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I am over men 🤦🏾‍♀️

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Mancrushmondayyy ❤️💕 Hurry up home so I can lick you zaddy 👅

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One of the biggest lessons that I’ve learned while watching Insecure occurred at the end of this hug. Issa and Lawrence finally got to have a real and sentimental conversation. The nostalgia of the empty appartement was probably the cause. These niggas were probably looking around like “Wow… I’m really about to leave behind something and someone I never thought I’d be leaving”. Sometimes it’s like that though. This scene taught me the importance of letting going. Their love was clearly raw and true, it just wasn’t meant to be at this time.

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Michael B. Jordan and Issa Rae pose for the Variety Actors on Actors (Day 1) Portrait Session by Chelsea Lauren in Los Angeles, California (April 28, 2018).

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Black Girl Magic for Variety @ Beautycon

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I’m not about to keep doing this with Trevor. Just tell me to leave you alone.

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Martin Luther is that you?

Finally somebody addressing a real issue in America with statistics, facts and logical reasoning

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Last night was actually a good night on the phone with Trevor 💕

I just hate how sometimes I think he’s being sarcastic even when he says he isn’t and how he appears to be nonchalant but shows that he cares through his actions. Like if I pause him he’s always like “i want to see you. I called to talk to you Amaya, not the screen”. Sometimes I really think he’s being super sarcastic and he’s not lol. He’s just being regular Trevor. I kept asking him if he missed me yesterday because I really miss him. He text me yesterday after I wanted to talk to him ALL week lol. But I really don’t like feeling like I’m bothering people. So when we were texting I asked if he missed me and if he promised that he missed me. Then on facetime last night I asked just so I could hear him say it lol. He was getting annoyed like we already had this conversation and I said so what I want to hear you say it to me.

We were on ft for almost two hours then he wanted to go finish watching his show and i had a FIT okay lol. Like I got SO sad. I didn’t wanna stop talking to him 😩 I’m that girl that doesn’t care how much time y’all spend together, as soon as you say you’re leaving I’m sad and crying. Idc idc idc 😂 I’m spoiled lmao.

Trevor’s my baby. I really think I love that boy ❤️

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THE TOP 10 HIGHEST GROSSING FILMS IN BLACK CINEMA

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Beyoncé // Grammy Looks

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Angela Bassett celebrating her 60th birthday

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Went to Paris this weekend 💖

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This shit doesn’t get any easier. As I’m sitting on the phone with Trevor..not even attempting to figure it all out 😓

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I have SO much to post and I actually can’t wait to get it all out!!

I’ll start with this, I wish Trevor would allow me to love him because honestly I really do. He pretends that he doesn’t know and it hurts me because I wouldn’t act the way I do and show how much I care about him. The night before he left, I literally almost cried when he walked away from my car. The moment was so perfect as he was just holding me tight, cuddling, and listening to him breathe 😂It meant something just being around him was special. Especially because I don’t know if I’ll see him again because he doesn’t know if he’s re-enlisting.

Idk i don’t like feeling vulnerable but he knows that I want more than this. I shouldn’t have to continue to explain it 😪