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More Zoldyck DR stuff cause I'm bored

Before shifting there, I actually didn't like Illumi that much, but seeing just how much he sacrifices for his family is so depressing.

We have talked from time to time, mostly cause ever since he's failed to kill me he's had this like- weird curiosity towards me. He's tried prying my "Nen secrets" from me multiple times, but I'm always just like "Dude, I was born this way ✨"

I think he hates me lol

But also sometimes he goes from complaining that I'm not being cooperative, to just lowkey ranting about work. (he's genuinely really chatty if you ask him questions)

And it's so sad like- this man is going on missions multiple times a week, he travels a ton, he barely has any time to actually live and have any hobbies!

And everyone else is just... fine with that.

Illumi was legit so stressed, and the worst, though obvious, thing, is that he forbid me to tell ANYONE about it.

And tbh I wasn't gonna mess with him like that cause he was probably gonna throw me in the dungeon.

For what's worth, I was a lot kinder to Illumi from then on, which is also what led me to meeting Hisoka in this DR (as if things couldn't get any worse lmao), but it was like... nice I guess.

Do not judge my friendship choices pls I KNOW they're horrible, but it's not like I could be picky.

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What do I look like in my Zoldyck DR?

I didn't script my looks for this DR, so there wasn't a big difference, and generally I enjoy keeping my features relatively the same, but in this DR I did have somewhat shorter hair than my CR self, and rounder glasses! Tbh I might cut my hair this short in my CR too one day... who knows!

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Zoldyck DR: Budding friendships?

Still here talking about my Zoldyck DR, but this time I'm going to talk about something cute finally.

Cause yeah, things slowly got better overtime. This one actually happened towards the end of month three.

I'd been getting slightly friendly with Milluki, just cause... I was basically the only other nerd in the place.

He'd find excuses to call me up to his room... I wanna say at least once a week. It was either to bring him snacks or packages of stuff he'd buy online... he's a menace, I swear, he basically has unlimited money, he's ALWAYS getting new merch or volumes.

But anyway, although he kept denying it, I could feel a sense of friendship forming between us. In my CR I have plenty of people I can talk about videogames, anime etc. with, but I missed that whenever I shifted there, so being able to just... relax and nerd out from time to time was what really kept me going back to that DR

Deep down I always knew that among the Zoldycks I'd vibe best with Milluki lolll

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Holy shit Update

Sorry for just up and disappearing... lol

2025 has not been kind to me in the slightest, I've developed pain in both my hands, and even loading a dishwasher leaves them hurting for a while after which is... not normal.

Trying to look into it, but since the pain isn't high level, doctors aren't taking me seriously 🫠

My main one I usually go to straight up told me that if I could manage with just resting my hands when they hurt, she advises against going to specialists... Girl I'm not made of money, you need to be able to use your hands to do 90% of jobs out there, so I kinda need to fix this problem before it fucks up my life permanently? I can't wait for the pain to get worse.

So needless to say, been big depress, kinda drifted off into the ether

Haven't been shifting at all, but I still have a backlog of stories I can share.

Thank you for reading this, take good care of yourselves.

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[alexshifts]

Working for the Zoldycks

These are all roughly from my first few months in my Zoldyck DR

First off, during like- month one, every butler kinda gave me the side-eye cause none of them could understand how I'd survived Illumi, when physically I was weak af

Gotoh was especially mean to me for no reason, which made me so sad cause I actually loved his character, but since I wasn't strong and wasn't progressing with my "butler training" fast enough he never wasted the chance to remind me I was hopeless. (I gave myself super strength after my first shift there cause fuck you, Gotoh)

Also since I was under surveillance, the Zoldycks had me sleep in a solitary room, like- they would LOCK me in there cause they couldn't risk me escaping.

Not fun.

Also you wanna know who else isn't fun? Mike-

Like- I love animals, but Mike doesn't feel like an animal, he's more like a machine with fur. They had me meet him so he could memorize my scent, and I was feeling uneasy the whole time, not to mention sad cause that's an actual living being, what they did to Mike is so fucked up.

Also... every door is heavy af, sure, pushing is easier than lifting, but it didn't make it any better. Once I had my super strength I was so happy cause FINALLY I didn't have to go up to anyone and be like "Sorry can you open the door for me? 🥺"

Solving one problem created a new one tho, cause once I was "strong enough" they actually put me through butler duties like cleaning the place, or having to do anything the family wanted me to do.

The only good thing that came from it is that I actually got super good at navigating the manor and the butlers' house.

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[alexshifts]

Shifting has no rules, find what works for YOU

Sometimes it feels like people have needlessly complicated shifting. Like- when I started my shifting attempts I made the mistake of blindly trusting the stuff I read on tiktok about needing a method, needing to meditate tons beforehand etc.

And in turn, whenever I'd try and fail to do that, my first thought was always like "Ah shit, this is going to be another failed attempt"

about five months into this, attempting meditation, manifesting every night, trying different methods etc. I finally realized my mind didn't work like that, maybe it worked for others, but it wasn't doing it for me.

So... I stopped

Took a break

Cleared my mind

And decided to follow my instincts.

