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I’ve always said that the world is a different place for the heartbroken. It moves on a different axis, at a different speed. Time skips backwards and forwards fleetingly. The heartbroken might go through thousands of micro-emotions a day trying to figure out how to get through it without picking up the phone to hear that old familiar voice. In the land of heartbreak, moments of strength, independence, and devil-may-care rebellion are intricately woven together with grief, paralyzing vulnerability and hopelessness. Imagining your future might always take you on a detour back to the past. And this is all to say, that the next album I’ll be releasing is my version of Red.
Musically and lyrically, Red resembled a heartbroken person. It was all over the place, a fractured mosaic of feelings that somehow all fit together in the end. Happy, free, confused, lonely, devastated, euphoric, wild, and tortured by memories past. Like trying on pieces of a new life, I went into the studio and experimented with different sounds and collaborators. And I’m not sure if it was pouring my thoughts into this album, hearing thousands of your voices sing the lyrics back to me in passionate solidarity, or if it was simply time, but something was healed along the way.
Sometimes you need to talk it over (over and over and over) for it to ever really be… over. Like your friend who calls you in the middle of the night going on and on about their ex, I just couldn’t stop writing. This will be the first time you hear all 30 songs that were meant to go on Red. And hey, one of them is even ten minutes long.
otome-azarada said: Just one more question (sorry to bother you, Cassie!): do you have any plans of writing a Clace novella or something like that? I miss them so much! Love you!
Between Sword Catcher and Chain of Thorns I don’t have any spare time for novellas etc. alas. BUT! This was a good time for this question, because …
(Art by Cassandra Jean OF COURSE)
For a holiday present for my newsletter subscribers, I went through all my archives and pulled up everything I’ve written over the years — as extras for special editions of books, etc — that focuses on Clary and Jace. From “Awake”, which tells the story of the first time Jace saw Clary, to Jace’s perspective on their first kiss, to the marriage proposal story A Long Conversation (and the second marriage proposal story, A Love That Never Tires) it’s in there — more than sixty pages of Clace extravaganza spanning City of Bones to now.
It will be offered to my newsletter subscribers early next week as a holiday present. They’ll be able to download an illustrated PDF of all the stories for free. The easiest way to sign up for the newsletter is to pop over here:
https://bit.ly/cassieclarenews
You’ll get an explanatory welcome message, etc. As I’ve been on deadline I’ve been moving a lot of my social presence to the newsletter, which is why I encourage people to sign up so they get news and snippets — but if you only want to sign up for the Clace freebie and go, that’s okay too! Happy holidays, Shadowhunters!
mirrorball reminds me of “find out what you want, be that girl for a month” but it’s a matured realization. in blank space she’s writing satirically about how the media portrays her. in mirrorball she’s owning up. she says, i’ll show you yourself, i’ll reflect you, “i can change everything about me to fit in”, i’m not natural all i do is try. it’s so sad but honest and raw. and so fucking relatable. that desire to be loved by someone that you need like a drug so you become who you think they want you to be.
The newest in the tarot card series I’ve been doing with @gabriella.bujdoso — Jesse Blackthorn as the Death card. The Death card isn’t necessarily bad — it indicates change and transformation. With Jesse in the illustration is Grace; you can also see the Voyance scar on his hand!
(And Grace does indeed have one rune — it’s mentioned in CoG2.)
Now with James Herondale. The emperor and empress Major Arcana cards from the tarot by Gabriella Bujdoso: the Emperor card represents leadership, and a mastery over the “worlds of matter” — dimensions, perhaps! I love how James’ crown is shadows, and Cordelia’s is fire.