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My plan succeed. Good bye.

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Tumatakbo na naman pala ako sa tao para lang masabi na maayos ako

selfish b

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Dont ever talk about yourself Isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. isolate. Curtains down. The show is over. You'll never see me again.

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Because I don’t have the guts to post this in public so...

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My existence is not needed in this world

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Isa akong walang kwentang tao na hanggang ngayon naninirahan dito sa mundo. Puro ako kuda puro ako reklamo ni hindi ko man lang makamusta ang mga kaibigan ko. Ni hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang nangyayari sa kanila. Napaka selfish ko. Puro na lang ako ang magsasalita. Siguro mas maganda itikom ko na lang ang bibig ko at ngumiti na parang walang problema. Sila naman muna. Sila naman. Sila dapat ang maging maayos hindi ako. Hindi naman kailangan ang buhay ko dito sa mundo. Ngayon sana maging masaya sila dahil pag magsaya ang isang tao nakakalimot sila sa tao sa paligid nila. Makakalimutan din nila ako.

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Please do end my life.

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Don’t worry father i also hate you

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i’m always stuck between “what ifs” or “why” What if nagpunta nga  ako  sa isang specialist and sinabing may sakit nga ako. What will happen? what if everything in my mind are just fucking jokes? What if those people who talked to me. The little girl and Tilda made up ko lang well yeah pero I mean for the sake of attention?

Why am I still alive?

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La fin

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I need to die.

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For almost one month crying is the only thing na kinakapitan ko and right di ko magawa i may cry but not for me. Mabigat na. Bakit di pa kasi ako mawala?

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Artworks that will never be seen.

Words that will never be heard.

Thoughts that will explode eventually.

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I almost died today. I also don’t know what happened that time.

I woke up. Miserable. Anxious to almost everything. I wanted to cry but I laugh. I want to be alone but they’re all over me. Sobrang nakakapagod magpanggap na maayos ka lang dahil maganda ang nangyayari.

Buong araw gamit na gamit ang mga malulungkot na kanta sa playlist ko lahat ng album tapos. Gusto ko ng yakap kahit sino maiparamdam lang sa akin na mali lahat ng nasa isip ko ngunit ako na mismo ang lumayo, ang tumanggi. Tanga. Nakakainis.

Hindi ‘ko rin alam kung anong dahilan basta ang alam 'ko at nasa isipan ko hanggang ngayon mawala na dito sa mundo. Marami ng plano walang nasusunod. Walang nangyayari. Duwag. Mahina. Alam 'ko.

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If this hug means I-am-here-don't-worry. I will always embrace you.

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I love art. Painting. Colors. Everything. And it helps me a lot to have a alone time with thyself. I know myself that everything I do is the glimpse of who I am. Oh my love for art, you give me happiness and anxiety at the same time. I did. Still doing it. I don't fucking care if people think its a joke but its real, one thing they don't know what I am capable of. Call it stupidity, I want to leave. I want to go. To summarize my january? Its on the edge of a cliff. I am too. I have no one.