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Love Game, AoT Fanfic?

Eren J. x Black Reader

A/N: I’m mostly posting this to see the reaction. If y’all like it I’ll continue. This has been sitting in the drafts for about 2 or 3 months now. Might as well release it to the public! Let me know if y’all like it or not, I’m serious lol.

November 20XX

The air was cold and crisp as half of the men’s basketball team’s freshmen huddled together outside in an empty parking lot. A young man with long brown hair and a slim build was holding back laughter as he witnessed a slightly shorter young man with ginger hair stripping his shirt off. “C’mon Floch hurry it up we’re fucking freezing!” The tallest of the men spoke up. “Let him take his time Bert, this is for 50 bucks and his final paper.” The long haired man explained. Another young man with hair dyed light brown scoffed. “We’re out here because of your dumb ass idea, Eren.” Bertholdt nodded in agreement as Floch slung his boxers past his and Eren’s head. “You’re no fun Jean. What’s life without a little adrenaline?” Floch charged across the parking lot screaming as half of the men cheered him on. “Hell yeah Floch!” Eren yelled, causing Jean to punch him in the shoulder. “We better not get caught, Jaeger. Some of us don’t have daddy’s reputation to back us up.” The brunette rolled his eyes and slapped a heavy hand on Jean’s shoulder. “There’s no way we’re getting caught. Coach Smith has his little boyfriend on the trip with him. He’s busy getting busy, man.” Eren turned to see a stark naked Floch seconds from colliding into him. The men in fact do collide very hard, bringing them both to the ground. “Give me my fucking money Jaeger. And I want my final paper to be about Quantum Physics.” Eren rolled his eyes and slid Floch a fifty dollar bill before shoving him off. “Get dressed and then we’ll talk about your paper.” Bertholdt and Jean quickly dash off as Eren and Floch look on in confusion. Floch suddenly turns his attention to where his clothes once were, only seeing a pair of boxers. “You’re fucking kidding me.”

9 months later, August 20XX

You sat in the library rereading the same paragraph for the fifth time. Your roommate Sasha was loudly munching on a bag of chips. The sound almost bounced off of the walls of the shared study room. “Sasha could you please shut the fuck up?” Your mutual friend Connie was glaring at her from across the table. “If you ask nicely then maybe.” She took another obnoxiously loud bite of her chips. “Sasha I will spit in that bag and throw it away.” You closed your book with a soft snap of the pages. “Maybe I’m into that.” Sasha shrugged. Before she could reach into the bag again the door opened and a large hand scooped the bag up before crushing it. “I can see that you all are arguing over chips from outside. I’ll buy you more after we leave Sasha.” Your childhood friend Jean walked in and plopped into the seat next to yours. “Did I miss much?” He asked as he emptied his book bag. “No, you didn’t. It’s been an ASMR session for the past fifteen minutes.” Connie opened his laptop and shoved it towards Jean. “I’ve been waiting for you anyway. Solve for X.” Jean rolled his eyes before taking the laptop. “Whatever.” He took his wallet out and handed it to you. “I’ll pay for your drink if you get me a black coffee. Please and thank you.” Jean flashed a big grin as you hesitantly grabbed his wallet. “I’m getting whatever I want and it’s large.” You happily walked out of the study room and went to the elevator. You noticed a long haired man about the same height as Jean, a shorter blonde man and a woman with short black hair. You recognize the taller boy as Jean’s teammate, Eren. The other two were new faces.

The elevator ride down was quiet. The three of them kept to themselves and got off at the coffee shop too. You approached the barista, your classmate Christa. Her bright smile brought a sense of comfort to you as usual. “Are you ordering for yourself or Jean too?” She asked. “It’s actually on his dime.” You quickly flashed the small black wallet before taking the card out. You placed the order, a single black coffee and your favorite drink, and went to wait by the pick up area. A loud shout is heard from behind you, coming from Jean’s other teammate Floch. He and Eren were greeting each other… from other sides of the small cafe. Christa brought out the drinks and carefully handed them to you. “Please be careful. They’re hot.” You nodded reassuringly, “Careful is the only thing I know with this. I’ll see you tomorrow okay?” Christa waved as you walked away. Her face went from happy to shocked as the scene started to unfold in front of her.

