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i highly recommend listening to at least the end of my pinned audio bc its my favorite scene in the movie xo

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         #𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘𝐂𝐀𝐍.   (adj.)   finding  beauty  in  negative  spaces .

selective  &  potentially  triggering  mary  mason  from  the  soska  sisters  2012  film  american  mary .   exploring  themes  of  revenge,   quiet  feminine  rage,   victimization  &  empowerment,   &  the  protagonist  becoming  the  antagonist .

            q:   do  you  feel  connected  to  anyone,   mary  ?                                                                                   a:   no.

                          brought  to  salvation  by  bee .   (  23,   she \ they  )                                                                               𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃

other  blogs:

@amarycan​​,   mary  mason  from  “american  mary” @caerolina​​,   mallory  barnes  a  fandomless  original  character @ductaped​​,   ashley  jones  from  “better  watch  out” @endfght​​,   multi-fandom  multimuse @jpoole​​,   jeyne  poole  from  “a  song  of  ice  and  fire” @leftlimp​​,   jeff  grimes  from  “the  walking  dead” @oneknot​​​,   amy  harrison  from  “the  walking  dead” @sevynhells​,   multimuse  for  “a  song  of  ice  and  fire” / “house of the dragon” @sunruin​,   fandomless  vampire  original  character

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i still think dbd!killer mary would be so sexy

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American Mary (2012), dir. Jen and Sylvia Soska

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i am Always thinking about mary frantically trying to stitch herself back up to her Last Second

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𝑴𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 𝑴𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 .   (  sentence starters based upon lyrics from the band 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫.  dark themes are present,  some lyrics have been adjusted for better use.  )  

❛  you’d better run.  ❜ ❛  don’t lie to me.  ❜ ❛  i don’t feel like i’m even here.  ❜ ❛  aren’t i supposed to wanna fight for love?  ❜ ❛  i’m not okay.  ❜ ❛  come back to me.  ❜ ❛  just get out of the way.  ❜ ❛  i’m not anti-social, i’m just tired of people.  ❜ ❛  come back with me.  ❜ ❛  so, can we let sleeping dogs lie?  ❜ ❛  i feel like i know you.  ❜ ❛  i’ve seen you go through hell.  ❜ ❛  do you feel used?  ❜ ❛  you’re a handful.  ❜ ❛  tell me your fears.  ❜ ❛  i can hardly stand the sight of it all.  ❜ ❛  everyone’s fucked  &  they don’t even know it.  ❜ ❛  tell me your weakness.  ❜ ❛  don’t tell me that everything’s easy.  ❜ ❛  i won’t lie to you.  ❜ ❛  every good thing, i kill it good.  ❜ ❛  i’m an ugly mess.  ❜ ❛  there are people staring.  ❜ ❛  you can’t get to them unless you go through me.  ❜ ❛  you fuck with them, you fuck with me.  ❜ ❛  i don’t have much to do today.  ❜ ❛  close the door  &  shut the blinds.  ❜ ❛  if you leave me, rest assured it would kill me.  ❜ ❛  you stood beside me when i was out of my mind.  ❜ ❛  i’m what they like to call a special case.  ❜ ❛  nobody believes me.  ❜ ❛  you  &  me, we’re not the same.  ❜ ❛  i’ve got problems.  ❜ ❛  being this godly can’t be good for me.  ❜ ❛  i’m staying in bed today.  ❜ ❛  i’m not listening to you.  ❜ ❛  i’m not crazy!  ❜ ❛  you’re the angel that i couldn’t kill.  ❜ ❛  put your head on straight.  ❜ ❛  fuck off, to all you people.  ❜ ❛  it takes a dedicated hand to put it through the wall.  ❜ ❛  i made a fist, but not a plan.  ❜ ❛  you don’t need poltergeists for sidekicks.  ❜ ❛  would it be so bad if i stayed?  ❜ ❛  i’ve grown tired of this body.  ❜ ❛  fall apart without me.  ❜ ❛  c’mon, humble my bones with a cardiac.  ❜ ❛  did you ever really think you’d love a guy like me?  ❜ ❛  for the love of fuck…  ❜ ❛  all my money’s been a long time spent.  ❜ ❛  you’re not a monster, just a human.  ❜ ❛  i’m high  &  drunk on ego.  ❜ ❛  you’re not a demon.  ❜ ❛  i don’t wanna know what i am.  ❜ ❛  i’m alright, i’m okay…  ❜ ❛  i believe that you’ll see a better day.  ❜ ❛  i want what’s best for me.  ❜ ❛  there’s a god awful shitty feeling of dread in my heart.  ❜ ❛  at any second now, i think i might fall apart.  ❜ ❛  we’ve just gotta keep on moving.  ❜ ❛  you’re better than the drugs i used to love.  ❜ ❛  you’re deadly like a gun.  ❜ ❛  it’s a very good bad thing that we’ve found.  ❜ ❛  stay another night.  ❜ ❛  you’re gonna kill me.  ❜

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 ENEMIES TO LOVERS,  LOVERS TO ENEMIES AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN

“  you really expect me to believe a word you’re saying.  now?  after everything you’ve done.  ” 

“ do you really think i’m humble enough to ask for your help if i wasn’t truly fucking desperate?  ”

“  you’re either really desperate to be coming to me,  or you think i’m a lot stupider than i am.  ”

“  face it,  i know you better than anyone else.  ”  

“   somehow,  out of everyone.  even my own damn friends,  you know me more.  ” 

“  i’ve seen parts of you no one else will ever understand.  i see who you are.  what you are.  and i think you should stop making yourself smaller to make the world comfortable. ”  

