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Burden:

I feel like I’m just going though the motions of life. Why do I find this so hard. It’s like everything I do has no purpose whatsoever. I don’t want to live just for the sake of living. It’s a struggle just to survive.

I feel like I’m holding my family back from pursuing their dreams. I know I should be independent. Where do I start? I’m going to school but I’m not really learning anything. How do I turn this into a career if I’m just going though the motions. I’m not happy learning odd bits of information. Even the stuff I do find interesting is quickly forgotten because I have other stuff to memorize. I can’t retain anything long term. I can’t be independent if I can’t find a job.

Honestly it would be better to just end it all. But I can’t do that. It would hurt them. It’s like I’m not even living for myself at this point and I’m just scared of disappointing my family. And no matter what I do it’s a lose lose situation.

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Overwhelmed:

It’s nearing my birthday. I don't know why, but I always get little down around this time.