I Know I’ve Been Absent Again But I Promise There’s Legitimate Reasons And I’m Sorry And I Do Wanna Come Back Real Soon
the title says it all slfkjkjahgh
so i keep saying i’m back and then i’m not back and i feel like a liar but in my defence, life seems dead set on throwing curveball after curveball and i’m struggling to just keep up with it. i’m trying desperately to get together some semblance of a routine/schedule but it’s proving difficult.
that said, i’ll have a little over a month off work soon becauuuuuuse i’m getting top surgery!
on the 29th of this month to be exact, three days after my birthday. damn.
so i’ve been prepping for that whilst also going on a trip, working a lot, and losing a loved one, and i haven’t had much time or energy for anything but playing red dead redemption 2.
but again, i wanna be here! i wanna write! I just… need to find the time.
also if anyone would like to help me out, i do have a surgery recovery wishlist on gifthero: you can find the link by clicking here. i’m not sure if y’all can see ‘confirmed gifts’ (stuff people have already bought) but if you wanna be sure i don’t have something before you buy it, feel free to message me and ask! you’ll probably need to message me for an address anyway lol
don’t feel like you have to though! i just figure, what the hell, i’ll post it just in case - my friend keeps hounding me to post it on all my social media so that’s what i’ve been doing lmao
anyway, i’ll have a lot of downtime after recovery so if i feel up to it , maybe i can get some writing done then. if not, well, i wanna be here more often and i’m gonna keep trying til it sticks tbh
love yall!
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WESTERN sentence starters.
feel free to adjust them to your liking.
❛ you ain’t a kind man. ❜
❛ i know your type. i’ve killed your type. ❜
❛ that’s right. walk away. ❜
❛ somethin’ bout the rain that calms me. ❜
❛ nothin a woman’s touch can’t solve. ❜
❛ it’s a downright mess. it all is. ❜
❛ not a kind bone in your body. ❜
❛ you’re a rotten feller, ain’t ya? ❜
❛ don’t know why i expected more from you. ❜
❛ weather ain’t let up. you still headin’ out? ❜
❛ it’s nothin’ some rest won’t solve. ❜
❛ heard there were some unsavory folk ‘round here. ❜
❛ i would kill you if i knew i wouldn’t end up dead alongside you. ❜
❛ you ain’t ever known love. i know that now. ❜
❛ oh, what a foolish man. ❜
❛ have a drink with me. ❜
❛ have we met? i swear i know your face. ❜
❛ you always had a way with people that i could not grasp. ❜
❛ dreams don’t live long out here. ❜
❛ if you shoot that gun. you better shoot to kill. ❜
❛ you don’t look too friendly partner. ❜
❛ i got a way with more than just women. ❜
❛ you’re cold enough with them eyes. come join me by the fire. ❜
❛ what’s a man gotta do to earn your respect? ❜
❛ i’d like you better with that dress around your ankles. ❜
❛ share a whiskey with me. ❜
❛ i could do with a warm body next to me.❜
❛ ain’t enough kindness in this world, friend. ❜
❛ i don’t reckon we oughta be fightin’ with the law on our tails. ❜
❛ can i stay? i won’t be much trouble, honest. ❜
❛ i ain’t too fond of them. women. ❜
❛ i don’t reckon we got much of a choice partner, unless you’d rather freeze to death. ❜
❛ i never quite realised how lovely you could be. ❜
❛ there are a lot of good men out there. i ain’t one of them. ❜
❛ could you stay a bit longer? ❜
❛ i reckon you could use a wash. ❜
❛ don’t you dare track that dirt in here! ❜
❛ my lips would surely like to meet yours. ❜
❛ not too fast. i ain’t had a good look at ya. ❜
❛ i need a warm meal and a hot bath. ❜
❛ from the looks, i say they’re tryin’ to rob us. ❜
❛ i don’t need your violence today, i ain’t in the mood. ❜
❛ you look lonely and lost. ❜
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This wasn’t working. Or it was, but he didn’t know how or why and he really didn’t want to mess it up by running into it blind. Which was why Jeremy found himself seeking Trey out; it had been his first thought, really. Sure, he could have asked Doc or Waverly; but the cowboy wasn’t exactly known for stable, healthy relationships, and while Waverly probably had some tips, it felt odd asking her for relationship advice - sure, they were both in the same broad community of ‘gay’, but like... different kinds.