Eren sprinted from his table with Mikasa and Armin to greet his teammate. He probably should’ve paid attention to his surroundings, but he never was the type to think first. He opened his arms to wrap them around his friend in an embrace, but suddenly felt something- no… someone get caught in his wide arms. He stopped dead in his tracks after hearing a crash and loud scream from the ground. You were covered in steaming coffee, cursing him loudly. Eren honestly hasn’t heard some of the words you used combined in such a… creative manner. “I’m… so sorry. I wasn’t paying attention-“ he started. “Obviously! Get out of my fucking way.” You shoved him out of the way and escaped to the bathroom.” Floch made his way over, holding back laughter. “Wow…” he said, “I don’t think that could’ve gone any worse.” Eren punched Floch in his shoulder as a response. “Don’t get mad at me. I’m not the one who gave a girl third degree burns.”

Jean came out of the elevator and stopped when he saw Eren and Floch still standing outside of the bathroom you scurried into. “What the hell happened? I got a text saying that you two almost gave her severe burns?” Eren’s shoulders dropped and before he could explain, Floch spoke up. “You know how we get. I riled this idiot up and your lady got caught in the crossfire.” Jean shot an annoyed at Floch, then Eren. “I said I was sorry and she told me to get the fuck out of her way!” A voice came from inside the bathroom, “I still want you far away from me! Get the fuck back!” Floch grabbed Eren’s hoodie, dragging him back to their table where a very confused Mikasa and Armin are still seated. “We’ll see you at practice tomorrow, horse face.”

Eren sat down, still in disbelief. “Dude I didn’t burn her did I? That’s a hospital bill. My dad won’t pay if I get fucking sued.” Armin spoke up, “I saw the whole thing happen. Most of the coffee landed next to her. You’re lucky she just wanted you to get away from her. I saw her punch a guy in the face last year at a party.” Mikasa simply shook her head in disappointment. “You could’ve just looked where you were going.” Eren buried his head in his hands. “Whatever, it’s happened now.” Armin and Mikasa gathered their things. “We’re heading to our class. See you tonight.” Armin said and the two were off. Eren peeked between his fingers, noticing Floch and his shit eating grin. “What? This is partly your fault too!” Floch took out his wallet and slid a hundred dollars out. “I have a deal for you Jaeger.” “Hell no man, fuck you.” Eren said flatly. “I’ll give you a hundred dollars. And you can come with me to my parents’ cabin in the mountains. You. Me. And whoever we invite during winter break.” Eren paused. “What’s the catch?” Floch glanced toward Jean and yourself, who just emerged from the restroom. “Convince that demon woman that she’s the one you want to bring to the cabin. You don’t actually have to follow through. You can bring someone else in the end,” Eren looked back at her, then at Floch. “You’re a dumbass Floch. I’m in. Maybe Pieck from Chemistry likes the mountains.” They shook hands and Floch rose to leave. “I'll give you until December. Maybe she’ll want to talk to you again in the meantime.” Eren crossed his arms, thinking about this situation. “Wait… how the hell am I supposed to get her to talk to me?” “Figure it out, that ‘Jaeger charm’ just might work for once.”

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THE GAME | eren x reader, connie x reader, jean x reader, armin x reader, reiner x reader

Summary: what are you supposed to do when your boyfriend promised his teammates that they could have some fun if they win the championship?

