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alo-piss-trancy · 8 hours

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alo-piss-trancy · 8 hours

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A commonly overlooked symptom of depression is anhedonia, the inability to feel joy or pleasure. The reason that it's easy to overlook is that it's easier to miss the absence of something that's not around all the time than it is to miss a symptom that causes active distress, such as feeling tired and miserable all the time.

Anhedonia is good at being a persistent undercurrent to your life. My aunt, who has major depressive disorder, related to me that she figured out that something was wrong when she looked at the daffodils she had planted blooming, and couldn't recognize the emotion that she felt when she looked at them. It had been long enough since she had felt happy that she lost the ability to recognize the emotion.

It's a particularly dangerous depressive symptom, because it robs you of the ability to feel those little spots of joy that keep a lot of people going, while not doing anything to impair your ability to function. If you don't know that this is a treatable symptom of depression, it's easy to assume that your ability to feel good is permanently broken, and decide to commit suicide because you don't want to live like that. It's not an irrational conclusion, but it is an uninformed one, and everyone deserves to have all the information when making a major decision.

This is what a lot of questionnaires are trying to look for when they ask about "loss of enjoyment". If you can't remember a loss of enjoyment because you can't remember enjoyment, then you probably have anhedonia. If you struggle to define how it is to feel "happy", "content", or "good", or how it feels when you feel those emotions, you probably have anhedonia. If you can't remember feeling any of those emotions for a week or more, you probably have anhedonia.

Symptoms commonly co-occurring with anhedonia are fatigue (often the cause), clear and thoughtful consideration of suicide, loss of desire to socialize or do activities that used to make you happy, and weight loss (due to lack of enjoyment of food).

This section is anecdotal. In what I have observed, anhedonia due to fatigue rarely responds well to depression treatment unless depression was causing the fatigue. If fatigue and anhedonia are co-occurring and are not both alleviated by depression treatment, consider other causes for the fatigue.

#not omo #tw suicidal thoughts #tw suicide

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alo-piss-trancy · 1 day

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i think everyone would be happier if they just started writing fanfics for themselves

even if you dont post it

write it

even if you never want anyone else to read it

write it anyway!!! keep it locked away in ur google docs if you want!!!

have fun with it and write exactly what YOU would want to read <3

#yes so true!!! be free 💛

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alo-piss-trancy · 2 days

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@nsfwitchy2

#is this u? 👀#idk much about isopods but i hope all the little babies they had are thriving 💛

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alo-piss-trancy · 2 days

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Hey can we queers please remember that the rural queer experience has unique challenges thanks

#this is so fucking true #i did not know a SINGLE openly lgbt person in all my school years bc it was too dangerous #1 trans person came out to me in hs only bc we were dating.#and they couldn't do anything/present as their gender even in private bc it was too risky #they only started having pride celebrations there 3 years ago. 3 fucking years. and it's super small and risky to go to #also the docs and therapists having loose lips is so fucking true. even the supportive ones might out u #not even to try and fix you but bc they're gossips or don't understand the risk #but yeah. i literally can't look for therapy rn bc it's WAY too likely i would be 1. outed #2. ppl trying to convince me to get pregnant and married or blab if i try to get sterilized #probably both #and i know this bc my abusive family member went to college here to become a therapist. i know the ppl they knew who were also therapists #they were all genuinely wretched #fun fact everyone in my family agrees they'd be the worst therapist ever. it's like high school bullies becoming cops & nurses #thankfully they decided to stick to retail after graduaying bc I QUOTE 'they didn't want to listen to ppls problems all day' ☠️#but yea queer rural is hell esp when you can't just move #the only reason i didn't get the shit beat out of me or my lawn set on fire #was bc i was straight passing and looked fairly feminine #so they assumed i was just too shy/autistic/late bloomer to flirt with boys lmao #i hated it so much but at least being underestimated/babied worked in my favor in that one aspect 🥲#not omo

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alo-piss-trancy · 3 days

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#sHUT UP SHUT UP AHDJFJGK #i've never been so called out lmao 😂#not omo

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alo-piss-trancy · 4 days

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Actually really tho? The cooking is actually gonna be the more difficult part of this silly fic for me. Researching nature and biology is my jam. Cooking tho???

Tbh I haven't eaten many fish dishes either so... gonna be researching...

I've been watching that Del/icious in D/ungeon show on netflix & I'm almost caught up.

Kinda wanna try to write smth for it... but ngl the only idea I have is Cursed AF lmao

U know those hellspawn catfish that. That sense the ammonia in urine and. And.

If you've seen River Monsters YOU KNOW ☠️

#my family isn't big on fish so the most i really get is salmon and rice once in a while #or like. captain d's fried fish which does not count lmao #how to cook the tiny pp fish... 🤔#bear txt

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alo-piss-trancy · 4 days

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I've caved and started typing this out. I'm glad I finally have some energy and motivation to write again but why couldn't it have been anything but this to scratch my brain itch 😭 Researching these demon creatures proves Earth and Real Life is worse than any DnD bullshit. This is just as fucked up as I remembered, if not moreso bc I'm old enough to see the Pictures this time lmaooo 🤢🤮☠️

I've been watching that Del/icious in D/ungeon show on netflix & I'm almost caught up.

Kinda wanna try to write smth for it... but ngl the only idea I have is Cursed AF lmao

U know those hellspawn catfish that. That sense the ammonia in urine and. And.

If you've seen River Monsters YOU KNOW ☠️

#i did find useful info to work with but lord lmao #bear txt #dnd fishman this #dnd kraken that.#NO. the candiru fish is the scariest enemy

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