank them for enforcing it

standing up for yourself is hard, and enforcing a boundary might make someone feel like they're disappointing you. so praising them for expressing their boundaries takes the sting out of it

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Also stop using subtitles to correct what you said? Make a second textbox??

STOP CENSORING SUBTITLES/TRANSCRIPTS/CLOSED CAPTIONS

LET DEAF AND NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE READ “FUCK”

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they should invent an apartment that has huge windows but is never too hot and is near everything i like and all my friends but is also quiet when i want it to be and costs zero dollars or perhaps they pay me to live in. and they save it just for me so i dont have to look for it :)

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You can always throw ice in the shower or spare plates. The last one you'll have to clwan up tho

i didn't have anything to take my anger out on so i just sat down and played a shooter for nine hours.

it didn't help.

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Neglect really is something, because a part of me will always think I'm at fault that my parents chose to leave me alone with my emotions and problems. Or that I just should have done better when they did. They didn't always fuck up! They did good things for and with me! But they were never stable enough to really be there for me. And that fucks you up. If your childhood is drowning yourself in distractions from the pain, you have to find yourself at some point in time when others are four kilometers ahead already. Your beloved memories are rare. Your bonding with people was rare and you have to learn how to people and how to bond.

Distraction becomes an addiction.

Most of those iPad babies you're seeing are probably sick of that fucking tablet too.

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depressed steampunk guy: like nothing makes me happy anymore i feel like my fantastical flying contraption just ran out of coal

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Her?

spotted in guanacaste

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*takes off my leather jacket to reveal a second, secret leather jacket underneath*