18+, (minors/ageless or blank blogs dni or instant block!) WARNINGS/TAGS INCLUDE: black coded reader, 69, oral, nipple sucking, cum eating, 6some (???), male masturbation, squirting, breeding, dirty talk, nipple play, kissing, handjobs, titjobs, fingering, humping/dry humping, choking, facefucking, pussy spanking, finger sucking, pet names, praise, degradation, hair pulling, teabagging, overstimulation, ball stimulation, snowballing

A/N: @kanekisfavoritegf said jock eren so i wanted everyone to tag team 😩🤝🏾 and this took me months but finally finished. since my birthday was this week, this is my birthday present to you guys. xoxo.

tagging: @nneedynymph @minniecums @gardenof-venus @spliffymae @kazushawty

The final seconds had your heart pounding. Tied and neck to neck the entire game had you almost nauseated. Eren had promised a surprise for you when they won, so sitting there the entire night and biting your nails was all that you could do. 

So the touchdown had you jumping up from your seat and running into the field. It wasn’t a surprise but you couldn’t contain yourself. He always kept up with his promises but this one was different, you could feel it. 

“Baby!” You shouted and with his helmet barely off he did a lopsided grin and ushered you his way, picking you up with ease. “Oh my gosh, your plays were brilliant! I knew you’d do it.”

He smiled and wiped some of the sweat off of his face before he huffed, “I did it all for you. Couldn’t have embarrassed you now could I?” He winked, putting you down and entwining your fingers together. 

“Yeah, of course. We’re gonna celebrate the win now, huh?” He raised his eyebrows a bit before he blinked a few times.

“Uh yeah baby. I just need to talk to you about a few things, okay?” You watched his teammates walking back into the locker room, all of them excited and even giving Eren some thumb-up’s you noticed. 

“Mhm.” You folded your arms against your chest. “This tells me I’m gonna be pissed.”

“No, no, no…” He scratched the back of his neck. “Well…” He sucked in his teeth. “Just bare with me. Listen okay?”

So you did. You listened to this surprise he planned for you and the promise he planned for his teammates.

“Are you insane?” Was the only thing that left your mouth. You wanted to slap him. But you couldn’t lie, it had you feeling a way… a jolting joy pulsing between your legs. The way he was describing everything had you sweating. 

“It was dumb of me. I know, baby. I just… Remember we talked about this ages ago? Me watching some guys take you and how sexy that’d be?”

You both had talked about it. It was a mutual fantasy but to actually engage in it? You gulped, “I…”

“It’ll just be a one time thing. I promise, you know unless…” He trailed off, a hopefulness in his eyes. 

“You owe me big time, I hope you know that.” You grumbled as you walked towards the locker room with him hot on your heels. 

It was steamy hot and covered in a white sheet of fog as you walked through, Eren’s hand in yours. 

“Eren, yooo!” Called Connie before you finally were able to see him. His tanned skin wet and his slim body had your throat dry. “Ah shit, we doing this right now?” His towel fell to the floor and he grinned at you, his thick cock standing and instantly catching your attention. Dark and thick, enough hair covered around him and his balls bulging. 

You felt hot but you bit back a groan, noticing the rest of the few boys circling around you and Eren. 

It was overwhelming. These were your boyfriend’s friends… his teammates. They knew you and now…

Now, Eren was pulling your shirt down. Your brown nipples are already hard as you look at the boys over. He kisses your neck a few times as his teammates' eyes wander, a few of them staring at your breast, but they are hard to ignore. 

Big perky brown boobs, Eren always seemed fascinated by them, using any excuse to grab and squeeze them. Just like he was doing now, tweaking at your nipples with the rough pads of his fingers.

Until you looked down and realized that it wasn’t Eren. It was Jean, who in a swift second had your legs buckling with just his fingers before he finally put one in his mouth. 

Eren’s comforting warmth left you and an unfamiliar big strong chest welcomed you. You knew who it was before you peeked behind you, Reiner. His strong body was easy to recognize just against your back you could feel every ridge and every ab that he possessed. You gulped when his rough hands trailed up and down your back before he kissed the nape of your neck with cold lips, you shivered. 

