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[amirafathihah21]

Tough one

Its been awhile hahahaha so yea now i have a man lol. I dont know if im happy or not. Confused. Why i always get hurts by the love ones. I feel so lonely and here for another day of full with loneliness and boring day and no ones care about how i fell and it just drowning yourself you know. It hurts so bad of having no one understand or even focus on you. Everyone take you for granted while you sincerely love them and care for them but they dont give a fuck about you. I wish one day someone will love me and care about me as much as i care about them. This life hurts so much and it just getting me hopeless and heartless. To those who will reads this, i hope you going thru such a beautiful life

[amirafathihah21]

24.07.18

Sometimes i feel like i want to give up with life. Some people might see me always happy but in real they didn’t know who much I suffered. Im working just to pay my university fee and i have to take care of home.

My parents both of them was busy with their works until i feel like works is their priority than their kids. Im so tired with my life. I want to be free. I want to continue study. I want to run as far as i can go from here. I hate being trapped and told while they easily doing nothing.

Im the one who doing all the house chores and they even don’t say at least thank you. I’ve been told to arrange my little sister with her school, school attire, her food and all of them. I feel like being a single mom you know. With all the tiredness i feel everyday and i have no ones i can express my feelings to, i just want to end my life.

That moment when you realise all this things really scares me to death for not getting married until my career and my life are stable. I don’t want my kids to feel what i feel right now. I feel sucks with my life and sometimes i feel my life was good but most of the time i feel tired.

I always feel pressure with my life especially my family because they doesn’t support me and ask me how am i doing at all costs. I always cry my heart out because i was thinking about my life. Im not comparing my life with my friends but i just want a little bit of love, support and care. I’ve been through lots in life since i was young till now i feel more pressure when i graduated from high school. I just want them to believe me in everything i do and trust me. Why it is so hard.

I always get what i want but attention you can i say i have 30% of my entire life. Im so done. Sometimes I question a lot to Him why i have to face all this alone by myself and at the same time I believe He truly loves me because He is all i have till the more after.

I believe if we stay strong and be patience on what we do, He will gave us more and more. All we have to believe is His planning.

I don’t want to burden my friends with my problems because i love them. I love my family to but i hope and pray they realise whatever i did i will always love them. Hope they know how much i love them and i just want a little bit of attention and love.

I wish all mu tired and sadness will end very quick because I can’t take it anymore. I’m too sad for being me and being fake that I’m happy all the time. I hope my future with be full with lots of beautiful and successful in life and people around me.

I never expected i will write this but this is my story. 24.07.18

[amirafathihah21]

I feel the pain

[amirafathihah21]

365/365 .17 - this is the first time i end my lovely year 1000 miles from my parents. I wish to my parents living a happy life ever after 💞 i love both of you very much and hoping all the best for you dunia akhirat ✨ i miss you I’ll be home soon 🌈

[amirafathihah21]

NYE

Another broken year but this year end with a full of broken hearts that untold. This is how i miss my family a little too much and everything just don’t get into their way. On this 365/365 i wish 2018 gonna be the best year and beyond.

[amirafathihah21]

Attract people with kindness and loyalty 🌈

[amirafathihah21]

i wish i could save all your kisses into a jar. then use it on days when i am sad and you’re away. then use it on days when i am happy and i need a celebratory kiss. then use it on days when i give up and i need you to tell me to keeping moving on. then use it on days when i just miss you. i wish i could save all your kisses in a jar.

struggles of long distance//nikitagupta (via nikitaagupta)

[amirafathihah21]

My love for you is intense

[amirafathihah21]

At this time you always there for me and you are the only one who know how much i love books and never leave the mall without going to the bookstore 📚you always there to see how excited am i with books and you will the one who followed me to choose the book that suits me and my soul ❤️ this is why whenever i went to this place is all i think is you and when you're not there it does not excite me like how you do. I still remember the first time you get into the bookstore and you said to me "everyone pandang i muka gangster masuk popular 😂" and the most i touched about is you said " i will do anything and followed you wherever you go no matter what ppl said about me". I miss you pls comeback 😔🍪

[amirafathihah21]

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Having a though day with all the study time but we managed to meet each other on time !

[amirafathihah21]

Im having such a memorable moment ever with them with all the laughter and scream until our throats hurts is so meaningful 💕 love all of you loads ( zt and shima too ) ✨

[amirafathihah21]

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Couldn't ask much i just need them with me forever because they are the reason why i glow and shine and being the most strong girl ever now ✨

[amirafathihah21]

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I cry of laughter when im with them hahaha incomplete squad but all of them still win the first place in my heart 💋

[amirafathihah21]

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Friends to keep forever ❤️

[amirafathihah21]

I shed a tear ever night because i miss you

[amirafathihah21]

Forgive me if I love you too overwhelmingly, but I gave my heart the reins the moment I met you, and it is always recklessly rushing to you.

palestiniansunset (via wnq-writers)

SAME

[amirafathihah21]

I miss you