He wasn’t exactly rationalising it all very well, obviously. The bottom line at any rate was that he felt if anybody could tell him what he should be doing, it would be Trey.
“Hey, man - sorry to bother you but can we talk when you have a chance? I just wanna get some advice. I’ll buy you coffee if that sweetens the deal any.” A sheepish grin.
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WEIRDLY SPECIFIC BUT HELPFUL CHARACTER BUILDING QUESTIONS
What’s the lie your character says most often?
How loosely or strictly do they use the word ‘friend’?
How often do they show their genuine emotions to others versus just the audience knowing?
What’s a hobby they used to have that they miss?
Can they cry on command? If so, what do they think about to make it happen?
What’s their favorite [insert anything] that they’ve never recommended to anyone before?
What would you (mun) yell in the middle of a crowd to find them? What would their best friend and/or romantic partner yell?
How loose is their use of the phrase ‘I love you’?
Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive?
What fact do they excitedly tell everyone about at every opportunity?
If someone was impersonating them, what would friends / family ask or do to tell the difference?
What’s something that makes them laugh every single time? Be specific!
When do they fake a smile? How often?
How do they put out a candle?
What’s the most obvious difference between their behavior at home, at work, at school, with friends, and when they’re alone?
What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head?
What do they notice first in the mirror versus what most people first notice looking at them?
Who do they love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)?
What would they do if stuck in a room with the person they’ve been avoiding?
Who do they like as a person but hate their work? Vice versa, whose work do they like but don’t like the person?
What common etiquette do they disagree with? Do they still follow it?
What simple activity that most people do / can do scares your character?
What do they feel guilty for that the other person(s) doesn’t / don’t even remember?
Did they take a cookie from the cookie jar? What kind of cookie was it?
What subject / topic do they know a lot about that’s completely useless to the direct plot?
How would they respond to being fired by a good boss?
What’s the worst gift they ever received? How did they respond?
What do they tell people they want? What do they actually want?
How do they respond when someone doesn’t believe them?
When they make a mistake and feel bad, does the guilt differ when it’s personal versus when it’s professional?
When do they feel the most guilt? How do they respond to it?
If they committed one petty crime / misdemeanor, what would it be? Why?
How do they greet someone they dislike / hate?
How do they greet someone they like / love?
What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?
Who do they keep in their life for professional gain? Is it for malicious intent?
What’s a secret they haven’t told serious romantic partners and don’t plan to tell?
What hobby are they good at in private, but bad at in front of others? Why?
Would they rather be invited to an event to feel included or be excluded from an event if they were not genuinely wanted there?
How do they respond to a loose handshake? What goes through their head?
What phrases, pronunciations, or mannerisms did they pick up from someone / somewhere else?
If invited to a TED Talk, what topic would they present on? What would the title of their presentation be?
What do they commonly misinterpret because of their own upbringing / environment / biases? How do they respond when realizing the misunderstanding?
What language would be easiest for them to learn? Why?
What’s something unimportant / frivolous that they hate passionately?
Are they a listener or a talker? If they’re a listener, what makes them talk? If they’re a talker, what makes them listen?
Who have they forgotten about that remembers them very well?
Who would they say ‘yes’ to if invited to do something they abhorred / strongly didn’t want to do?
Would they eat something they find gross to be polite?
What belief / moral / personality trait do they stand by that you (mun) personally don’t agree with?
What’s a phrase they say a lot?
Do they act on their immediate emotions, or do they wait for the facts before acting?
Who would / do they believe without question?
What’s their instinct in a fight / flight / freeze / fawn situation?
What’s something they’re expected to enjoy based on their hobbies / profession that they actually dislike / hate?
If they’re scared, who do they want comfort from? Does this answer change depending on the type of fear?