I no longer use a specific method anymore, no more counting, no more affirmations.

Basically all of my successful shifting attempts happened whenever I watched or created stuff regarding my DR before bed. You know that time when your eyelids feel heavy, like you're almost nodding off, but not quite? That's the perfect time.

Then I just go to bed holding on to those sounds and that imagery, and read my script one last time, really imagining myself in those situations.

I'm not a flawless shifter, but the times I did shift, that was the one thing that made a huge difference, like I'd fall asleep and sometimes I'd even get a feeling deep down that I knew I could shift that night, because I PHYSICALLY felt closer to that reality even before getting there.

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[alexshifts]

'I know I'm young but my mind is well beyond my years.'

- us shifters

[alexshifts]

It's your time — Shift now

How many opportunities will you pass up just because you think you're not ready? How much time will you waste before deciding to experience your DR? You've always been waiting to be in the right mood, right time for it, but the only right time for it is NOW.

You should know that shifting happens when you DECIDE it happens.

★~notes still figuring out the format of posts I'm most comfortable with. So this is v experimental. Aside from that tho, I plan on making posts about my The Boys DR :DD

[alexshifts]

Gotta start by talking about my Zoldyck DR

This is the DR I've shifted the most consistently to, and idk if it's just me, but the longer I shifted there, the more crazy things would happen, like- the events made total sense, but they were crazyyy

And accidentally becoming a Zoldyck butler is the tamest of the bunch.

Like, I wanted things to be chill but no, on my FIRST shift there, I managed to get kidnapped by the family.

I had a very clear intention of waking up in a ballroom, because I once had a dream like that involving the Zoldycks, so I thought it'd make shifting easier if I put myself in a context I'd already been to.

It worked, I was in this large ballroom filled with people, there was a waltz playing, it felt very weird, like- when they tell you DRs feel as real as CRs, it's true, I was wearing a backless dress and I felt my back sticking to the leather chair I woke up on... it was as unpleasant as it usually is in my CR.

Anyway, I start walking around, trying to get to a more dimly lit place cause the lights were overwhelming me a lil, until Illumi clocked me and "accidentally bumped" against me just so he'd have an excuse to strike up small talk.

I was pretty guarded cause that's Illumi, he's an assassin, why is he just talking to me?

We go out to the balcony, and that's where he tries to ACTUALLY MURDER ME

But since I scripted I couldn't die I was just standing there like 🧍 with about five pins in my forehead.

When Illumi saw I was NOT dead, he panicked and just... knocked me out and took me to the Zoldyck mansion like---

WHAT THE FUCK

I would find out months later that I was one of his targets, I STILL don't know who wanted me dead in that DR, but basically since he couldn't kill me the Zoldycks just decided to make me... "disappear" so they could still get the money.

And... that's how my life as a Zoldyck butler began... yay?

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[alexshifts]

Repeat after me :

♠ I am worthy of love and respect

♠ I deserve to be happy

♠ I am kind and I'm surrounded by kind people

♠ I deserve to take up space

♠ I deserve to feel comfortable in my own skin

♠ My body is divine

♠ My life is mine to lead

♠ I am intelligent and I make good decisions

♠ I follow my intuition and it always leads me to great things

♠ I am perfect as I am

♠ I am worthy as I am

♠ I deserve good things to happen to me

Happy manifesting ❤️

[alexshifts]

Introductions I guess?

Sup.

You know the feeling of "Damn I got all these crazy stories to share, but can't do it on main cause I'm scared I'd be bullied into oblivion/judged by my friends"?

Yeah, this is what this blog's for lol

I've been shifting successfully for about a year now, but I have a pretty tough time actually shifting consistently. Sometime I'm super determined and I manage to shift two or three times a week, other times I go weeks without being able to... oops.

Whatev- expect some story-times, some doodles maybe... I'm not promising anything lmaoo

Maybe I'll make script templates too idk I love making my ownnn

I mostly shift to HxH, but also have an Unus Annus DR that I've successfully shifted to like... twice?

ANYWAY

I'm just here to vibe tbh.

And remember:

You will shift

You have the power to shift

Anyone can shift

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[alexshifts]

This is gonna be very emotional but also sweet, it was kind of a therapeutic shift.

Not my first experience but definitely the one that's stuck with me the most.

Last year I lost my cat I'd had for 17 years, it was a really difficult thing to process, and I think the universe felt that, cause about a week after she was gone, I was focusing on wishing she was there with me so hard that I shifted to a reality where she was still alive and healthy, and I kept her on my lap the whole time. I could feel her weight, her warmth, the softness of her fur between my fingers.

I haven't been able to shift there since, but in a way I'm at peace with that, because getting too attached to a DR is never healthy. Still, this experience really let me process her death, knowing there's realities where she's good and healthy is really comforting.

SUCCESSFUL SHIFTERS LISTEN UP

Reblog this and explain ur first shift/ most memorable/ fav shift so others can get motivation etc 🤭

Or if you haven't shifted could put one of ur fav scenarios

Go look in reblogs 🤪

also safe space no judgment for ur experiences / scenarios it's ur dr lol do what you want haha

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