The sensation of two men against your body making you groan. Reiner’s fingers gripped the front of your neck while he whispered in your ear, “You see how he’s looking at you? That’s how I’ve always looked at you… always wondered how you look under the clothes…” 

Eren’s eyes were envious and his cock hard in his uniform. Reiner’s voice drowned out as you stared at your boyfriend, his eyes staring deep into yours until your eyes watered and you were overwhelmed on the pleasure — feeling Jean’s mouth on one of your breast, his tongue swirling on the bud before pressing small kisses around your areola, meeting your intense gaze. 

As Jean sucked on your left breast and played with the right one. Timid Armin approached with shaky hands and ducked, pulling down your leggings along with your panties.

Moisture was leaking between your thighs and Eren couldn’t help but to speak up, “Fucking slut, huh? You were acting all crazy about what I said but you’re loving it. So fucking wet… never even got that wet for me.” He slipped his hand in his uniformed pants and continued to watch you. His cock only half out as he stroked himself before he told Armin: “Eat her pussy. Eat it all messy. I wanna hear it.”

Armin gulped but nodded. His breath hot before he spread your flesh a bit and sucked on your swollen clit. Wetness gathering at his chin easily, “Oh fuck.” He used his fingers to massage your insides at the same time Reiner finally kissed you full on your mouth and Jean pinched both of your nipples. You gasped, trembling and Reiner shoved his tongue in your mouth. Sucking everywhere and swirling around in your mouth, drool pooled out the corner of your mouth and you felt as if you were going to faint.

Armin held your legs firm, keeping you still as his tongue dug deeper into your pussy. “How’s it taste Armin?” Eren purred, slowly closer to you. 

“Fucking,” He slurped. “Fucking delicious.” His tongue circled your clit and you could feel him smiling against your thighs. “She’s so fucking wet.” Slowly blowing air on your clit, he smiled wider when he saw you twitching. 

You almost forgot about Connie until you felt him kissing the other side of your neck, “Couldn’t let you forget I was here, right doll?” You felt him grinding on you, his leaky wet cock against your bare thigh made your eyes flutter. 

“Please… I—“ You groaned, you were enjoying this too much. Every bit of you is stimulated and being sucked or played with. Your eyes rolled back. 

Connie smiled before he circled your lips with his fingers. “I think this pretty baby just needs something to suck on.” Your mouth slowly opened and he slipped his two fingers inside. Massaging the pink wet muscle as you sucked with your eyes closed.

“Fuck, keep doing that… making her wet and so fucking tight. She likes it.” You heard Armin mutter, slipping his fingers in and out of your sloppy wet cunt as Connie’s finger pumped in and out of your mouth. 

Jean kissing and sucking your breast, fingers rubbing at the other one and Reiner with his strong hand around your neck and his boner against your ass, he whispered in your ear again.

“You’re such a bad girl… doing all this in front of your boyfriend. Getting this little body played with in front of him… about to get it fucked right in front of him. You like that?” He squeezed at your throat and you moaned aloud.

“Keep talking to her,” Armin hummed. “You’re getting her so soaked.” 

“Oh… you like my voice baby? You like when I talk to you, hm?” Your body felt hotter. “We’re gonna take care of you…gonna make you feel really good okay?”

“O-ooh…Okay. Okay.” Armin plunged three fingers deep inside, turning and stretching them inside of you. 

“I need her to suck my fucking dick. I can’t take it anymore.” Connie groaned. 

Seconds upon seconds and the heat from everyone’s touch disappeared and you almost cried, tears already in your eyes. “Shhh.” Jean rubbed the sides of your stomach. “Just trying to make you more comfortable, okay?” 

You listened and allowed him to move your body as he pleased. Laying you down on one of the benches and spreading your legs. “Fuck… such a pretty pussy.” He spread your lips, dragging a finger down your wet heat.

