amphetifreak

[amphetifreak]

i need 90 dollars for my internet bill by january 24th. after that, i'm fucked. i need my internet for my job search. anything helps.

i'm also taking emergency commissions. 5 dollars for a lineart pfp, 10 for colored, 15 for colored with sketch.

reblogs help too.

0/90

[amphetifreak]

are you ever gonna bring these blogs back?!??!?!?!?!?

no.

i've long since left the entire mouthwashing fandom itself due to how uncomfortable i was interacting with people inside the fandom.

daniel and sean are no longer ocs for this fandom, and never will be again.

it was fun, but less - so when everything revolved around sex. i wanted to do things with these characters that involved more than how they acted in bed.

sorry.

[amphetifreak]

also, as an anya, in my personal experience, i cannot physically deal w jimmy in like any mental or physical capacity (severe source trauma)

so for my own health i'm just going to. never touch the game again. the game, or the fandom.

most of you in it are lovely people, i just.. i can't do it anymore

[amphetifreak]

but you weren’t you in a discord with these people? why not reach out to em?

♤i don't remember their @'s, silly!

[amphetifreak]

you know, its better to apologize without anonymity. I understand owning up to your actions is hard, but you shouldn't do it anonymously.

♤nonono i didn't mean. like

♤apologizing entirely anonymously.

♤i meant, that tumblr is a safe space. it's more shrouded in mystery than my discord, yannow?

♤so, if things go tits up, they can't find out my most seansitive informatione

[amphetifreak]

Hey, bestie

Personally, I think an apology would be well received. It won't fix what's been done but it's a good thing to do.

Being off meds and having a spiraling meltdown isn't an excuse but an explanation. That shit sucks and it can be really hard.

Just know that no one had any ill will towards you. People just don't like being called pieces of shit for an issue they hadn't known existed.

Anyway, all this to say you don't deserve hate in your inbox. It's not right. You didn't dox anyone. You didn't name drop or even say the name of the server. So I'll give you points for that.

Anyway, make sure to take care of yourself and don't worry about what faceless people on the internet have to say, including me.

♤yeah, i know.

♤thank you. /gen

[amphetifreak]

why can’t you reach out of tumblr :0?

♤tumblr, in a way, gives me a certain level of anonymity?

[amphetifreak]

Can’t u dm people on tumblr? U know their blogs??? apologies are best to be made even if people reject em etcera

♤i understand that!!!

♤but i don't know them.

♤never have.

[amphetifreak]

WELCOME BACK MOD 🎉🎉🎉

Hater anon is fucking stupid and only speaks for themself, I may not know what all went down but I know that you want to be better and that’s all that matters!

♤WARGH-

♤waah, thamk you..!

[amphetifreak]

♤like i will genuinely reach out to whoever i can reach and apologize for how i acted. i just don't know if people want to hear from me at all, you know?

♤stuck between a rock and a hard place lol

[amphetifreak]

have you apologised to people :0? If so then idk why people are attacking u still??

♤i've attempted to, yes!! i haven't had much success yet unfortunately (can't reach out outside of tumblr)

♤but like. idk

♤think people just don't like me and tbh idrc idk

[amphetifreak]

♤it's like they want me to abandon this blog entirely 💀

♤like my brothers and sisters and siblings in christ it is not that serious i was off my fucking medications and having a meltdown

[amphetifreak]

eh.

its just. how it is

Little brother? Are you awake..? -☆

unfortunately

i love lola but holy crap she is so loud

[amphetifreak]

Fuck off.

Nobody fucking wants you here, stop fishing for interactions.

♤literally only gonna answer this one to make a point but

♤a) not fishing for interactions i can post whatever i want

♤b) it's my blog. i can post whatever i want

♤c) dawg stop being mean

[amphetifreak]

it's been. a while

i've been so tired with breastfeeding lola when the midwife isn't helping me bottlefeed and i'm jhst

so exhausted

Little brother? Are you awake..? -☆

unfortunately

i love lola but holy crap she is so loud

[amphetifreak]

Little brother? Are you awake..? -☆

unfortunately

i love lola but holy crap she is so loud

[amphetifreak]

♤y'know i think i've pretty much ruined my reputation with anyone, and that's.. fine, actually

♤i'm not about to throw myself some kind of pity party where i go "boo hoo poor me" because i fucked up

♤like, genuinely, i KNOW i said some awful shit and acted completely rancid and that doesn't deserve anyone's forgiveness

♤i'd just like whomever is reading this to know that whatever brief relationship we had was treasured to me, just like how you'll forever be treasured in my heart. ♡