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Gusto ko maintindihan. Gusto ko malaman bakit. Gusto ko masaktan basta maging malinaw lang. Gusto ko marinig yung totoo. O baka narinig ko na pero pinili ko magpaka bingi at pipi nung panahon na akala ko magiging maayos na. Gusto ko na tumigil sa paniniwalang may patutunguhan na maghintay, kahit yung kailangan lang na pagtatapos ang makamtan, na malaman ko lahat ng kailangan para sa wakas matigil na. Pero sana mas gustuhin ko na tumanggap na ganun talaga. Na wala kang magagawa. Na tanggapin mong nagago ka. Na ginamit ka. Sana matanggap ko na walang kahulugan at kahalagahan yung kung ano man inakala mo e pinagsamahan at pinagdaanan niyo. Kasi yun lang naman talaga nagpapalakas ng kapit mo. Yung umasang may katiting na tsansang matauhan at maalala yung mga ginawa mo at inilaan mo para sa taong mahalaga sayo. Kasi kahit harapan ka nang itinakwil, kinalimutan, at tinatraong hindi kakilala, hanggat naniniwala ka sa wala, ang punta mo din sa wala. Paikot ikot na wala. Sana maawa ka na sa sarili mo. Tulungan mo naman sarili mo bumangon. Sipagin ka na sana humanap ng bagong simula sa mga bagay na sadyang pang matagalan na magiging higit pansa inakala mong nakamit mo na pakikipagkaibigan na di kalaunan e lokohan lang. sana dun ka na umasa, sa paniniwalang kaya mo na, o na kaya mo pa.

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Protagonists

I’m on the final season of Breaking Bad, and I must say that I am really beginning to hate the show for what Walter White has become. I used to be a fan of him being on the good side of the bad but this season really brought out the worst in him. Well, I know the writers deliberately made him look that way for a purpose but the problem for me is I was not seeing it at first.

Now, I really don’t mind knowing what would happen next, be it in movies or TV shows so I went on and searched the internet for anything cool related to the show. Then I found all the amazing Easter Eggs of the series. Then suddenly, I realized and remembered why I particularly loved it in the first place. The details the writers went into were so spectacular to the point that I loved it again.

I guess you just need that something that will make you change your view on a certain subject or thing for you to push through. Not all of it may be good, but then again, what ever makes you through it all eventually is what matters. Right now, I really would like to push through and hit reply when I saw the e-mail sent as a reply. But then again, it all comes back haunting me.

It’s not that I don’t know what to do. I just don’t want to do it.

I guess it will boil down to who you treat as protagonists in your life. Be careful though, as they might be like Walter, who in the end succumbs to being the antagonist who brings everything down with him.

Rant over.

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