“Now baby,” Connie said to you from above. You couldn’t see him, just the blurriness of his cock that was so close to your face. “Open wide.” 

You gulped and invited him inside. His cock twitching just from your breath. He felt you swallow around him and he took his lip between his teeth. “Oh fuck.”

“She’s got a good mouth on her, huh?” Eren said as Connie slid in deeper before pulling some out, just to repeat it again. Eren’s cock still hard as he pumped himself, clearly edging. 

“Fuck yeahh!” He huffed, feeling you swirl your tongue all over his veiny cock. Moving your hands from your side, to cup his balls. 

Connie grabbed the sides of your face and put his cock in so deep, that his pelvis was the only thing in your line of vision. It didn’t stop you from squeezing his balls again. 

You felt your other hand move and wrap around a slippery wet cock and while Connie pounded at your throat, you heard Armin groan. 

Moving your hand up and down, hearing the echoes of wet noises and soft moans, you felt yourself getting ever more drenched.

Moaning around Connie’s cock, you scraped the sides with your teeth a bit and he moaned even louder, liking it. You smiled to yourself and kept going. 

Armin spit on your already wet cunt and messily shook his head, watching it drip before he slurped it back up in an instant. Pulling your flesh with his teeth, he sucked a fold in and rubbed circled motions up and down your clit. Your legs were shaking but you just continued to lick and slobber all over Connie’s thick length. Your pussy throbbing as your hips jerked away from Armin’s hungry lips. 

“Stay still,” He mutters, but you're just so sensitive that you can’t, almost kicking him away. His tongue is brutal and heavy as he sucks and slurps his way down, your feet curl when he gives you another long suck, a moan deep in his throat and you feel it all throughout your body. You can barely focus on him, your mouth sucking Connie in and your eyes on your sexy boyfriend, in the corner.

“Ah, don’t focus on him. This isn’t about him…” Reiner’s alluring voice comes again and your eyes are on his. His mouth blowing cool air on your perky nipples. “You’ve been slacking on Jean, keep moving your hand for him baby,” Gulping around Connie, you listen and as you stroke his cock, never taking your eyes off Reiner’s, who’s sucking on your tits like he expects milk to come out. You can hear Eren moaning in the background and for a split second you look over to him and meet his eyes, lusty and dark before a hard jolt rings throughout your body. An echo of wetness and a slick slap on your cunt and you flinch, popping Connie out of your mouth to look at Armin.

But it wasn’t Armin’s hand, it was Reiner’s. 

“Didn’t I say not to focus on him?” He grabs your jaw and forces you to look his way. “Don’t be a bad girl. You’ve been such a good girl all this time, listening to me. Don’t mess that up.” Your body shivers and it's hard not to look over at Eren, but the intense look in Reiner’s eyes lets you know he means business. Moving his hand down from your jaw, he trails it down to your neck and gives it a small squeeze, looking you deep in your eyes. His other hand grazing your cunt, ready for you to disobey him. “Just what am I going to do with you, hm?” 

He kisses you, your mouth full of precum and spit, but he doesn't care how dirty it is. Your eyes roll into the back of your skull and you're gasping, as he kisses you so roughly. His tongue curling into yours and licking every piece of you. You hear Armin whispering about how soaked you’re getting and Connie jerking himself a bit loudly in your face, Jean mutters a small fuck at how youre gripping him so tightly now. The kiss only deepens and you're both sucking on each other, swirling your tongues together and his hands pulling at your nipples, gripping and twisting them. He pulls back and watches as some spit disconnects from your mouths. “Been wanting to do that for a while.”

“Oh, fuck.” Eren moans, his hips jerking and cumming shooting out of his achy cock. But even with the cum leaking, he continues to jerk himself. Connie, uses this time to grip you hair and pull you back down so that you’re lying on your back and rub his cock all over your face. 

