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I really hate that eating is a coping mechanism for me, because I am trying so hard to eat healthy and not binge eat, and then a bunch of shit happens and I get stressed and the only thing I want to do is eat, like I feel the need in me to eat, like I am hungry even though I am actually full, and it takes so much energy to force myself to bot binge and it takes even more energy to make sure my brain doesn’t hate me for wanting to eat, and ensuring that I don’t get upset when I do eat, and I am not even allowed to complain about it, because then people are upset with me, and they don’t listen. Like I eat enough, I know I do, I have put so much work into doing that, it isn’t the problem, my problem is I eat too much, I eat until I physically can’t and I tell people I am trying to eat less and it’s instantly ‘eat what you want’ ‘you shouldn’t control what you eat’ ‘i like chubby people’ ‘you’re not fat’ ‘there is nothing wrong with being fat’ and it’s so tiring like I know they mean well, but I am trying my best to be healthy and I wish they took the tome to listen before trying to advise me and judge me

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I have like 22 days until my psychology exam and I know none of the year 2 content which is like three quarters of the overall content, I am going to fail, there is no way I can fix this, and the worst part is I actually tried this time, I tried so hard to learn the content and I just didn’t and it just proves Im useless and this is why I shouldn’t have tried, and now everyone is going to say I didn’t try even though I really did and it’s gonna suck and I hate everything

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Just had to explain to my teacher that not everyone is on the spectrum.

Now shes trying to defend herself and exaplin what she meant

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I think Rosa and Gina were in a queer platonic relationship, i think it fits them so well, I love them.

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Gym princess appreciation post

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Whenever me or soma needs to go to the bathroom, the scene in Brooklyn 99 where Holt and Amy eat street meat and it doesn’t agree with Holt, so he needs to go to the bathroom, and Amy suggests a public bathroom or something and Holt responds ‘this is a very private matter’ plays in my head and I find it so funny

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More cat pictures

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Being harassed by someone younger than me, might just die, so embarrassing, like wtf, harass might be a strong word they shout and laugh whenever they see me and sometimes shout my deadname.

And first time is days that I haven’t had dysmorphia, just for it to be ruined by a bunch of people talking about exercising to lose weight.

Everything is going great

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Tumblr..... Tumblr, stop calling the mfs I follow “my crushes”, IT'S COMPLETELY STUPID!! *Aroace scream.*

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I need the stardew update for o come to switchhh desperately

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I am haunted by Gonks, they are this little gnome thing and I hate them, I used to think they were cute, I was a fool.

Heres an example, one of many.

You see, the reason I now hate them is, my mum LOVES them, and I am not talking a normal amount, I mean she is OBSESSED she has a collection, she has a Gonk for every stair, she has four on our landing, she has them hanging from places, she has pictures, framed pictures with each Gonk representing a person in the family, she has colouring pages hung on the wall, she has them scattered around the house, no where is safe, every nook and cranny has a Gonk, they watch me eat, they follow me everywhere I go, they haunt my dreams, my only hope is one day I will have a Gonkless house.

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guillermo de la cruz is literally THE most character of all time. hes gay. hes latino. hes fat. hes badass. hes sexy. hes a serial killer. hes a mamas boy. hes insane. hes the most normal one here. hes by birth and lineage a vampire killer. hes spent 13 years trying to become a vampire. hes my best friend hes my pal, my homeboy, my rotten soldier, hes my sweet cheese my good time boy

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Look at my catss

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I have a levels like so soon and my stupid brain won’t let me revise, just because I’m gonna get a lower grade on my business coursework than I expected, and I am not actually upset by the grade but rather because it’s the first time I have genuinely tried to do something academically and I am failing, and the whole reason I don’t try is so I can blame not trying but now I tried and I’m still doing shit so my brain sees no reason to try in anymore work, which is so frustrating because i just spent two years on coursework through so many depressive episodes and my brain now gives up and I was just starting to understand psychology and I was finally starting to remember sociologists and shit for sociology and now my brain simply wont let me even try to do stuff, I just shutdown whenever I try to do work and I have ca coursework deadline that I am behind on and I have 6 exams to prepare for and I can’t, and I don’t understand why, I have failed so many times and this is the time my brain quits on me wtf, I just wanted to be semi-decent on something once in my life.

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My worst nightmare would be:

I am in London and I have to go bowling, and I am late, I am in the underground at the top of one of those really tall escalators, and it’s super crowded so I if I stop moving imma be pushed and I can feel this old man breathing on me and the person in front of me smells like sweat, and my train is just arriving, and it’s someones birthday the next day and I haven’t got them a gift and they are one of those people who are really hard to buy for and I have limited money to buy a gift with, and I know when I get home imma have to sign everyone in my family into disney+ again for the one millionth time and I saw I spider in my room that morning and I ran away before I could get someone to get it.

If this ever happens I would quite genuinely combust I would explode, stop existing

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I grew up watching friends and i liked it and I have seen people talk about how its problematic and i definitely agree, but I have not seen enough people talk about Ross and how bad of a person he is like all the characters got their problems but I cannot think of one redeeming characteristic of Ross, I hate him so much. For example be becomes possessive of Rachel to the point of drowning her in gifts just to stop her coworker hitting on her when she tell him that nothing is happening, so he should have trusted her, thenn, he gets upset that she prioritises her job, something that means so much to her because no one like literally NO ONE believed she could be successful and thought she would always rely on daddies money, and then when he finally pushes Rachel over the edge and she asks to go one a break he instantly sleeps with someone he doesn’t even give it a little time he goes straight away, and thenn he doesn’t tell Rachel, and then he gets UPSET WITH HER for being upset because HE SLEPT WITH ANOTHER PERSON and he blames HER, and then when she decides to forgive him he has the audacity to not read the letter, and then agree to it even though he didn’t read it and then get upset with what he agreed with which was literally just admitting he did something wrongg. Like dude is so badd wtf. And don’t even get me started ok him not annulling their marriage and telling her he did. Its so fucked up. I HATE HIMM

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Yo i have been playing splatoon when im bored and im not good at it but loook i got like 17 splats and only 1 deathh