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I say your name, tonight I’m drowning in memory and mess.

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“It feels so empty with you gone, maybe I’m overreacting and overthinking this but it feels so lonely without you here. It’s like I’m alone again.”

Saturns Honesty

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next life

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“time’s a funny thing. one minute i had you. the next i don’t.”

— it was never the right time to tell you how i felt | letters of a lost love.//t.c

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open your eyes

what we had

was never real

- note to self

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“Being alone never felt right. Sometimes it felt good, but it never felt right.”

— Charles Bukowski

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you’re what nostalgia tastes like. you’re what the angels sing of, your footsteps are what the trees sway to. you’re da vinci’s muse and you’re the smell of the earth after the first rains. you’re my first thought when i read a love poem and you haunt my dreams long after i’m awake. you’re the grace of a dancer and the freedom in a nightingale’s song. you lay in every stroke of an artist’s brush and the wistfulness of a rainy day. baby, you’re what my prayers are made of and every shooting star whispers your name across the midnight sky. darling, i’m so intoxicated by you.

// letters i never sent to you //

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the darkest parts from my book wanderlust

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Jimmy Fallon Asked for Beach Fails and the Internet Delivered

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