“C’mon, mama, welcome me back into that throat. Ohhh, just like that. Just need to come, right here. Probably can get you pregnant just like this, hm?” He jokes, pushing himself back inside with a sway of his hips. His pace is even more brutal, probably from feeling neglected.

Jean removes your hand from him and rubs his aching cock onto your breast, while Reiner sucks on the other one, his eyes shut. Armin, slurps up the bits of your slick up before he sits up – sitting on top of you and pressing the weight of his cock against your cunt. “Oh fuck, never been this hard in my life.” He’s aching as he slips his cock out. He's sliding his cock between your wet folds, your body completely over-stimulated. “You’ve always been so nice to me. Now, I’m gonna show you, just…just how much I appreciated you.”

Slipping inside of your wet heat, he groans. “Oh fuck.” He stills, feeling you clamp down on him, his hips flush against yours. Your body is completely filled. Connie eases his cock out of your mouth, your lips wet before you lick them again, he groans and slips it in and out at the tip, your tongue lapping at his wet tip a few times. Slipping his cock out completely, he dips his ball into your mouth and you suck, “That’s nice… such a good girl–Ah! Your tight fucking mouth…” Dipping his full balls in and out of your mouth before putting his cock back into your mouth. Your hand squeezing and massaging his heavy balls as you continue with sucking and choking on his cock, you could feel his cock all the way in the back of your throat. Jerking his hips into your mouth quickly, so close. “Oh baby, you like that?” Breathlessly, your eyes roll back again as you suck deeper. “Oh shit, I’m gonna fucking c-cum.” His legs shake and he grips your throat as he pounds inside before he stills, cum leaking down your mouth, but you keep swallowing.

Armin’s groaning against your stomach as he ruts inside of you, sloppy as you milk his cock. “Swirl your hips just a bit, that’s just how she likes it.” So he does, and you can fill every thrust he gives you. “See how wet she gets?” Eren rubs at your clit, watching your cunt suck in more of Armin. Fucking his cock into you so slowly as you both moan.

“Isn’t she so pretty like this, boys?” It’s the first time in a while you heard your boyfriend’s voice and your eyes are fluttering as you smile. Reiner opens your mouth and your tongue slips out, to which he sucks on. Swirling his tongue against your cum covered tongue.

“Very Pretty.” Jean says, his voice strained. His cock throbbing, rubbing his cock up and down your body. Armin’s eyes watching his cock slipping in and out, so much of your cum coats his cock, your legs shaking as you grind your hips against his.

“I think she needs something in her mouth again, Jean…” Reiner taps his shoulder. When Jean finally sinks into your mouth, Armin feels you tighten around him even more and he truly fucks into you, his hips hard as he pounds into your soppy cunt, moaning and groaning. Pulling himself in and out as you whine against Jean’s cock. Armin pulls your legs up so that they’re closer to your face, your hands on his shoulder while your eyes grow spotty, the tip of his cock hitting all the right places. Gooey and wet sounds as you both throb, your pussy still squeezes him all over before he finally cums inside of you.

You swallow and bob your head against Jean. “Her throat feels so fucking good. Connie, how did you last so fucking long, I’m gonna fucking– cum!” His cock pulses inside of your throat, his warm release coming down your throat.

Everyone steps back and admires the sight of you, naked and cum leaking out. "If we win nationals, then I'll fuck you so good, yeah?" Reiner licks up and down your throat as you grow wet again.

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Number One Fan

Pairing: Pro Athlete!Eren Jaeger x Fan!reader

Synopsis: You have always been there to cheer him on, if only he would look at you the same way you look at him.  But who are you compared to the all too perfect Mikasa?

Warning: Giving too much x giving too little, angst, unprotected sex, pregnancy scare.

Word Count: 5496

The crowd roared the moment his crimson volleyball shoes stepped into the court.  Eren Jaeger flashes a blinding smile at nobody in particular, aware that somebody’s camera was focused on him no matter where he looked.

“Go Eren!”