What’s a simple daily activity / motion that they mess up often?
How many hobbies have they attempted to have over their lifetime? Is there a common theme?
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WHAT IS YOUR MORAL ALIGNMENT?
JEREMY CHETRI
Lawful Good
Your actions are motivated by compassion and a sense of duty. You rarely do anything for your own benefit or gain, but rather in service of others.
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WHAT IS YOUR MORAL ALIGNMENT?
XAVIER DOLLS
Neutral Good
You are guided by your conscience, rather than any formal laws or traditions. You may occasionally break the rules, but it’s generally in service of the greater good.
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WHAT IS YOUR MORAL ALIGNMENT?
BOBO DEL REY
Chaotic Neutral
You follow your own rules, often in direct contradiction to the law of the land. You’re not beholden to traditions, and you believe strongly in freedom, regardless of how it is obtained.
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WHAT IS YOUR MORAL ALIGNMENT?
DOC HOLLIDAY
Lawful Neutral
You’re motivated by tradition and you strongly believe in law and order. You put a lot of faith in process, and you’ll often follow orders without questioning them, as long as it doesn’t cause you to act immorally.
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Sometimes, alone is safer.
That’s not the conventional wisdom.
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i was playing RDR2 and i’m rage quitting now lmao i’m angry, this is upsetting, i may very well get my feelings out by just adding some characters to my other multimuse or giving some of my boys here a RDR2 verse or something lol
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Jeremy isn’t ignorant to his own... well, he would call them faults, but there’s that whole quote about ‘own worst critics’ and all. He knew he was easily taken aback, and had more or less come to accept it. He only felt relieved that Robin seemed, at the very least amused by it. The other man had stood quietly, a small smile on his face as Jeremy attempted to regain his composure and alight somewhere comfortable, and he couldn’t help but feel a surge of affection for Robin at... this. That. Everything. The fact he had brought Jeremy coffee, the fact he didn’t mind - in fact, seemed into - his awkwardness, his ridiculously cute smile...
He cleared his throat, about to respond to the comment on sleep deprivation... and sidetracked yet again by a... was that flirting? Oh my god, was he flirting? Jeremy took a sip of his coffee, trying to slow his heartbeat - which on second thought meant coffee might not be the best idea, but work with what ou have. “I--I mean, maybe that’ll happen someday. Sometime. Uh...” Oh my god, you are hopeless.
Almost relieved for the opportunity to change subjects, even if it was... a date? He was asking Jeremy on a date? Or maybe he shouldn’t read too much into it--well, no--
He shook his head slightly, firmly deciding to rid himself of his thoughts. “Um, no! I mean yeah! I mean... I mean, that sounds great. I could eat.” God, actually, how long had it been since he’d eaten properly? He had snacked on some veggie sticks the night before at... some point. “I mean, if you’re sure. I’d love to see some of the special Robin spots in Purgatory - you’ve lived here, you gotta know where all the sweet spots are, right?”
Ears and cheeks - burning. Foot, meet mouth. But hey, it wasn’t as if Robin hadn’t been flirting like, five seconds earlier. He rushed to speak again nonetheless. “I only know that one coffeeshop on the corner. Mostly because I go there like, every day.”
{ Mr. Cutemurdertree: }
Oh, if only the alarm bells would shut up. Or… sirens? Alarms would insinuate there was a reason to be upset or concerned, which weren’t exactly accurate emotions. Sirens though would indicate that maybe an ambulance was on its way which after the blundering and the embarrassment, would be far more adequate. Either way, Jeremy couldn’t think over the nonexistent noise in his head as he fumbled with his papers, then his sleeves, then brushed himself off quickly to try and lessen some of the wrinkles in his clothes.
The coffee smelled good. (Robin smelled good too but of course he did, he had probably showered and everything this morning and not stayed up all night studying the biological ins and outs of freaking monsters.) Jeremy gratefully accepted it, offering a sheepish smile in response, about to say thank you before Robin spoke again. Then he found himself glad he hadn’t taken a sip of the coffee yet - he surely would have choked on it if he had.
