alexisdrems

[alexisdrems]

@ice-ice-monster

Maybe this is the faster way to make you see this

I'm done running away

Read my other posts before coming to me

Ik scared so much to so this but we have to talk civilly on this

Only and mature way to solve this

Out our differences aside and please if you're willing to listen like I hope you can be... We must acknowledge our mistakes apologize to eachother and mob Rob and go our separate way

I should know as I said

Running doesn't make the problem go away

I should've remembered that from a few experiences

But now I am trying to come forward to you so we can move on front this

Either you keep trying to come for me

Or we actually talk and agree we both mad sour own mistakes and move on

I'm not backing down again

We have to talk

We have to solve this

Civilly

Maturely

And please if you don't read the other posts

I never meant to hurt you, that wasn't some easy on your depression like you thought

It was my shitty way of trying to reassure you ppl care abt you and that I care abt you and that sometimes people can be a bit busy

Not a malicious attack

Just me trying to help

I just want to move on

You hopefully want to as well

I'm sorry for my irrational decisions to send that message and making that post

I was extremely stressed

I'm easily stressed which is why I run from this stuff because I can hardly handle it

But I'm ok with getting stressed out of my mind jsut so I can finally have a civil talk with you..

Please I want to solve this I'm tired of hiding im sorry I keep making posts but I'm ready to do anything to have you stop which hunting me

And just talking

Attacking me solves nothing

And it's not really mature of you

The mature way is communicating

I suffered the consequences once for not communicating to a friend

I don't want someone I still care for go through that too

I'm so stressed just posting this and tagging you

You are scary to me ice but no matter if I am or not I gotta stop hiding and running because even if I hope it'll make everything go away

It won't

I'm so sorry I hid but attacking me isn't any better

So please listen to me

Pull yourself out of your thirst for revenge

We don't mix well so we gotta talk abt it

Acknowledging our mistakes

Where things went wrong

And moving one

I need closure

Ik you probably need it too

I never wanted to hurt anyone please I just want us to move on we have to its the only way for us to go forward

Please I'm so tired of being scared... And of hiding I'll be waiting to see if you decide to come talk... Or to continue to come for me... And never leaving me be

I really hope you understand all I want is for all this to stop

And that I meant not to hurt you or make you feel attacked... Please

[alexisdrems]

Again if it's not clear

I want to just talk civilly

Maturely

No attacking me or getting condescending with me

Just acknowledging the ego thing and finally moving on and going our seperate ways

[alexisdrems]

Ice I want to talk to you

I do not hate you you're not a horrible person but enough is enough

But I need to come foward

Say I'm an asshole all you want but this is the truth...

I never meant to hurt you

I jsut wanted yo try my hardest to reassure you but I was kinda off my game of comforting others that day

And I'm so sorry you misunderstood it as me trying to attack you for your depression and anxiety problems

I wouldn't ever try to purposely do that ever to you or anyone because I know it's not ok and I should know more than anybody how it feels to feel like everyone gates you and will abandon you.. So please please understand I just wanted to help but couldn't do my best that day

But the way you're responding to this isn't ok this isn't me saying " omg you're a bad person!! " this is me saying you've kinda fucked up yourself it's not bad to acknowledge you did something wrong

Yes I kinda sent you a message and made a post that doesn't solve anything but at least I'm not trying to witch hunt you like you're trying to witch hunt me from my perspective, you need to know something extremely important. Witch hunting doesn't make you better or righteous, kinda makes you an ass. And I know you felt hurt but please know I'm sorry I came off differently than intended but you also gotta known that going after someone and never leaving them be.

Doesn't make anything better

Only makes it worse

That's why people tell people not to go after and attack people even if they did something awful on purpose

Because 1. It solves literally nothing to attack ppl 2. It doesn't make you better than them at all or right depending on the situation it kinda makes you jsut as much as an asshole as they seem or you think they are.

Another thing the memes I may be realizing I feel I wasn't really reacting to them but to this whole situation

I get confrontation anxiety which is why I've been hiding from you

Because even if I'm a 16 year old I am scared of you finding and trying to attack and mock me

I can't handle confrontation I become numb and shaky and it's hard for me to face you...

You're actions have had a little impact on my trust in people.. And I'm saying this as an explanation why I keep hiding on alts

Because I am SCARED I am not a fan of confrontation but I know hiding will not solve anything either so I'm trying my hardest to solve this

I just want us to come to a civil discussion

And then finally move on from this

I wanna move on

And I want you to move on too

It's the only way foward

Ik it's hard to take me seriously because you hate me... But it was a few mistakes I made... And I'm apologizing gor the misunderstanding and my irrational decisions made from extreme stress.

I'm coming forward now because I gotta do it eventually

I have to face you and it's scary

It really is

Doing this gets you no where

It makes you seem kinda like a dick

Yes even if you feel revenge is sweet but

How would you feel

If you made mistakes and were being attacked for it? For me it's upsetting and stressful

I cant get all this off my mind... And I learned that we both need closure on this we need to move on ice we can't keep doing this

We have to put aside everything and talk it out

Because that's the mature way of doing it

Not attacking me and not me hiding

We have to talk and move on

I want to finally put it behind us

And we can move on from one another

I'm scared all you'll respond with is mocking me but I'm gonna hope you understand what I want

I want to just talk

And afterwards agree that we dont well with eachother and go our seperate ways

I just wanna see you improve I have huge hope you can change and improve yourself from someone who thinks trying to witch hunt someone is the best way to respond I know you can, we're not perfect and ik I'm way better than who I was when I was your age when faked depression and hurt innocent kind people

So I have great hope you can improve yourself too

And learn moving on is the only way to a brighter path and life in general

We have to apologize to eachother

And move on

That's the only way out

And if you ignore this.. And mock me instead... Then that were your actions not mine... I can't be held accountable for what you no liek you're not for what I do or did.

I'm sorry for a long message but I'm tired of hiding and being in fear of you

I want to try and solve this

So please if you're willing...

Come talk to me... Because that's the only way we're gonna move on

cryptics

the person who never meant to hurt you and just wants this to end and for everyone to move on

Ik you'll either continue trying to mock me...

Or maybe like I hope will come to me putting aside everything that happened and just talking civilly because that's the mature way of solving this

I am tempted to hide from confronting you and running away

But I should know...

Running away... Doesn't make the problem go away

I'm only away from it

And I think I'm ready to stand up and talk

That's all

For you to leave me alone

For us to move on from it and eachother

We don't mix ice we don't at all

So I think it's better if we go our separate ways after this if you do decide to talk to me

This is the better way to solve this

I'll be anxiously waiting to see if you see this

I truly only want to stop all this

I'm tired of this I'm done hiding its time

To Charlie btw

I don't hate you either

But you did fuck up too

Don't take this as ne saying you're horrible ppl

I'm scared you'll assume that without another word

You must acknowledge you're mistakes like I'm acknowledging my own please...

I should end it herr now this post has gotten too lengthy