His grin grew wider, hearing the familiar voice and after turning to his right, there he sees you, all pretty in your pastel blue dress.  All dolled up for him, just like how you always did since he was still in college, when he was two years your senior.

He sent you a wink before jogging to his team. He did not need to look back to see you clutching your chest, face warmed, all flushed after such effortless deed by him.

Eren did not have much intentions behind the act. Some of his fans liked you and shipped you two together.  He could not care less what that was but it was good publicity so he did not see any harm in fanning the flames every now and then.

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I had a lil FNF (Let’s Go) moment otw back from work and I just felt in my spirit that Connie Spinger would act a whole ass fool to this song. Ain’t even gonna a nigga that cheated on him, just vibing.

He’d definitely try to hop out the car at a red light to twerk on them headlights. Shout out to Eren and Jean embarrassed to be in the car with this mf.

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This is great I’d love to be added to the taglist!

I Know the End | Ch. 2

Zombie Apocalypse!Au, Older!Grumpy!Eren x Sunshine!Reader

Content: Reluctant traveling companions to lovers, Slight age gap, found family, eventual smut so Minors - DO NOT INTERACT.

Chapter Summary: As the night continues, everyone gets to know each other just a little bit more. 

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A/N: omg chapter 2 is here!!! idk if I’m going to be able to keep up with a weekly release so don’t get too comfortable hehehehe, but i had this chapter all ready to go so i thought, why not post it! I hope you enjoy!! I want to thank the beautiful wonderful fantastic @emepe​ for beta reading this (as she does for literally everything i write) she is a genius so if you haven’t already please check out her wonderful blog :)))

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Vacation!!!!

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A Monster Like Me (Reiner x Reader)

This is my first little story on here! This is a scenario my OC is in but imma make it inclusive. Black coded reader. Enjoy!

Notes: Reader and Reiner had a relationship before time skip, reader had a son just before time skip (w/Reiner), set in canon AOT, this isn’t edited fr, rambly even.

The forest was quiet. The only sound came from the bubbling pot of stew Hange was making. Yelena was next to you, quietly appreciating the havoc she created. In front of you, Gabi was hugging her knees to her chest, still shaken from the fight Jean and Reiner had an hour earlier. The result of which caused her to be shoved to the ground by Jean. The pout on her face reminded you of the one your son had whenever he was thinking or hurt. Reiner was on the other side of the fire, quietly accepting his punishment. You slowly brought your nearly empty bowl to your mouth to sip the cold broth that was left over.

“You’ve been looking at them a lot, you know,” Yelena’s taunting voice started. “Don’t you think you’ve done enough talking?” You warned. “Not nearly enough,” her lips curled into a cunning smirk, “I think it’s sweet that your motherly instinct is so strong is all.” She barely spoke above a whisper, glancing at Reiner’s still figure, then back to Gabi. “She must remind you of your little boy.” Gabi glanced back at the two of you. “You have a son? But you’re so young,” she said. You kept your lips pursed and gave a short nod, careful not to speak too loudly. “I do. His name is Matthieu. He’s almost four. I was seventeen when I had him.” Gabi looked around the campfire at all of the people either stirring the fire or sleeping. “I met a little boy named Matt when I was with Mr. and Mrs. Braus. Is that the same kid?” You gave another nod in response. “He’s with them until things are safe behind the walls again.” Yelena shook her head, speaking louder this time. “A mothers love knows no bounds. Maybe once all of this is over he can finally meet his father too.”

A loud smack echoed through the forest. You stood, eyes burning into Yelena’s laughing face. “I must’ve struck a nerve?” You hear Connie call your name, telling you to calm down. All you felt was seething anger. “Don’t talk about my son or his father, bitch.” You spat. “You’re right… he doesn’t even know the boy exists,” Yelena caressed her check, red from where you slapped her. “I should keep my mouth shut.” You pulled your arm back and felt someone grab it, roughly. You looked back and saw Reiner, a mix of panic, confusion and sorrow on his face.