“I–no! Why would I–why would you–” Okay, he had to give up, he was getting nowhere. Dropping what little facade he had been trying to create, he sighed, a faint laugh somewhere in the exhale. “Okay, fine. A little. But only ‘cause I’m off my game, I, uh… I didn’t sleep much last night. Work stuff.” He rose to his feet, still holding the mug, and crossed the room to the sofa with the coffee table in front of it, a decidedly more comfortable place to chat. He patted the sofa cushion next to him, a silent offer to Robin to sit. “I hope you slept well, at least. What are you doing today anyway?”
Robin again has to bite back a laugh, knowing the anxious behavior of the other man almost by heart now. Trademarks as it were. All of which he finds so painfully adorable. He simply stands patiently waiting for Jeremy to shake out his jitters energetically, just offering a warm, knowing smile as he watches. He can all but see the gears in the other’s brain turning as he finally reaches for the mug. He can just see the pause his slight flirtation causes and almost apologizes for being inappropriate when Jeremy begins to stumble over his words, the verbal incontinence causing him to take his lower lip between his teeth in an effort to abate more laughter. The expression more suggestive than he might have intended.
He gives another light squint as Jeremy concedes, a slow smirk tugging at the corner of his lips as he continues to tease him. “Oh is that what this is? Sleep depravation? Got it.” The taller man takes a sip of coffee from his own mug, feigning a nod of understanding, and rolling his lips in. “I can’t say I wouldn’t love to see what you look like on your game…” Okay, maybe he was just trying to get a rise out of him now.
Robin gives the last statement some consideration. “Well– I thought I’d come down here and see if there was anything I could help with– somehow my day job seems less important all things considered…or ya know– you could let me take you out to breakfast…” He lolls his head a bit, “You should at least eat something if you insist on sleeping so little…”
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okay, with all the anti discourse i’ve been seeing out there recently, i just want to say two things:
1) this is a ship and let ship blog.
proshipper, anti anti, whatever you like to call it. if you do not like a ship, simply skip over the content! block the tag! it is simple: you do not have to interact with content you do not like! no one is harming you by posting or interacting with content you find “Problematic™️” or dislike! no one on the internet owes you anything. it is up to you to curate your dash.
2) the “you must be x to write x” trend is harmful.
it asks people to reveal details about themselves that may be dangerous, painful to go through, or simply uncomfortable. once again, no one on the internet owes you anything. how much, if any, personal information someone puts on the internet is up to them, and it is not up to you to decide whether they have “permission” to write something, whether it be “Problematic™️” or not. up until less than two years ago, i did not think i was part of the queer community, but i was writing queer fanfiction. does this make me “Problematic™️”?
you don’t always know if the person writing x really is x—surprise, people can lie or not share that information—and in any case, it isn’t your business. bad portrayals exist—from within and without the community. we can simply not read them. sending hate mail to or doxxing anyone who doesn’t fit your blueprint of “who’s allowed to write xyz” is dangerous and downright awful. let me also remind you once more that i, and all other fanfic authors out there, owe you nothing. you do not have a right to my personal life.
at the heart of all this is the fact that fiction does not equal reality. sometimes people write unhealthy relationships to process trauma. you have no right to demand that knowledge. sometimes they write them because those dynamics are interesting to explore in a work of fiction that, again, does not equal reality. and again, you have no right to know why they write something. it is not up to the writer to impress morality upon the public. further, whether or not a work is moral has no bearing on its value as art. contrary to what purity culture would have you think, morality is entirely subjective and full of grey zones. you are not the sole arbiter of morality. if you disagree with an author’s work, simply do not interact with it.
“there is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. books are well written, or badly written. that is all.”
—oscar wilde, the picture of dorian grey
tl;dr: don’t like, don’t read.
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Send me “🎵” and I’ll post a starter using lyrics from a song I recently listened to!
