almostunlikelyfan

[almostunlikelyfan]

i know all the stuff and how to get into the void but i still force myself to stay up at night procrastinating actually getting in the void. like through out the day i say affirmations and listen to subliminals hyping myself to actually enter before i go to sleep. but whenever im about to i get scared and it’s either because of -

1. afraid of failure/rejection. (not gonna elaborate😭)

2. i get everything i want then im bored because now what? ive been manifesting this for a while now, then i think about if i have everything i desire and i feel momentarily happiness then.. what? i mean yeah all my hard work has paid off but now what am i living for what am i working for ?? it was all just handed to me i didnt work for it so it’s not really mine? idk how to explain it properly without sounding foolish.

3. i have everything i want but it’s not really REAL yk? like im still working on me letting go of this reality because it’s engraved in my brain that when i shift im leaving behind everyone here. like do i get replaced by someone else while all my friends/family suffer here ? without a goodbye? i know i can come back but still.

4. working on my focus issues and my ego. whenever i have a negative thought i know it’s just my ego holding me back but honestly i just have a huge ego and im so stubborn i will not give up until i get into the void. (ive mini-shifted multiple times but never fully let go of this body because of my ego or i start to tense up.)

any tips or relatability?😭

P.S - (u can criticize if u want i need the hard truth because im truly dedicated and i will not give up on everything i desire.)