There was a time where you and Reiner were inseparable. You shared secrets, snuck off together, and talked every single day. At some point the two of you consummated the relationship. Then he outed himself as part of the reason you and your friends' lives changed for the worse. He lied. He betrayed you all. And he left a piece of himself with you. All of your friends pitched in to help raise your son. They loved him dearly and agreed to keep his father’s identity a secret. You never thought he’d need to know until you saw Reiner for the first time in years earlier in the day.

Reiner’s eyes were downcast. He couldn’t look you in the eye after all these years. He felt sick to his stomach and couldn’t find any words. The two of you were silent. You eventually slid your arm out of his loosening grasp. He spoke your name for the first time in what felt like forever. Then he followed it with the one question you’ve been dreading. “Who… who is your son’s father?” Your silence gave him the answer he needed. His breaths got caught in his throat as he sank to his knees. You reluctantly knelt beside him and placed a hand on his trembling frame.

A few hours went by until Reiner could finally speak. The fire had turned into a few dancing embers. The forest was nearly pitch black and completely quiet. Finally, with his voice barely above a whisper he asked, “What does he look like?” You reached into your coat pocket and pulled out the only picture you owned. Matthieu was reaching out to you with a smile on his face. His light brown curly hair and brown skin were lost in the black and white picture. “He’s bigger than this now. He’s smart and helps around the house.” You glanced at Reiner with a solemn smile. “He looks more and more like you every day. It’s getting hard to ignore that.” He took a long look at the boy’s picture and buried his head back in his hands. “I can’t be the father to such a bright kid. He shouldn’t come from a monster like me.” You grabbed one of his hands and held it in yours, with Matthieu’s picture in between. “I hated you Reiner.” You finally said, letting go of his hand and leaving the picture in his palm. “For years I hated you so much. I still kind of do. But when I look at that boy all I see is you. And when I look at you all I see is him.” His mind continued to swirl. First he was admitting to being responsible for Marco's death. Now he’s being told about a four year old son he couldn’t have known about. It’s too many emotions. Too much to atone for. He began to sob. “I’m so sorry. This shouldn’t have happened. I fucked up a lot. This is something else I can’t forgive myself for.”

“You should meet him.” You said. “I don’t know if what you told me about your relationship with your father is true or not. It seems like it is.” You took the picture out of his hand and placed it back into your coat pocket. A look of terror spread from his wide eyes to his gaping mouth. “I can’t. He shouldn’t be around me. I’d be a stranger.” You knew better. “What’s the real reason you don’t want to see him?” Reiner’s quiet hics and sniffles filled the quiet space for a while before he spoke your name for the second time that night. “It would break my heart to leave him. I don’t want the boy to think that I wouldn’t want him. I couldn’t live with myself.” His admission was shocking, but not surprising. He was always sensitive about certain things, family being one of them. “Then fight to see him. He is just as much yours as he is mine.” You said plainly, reaching up to wipe a tear from his face. “He’d love to meet you. And I don’t think you’d hurt him. Don’t think that this is me forgiving you, but you have a right to meet your son.”

You laid back onto the forest floor, a yawn escaping your lips. “We’ll talk about this a bit more seriously later on. I think we’re both at our wits end.” Reiner laid back next to you, silently agreeing. “After all these years,” he started, “I kept you in my heart. I don’t know if it’s love, but I still care about you.” You turned and saw his hardened face. He’d grown so much. His plump cheeks were replaced with high cheekbones. Stubble started to decorate his face. His eyes were filled with a constant sadness. “I still care about you too. I thought about you every day.” You rolled over and placed your head on his chest. He wrapped an arm around your waist. It was like an instinct. Both of you knew that this wasn’t a continuation of the past. But it was comforting being together like this for the first time in years.

Let me know what y’all think. I haven’t written in years, so I hope y’all like it.