“  we’re nothing alike.  i’ll never be like you.  ”

“  why are you asking me for help?  ”

“  you’re the only person who isn’t going to treat me with kid gloves right now.  ”

“  you’re the only person who i know will let me do what i need to do without trying to talk me out of it.  ”  

“  i don’t understand what happened to us…why didn’t you trust me?  ”

“  i’ve been in your shadow long enough.  this isn’t about you.  it’s about me,  for once.  ”

“  i’m not a project for you to finish.  i’m not here to be part of your little savior complex.  so stop trying to save me.  ”

“  why didn’t you kill me?  when you had the chance?  ”

“  if you were going to kill me,  you would have done it already.  so,  what do you want from me?  ” 

“  i think this is the first we’ve had a full conversation that didn’t involve you insulting me.  ”

“  you’ve never held back from telling me the truth before.  that’s what i’m counting on now.  ”

“  i don’t hate you.  i pity you.  ”

“  i don’t hate you.  i admire you.  i always have.  ”

“  i’d rather you hate me than be apathetic.  hate means you still care.  ”

“  please—  just let me help you.  ” 

“  i don’t think you’re a monster.  not really.  i just think that’s what you tell yourself to feel strong.  ”

 “  i know you don’t believe me,  but i’m trying to help.  and i could actually do what i need to if you’d stop questioning me.  ”

“  i’ve always been able to tell when you’re lying.  ”

“  well actually,  i came here to fight.  but it looks like you’ve had a shit enough day it kinda feels like i’d be kicking a puppy.  ”

“  no—  please don’t cry.  i’m…not good with the crying.  ”

“  if we’re about to talk about feelings i’m out.  ”  

“  we could have had a future,  you know.  i wanted to do this with you.  but you ruined it.  ” 

“  why are you really here?  ”

“  i remember giving you this scar.  you were so goddamn stubborn.  ”

“  i love you.  but that doesn’t change anything.  ”

“  i don’t think you’re evil.  i think you’re just lost.  and alone.  and you don’t know anything else.  ”

“  it’s too late for me.  ”

“  it’s not to late.  i don’t believe that.  ”

“  i’m just here to make sure you don’t get yourself killed.  ”

“  i’m just not ready to tell the others about us.  they won’t understand.  ”

“  you’re the only one who has ever really understood me.  ”

PROMPTS:

♡ for one muse to kiss the other with a knife to their throat

☁ for a fight to turn into a kiss and/or sex 

❧ for our muses to be forced to take shelter together 

❦ for our muses to be forced to share a bed 

♥ for one muse to unexpectedly save the other’s life 

☂ for one muse to spare the other’s life 

✘ for one muse to get hurt protecting the other 

✔ for one muse to catch the other in a vulnerable moment and have sympathy 

☼ for one muse to see the other hurt and get angry 

ϟ for one muse to take revenge on someone for hurting the other 

✐ for one muse to do something hard/morally grey so the other doesn’t have to

☾ for one muse to open up about their motivations to the other 

✄ our muses having angry sex 

¶ our muses having desperate, passionate sex 

❀ for one muse to confess their feelings to the other 

► for one muse to injure the other and immediately regret it 

▼ for one muse to heal the other after being the one to injure them 

◄ for one muse treat the others injury caused by a third party 

 💀 for one muse to hold the other while they die 

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chelsea g. summers, a certain hunger / ginger snaps (2000) / joan macleod, the shape of a girl / L’AQUART - jade medusa, 2020 / john collier - lilith, 1887 / florence + the machine, “howl” / battle royale (2000) / brenna twohy, “swallowtail” / caravaggio - judith beheading holofernes, 16th c. / herbert james draper - ulysses and the sirens, 1909 / william etty - the sirens and ulysses, 1837 / alicia ostriker, “in the 25th year of marriage, it goes on” / gone girl (2014)

a monster in the shape of a girl

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( meekbrvcry​ )   valerie.

she does not know what to say to this , though she does know that the woman is correct. she has made a lot of foolish choices that would put herself in danger , though she could not help doing so for the well being of others. it is hard wired into her , it is who she is. “ i … i a—apolo—apologize that … “ what does she say to this ? it is not like she is going to change , it is who valerie is at her core.

      there  had  been  a  time  where  mary  was  the  same,   a  long  time  ago,   where  she  would  go  out  of  her  way  to  help  others .   but  then  she  grew  up,   then  she  was  faced  with  reality .   ❝   don’t  apologize      ❞   for  a  second  the  hardness  of  her  face  softens,   ❝   people  take  advantage  of  kindness .   ❞   impossible  to  change  a  person  that  was  already  set  in  their  ways,   all  she  can  do  is  offer  advice  from  experience .   ❝   you  have  to  look  out  for  yourself      no  one  else  will .   ❞

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      ❝   take  a  second  of  your  time      realize  you're  wasting  mine .   ❞

@hallowburnt​ :   JULIE  KOSTENKO,   sc.        SYMPATHY         too  close  to  touch

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American Mary (2012) Dir. Jen and Sylvia Soska

I’ll think about it. 

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      ❝   you’re  cold  like  a  stone      how  did  you  get  that  way ?   ❞

@stabyouth​​​ :   FRANK  MORRISON,   sc.          STONE         born  without  bones

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mary as a killer in dbd is her walking after u in lingerie and her lab coat carrying a bone saw and i will not be taking criticism

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      ❝   you  ever  feel  you  were  meant  to  be  alone ?   ❞

@hisseptember​​​​ :   SEPTEMBER  EDWARDS,   sc.      CONVINCED  I’M  WRONG         polar  bear  club