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↪ 𝑼𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑵 𝑭𝑳𝑶𝑹𝑨 . ( a collection of lyric starters originating from the musical works of alina baraz . adjust phrasing as necessary . )
i’m not asking for too much .
why did i let this get out of hand ?
take advantage of the moment .
don’t you keep me waiting .
is it hopeless , or can we try ?
look me in my eyes .
can you promise that you’ll be honest ?
now that i grew , i’m finally ready for you .
you take away the hurt .
how could you forget that i believe in you ?
i’ve got so much left to say .
i just wanna get you all alone .
nothing lasts forever .
stay the night .
i’ve got a lot on my mind .
if you really want to know how i’m doing , just ask .
i only miss you when the sun goes down .
you’re the only one that i want .
love me like i’m never gonna leave .
anybody else would be gone by now .
you ready ? let me know .
call it what you want , darling .
you love a little chaos .
right now we’re not crossing lines .
you should come over .
i’m finally ready for you .
let me be your peace of mind .
i wonder where the time went .
can we just let it go for a moment ?
you’ve got a way with words .
if you need me , come and find me .
all that really matters is you keep showing up .
you are more than enough .
we could sit inside in the silence .
i keep running from all the things i want .
at the end of the day , would you do what it takes ?
your voice is my favorite sound .
everything you touch is tainted .
just cause we’re in love , doesn’t mean that we’re right for each other .
would you push your pride to the side ?
if you stay the night , you could change my mind .
don’t you wanna know ?
i need you to hand it over .
you know exactly what i want .
we’ve got things to work through .
i’m gonna make it okay .
say the word and you know i’ll follow .
i don’t mind the sleepless nights .
i don’t like your energy , keep that shit away from me .
is it me ? is my intuition wrong ?
i can see my whole life when i’m with you .
what ? is it over ?
i don’t want to stay here .
i’d like to think i’m deserving of something better .
why do you have to be defensive ?
you were what mattered .
you’ve been gone for a long time .
if you want my love , i could blow your mind .
you know i love it when you say my name .
tell me that you’ll stay .
i can’t remember the last time i took a minute to myself .
i’ve got this tendency of seeing what i wanna see .
hold me like you mean it .
i’m home with you , no matter the place .
you’re just what i need .
say you know me .
you’ve got my attention .
how far would you go ?
i don’t like playing games .
you know that i won’t let go .
i’m done with you .
it’s you that i came for .
you don’t have to tell me about it .
i don’t want to let you down .
i’m not yours and you’re not mine .
everything you do , i want to do it with you .
i don’t know much about love .
i’m feeling used but i keep running back to you .
you know what i need .
another day losing sleep over bad nights .
why do i keep running ?
i just forget about me .
we could smoke a little .
call me when you’re alone .
i’m getting tired of you and me .
i can’t explain something i don’t understand .
maybe i’ll get you out of my head .
why do i stay if i know you’re not mine ?
you know what to say .
can i make you feel okay ?
i want to hold you .
you’ve gotta crave it and chase it .
you could be my everything .
here’s to good people .
don’t play that mind shit .
i know it wasn’t you .
you know that i want you .
i don’t wanna wait long .
i’ve never felt like this before .
you just keep playing me like a fool .
i can give you what you need .
you’re mine .
i love the taste of you .
show me where nobody goes .
i never meant to hurt you , i fucked up .
call me when you get home .
say you’ll never go .
i just want to put my weight on you .
you’re just what i need . i don’t even know why , though .
we can take it slow .
what do i do when there’s too much of me , too little of you ?
i know you’re not here to stay .
when it comes to you , i lose all control .
you’re walking poetry .
all that you are is all that i need .
i can make you feel alright .
why do i let you cross the line every time ?
i’m all yours .
don’t keep your feelings to yourself .
i’m searching for the thrill .
let it go , it’s behind you .
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Reblog if it's okay to fill up your inbox!
-please feel free to specify in the tags any limits you may have! examples being: mutuals only; only for memes, general ic asks, or both; if ooc asks are welcomed; etc.
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can personal blogs please stop responding to my starter called post, i keep getting super excited thinking that there's somebody who wants to start her and then it's just some random person lol
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