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On This Season

This season is dedicated to hard work. "Did you think this would be easy" is something I keep being reminded of. I have to earn my softness, work through the mud to reach the gold. There are certain themes I keep seeing and I always feel like that's how God speaks to me. I could run away from something to the best of my abilities but when He wants me to learn something, He keeps it in my face. A few themes of late:

Wisdom

"It's one thing to pray for wealth, but the wisdom to maintain it is even more important". I don't know if it has anything to do with me growing older but I desire wisdom more and more each day. I realize how much I need it to navigate this rollercoaster we call life. And the Bible is so clear that all we need to do is ask for it, it's readily available. Ask and He will give, seek and you will find. He is kind and gracious and provides wisdom as an alternative to our foolish mistakes.

If I want to be a good friend, a good wife, a good entrepreneur, a good mum, I need wisdom more than anything. I want it to be evident in my speech, in my actions and in my appearance. I envision it like honey, dripping down.

Random revelation on the power of negative self talk, positive and kind words to ourselves also provide healing to both the soul and the body.

2. Pride/Ego

Pride feels so much like a spirit. It affects you and me, it jumps out unprovoked. Like an animal out of a cage. There are so many warnings about pride and its quite alarming how much energy we spend on growing this spirit. My generation is extremely self-centered, and I am no better. We demand more, more attention, more of self. With my career, pride can easily lead to thinking you are way more important than you actually are. Right now I'm on the journey to not letting pride and inflation of self ruin my friendships and relationships. A few verses on pride:

3. Promotion

In light of recent events at my workplace, I keep being reminded that true promotion or elevation comes from God. He has the power to give and to take away and he will deem me worthy when the time comes. I never want to pray for something and mishandle it when its awarded to me. In this period of waiting, I pray God molds my leadership abilities.

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The Great Conviction

Lately God has been convicting me on my words and the importance of minding what I let my mouth utter. I always entertained negative self talk and self deprecating jokes neglecting the effect that they had on my mental health and self esteem. Our words carry so much power, to literally build or destroy. All the self help gurus talk about replacing negative self talk with positive affirmations and only now do I realize how important it is. Ultimately our words frame our reality. So much to learn and unlearn.

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A new beginning.

I used to be innovative, I remember being young and having hopes and dreams. When did I lose that part of me? when I let the words of the world cloud my childlike excitement? From today onwards, I'm awakening that part of me.

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heard you loud and clear

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confident woman, woman of peace, gentle woman, powerful woman, woman of substance

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i can confidently affirm that the best is yet to come

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Arundhati Roy, The End of Imagination

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I’m definitely in a transitional point in my life. So many changes, all for the better.

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I'm going after every goal I've ever dreamed of. I'm going after everything they thought I couldn't have and becoming who they thought I couldn't be.

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The Impostor Syndrome is a Liar:

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

2 Timothy 1:7

In life we are given free will to do and achieve things according to our disposition, discipline, and perseverance. It's our attitude and aptitude what truly determine where and how far we go in life and it's the virtues associated with them that we should find an identity in. Where we come from, what our past looks like, how much wealth we have inherited, who are relatives are, etc. Are not things we can control, and thus they do not define us because we didn't brought them forward through our own doings (past mistakes are important to take accountability for, however we cannot change what happened so pondering on them will not bring you anywhere productive or healthy).

It's important that as you go through life growing as a person that you don't allow the negative inner self to make you question yourself. It's important to quiet that toxic voice that tells you aren't worthy and makes you feel inadequate to receive and embody the great achievements you've been working towards. That voice is a liar, it is not real, but it has been implanted in your subconscious mind through trauma and conditioning from the people around you.

Choosing to turn off the switch to the impostor syndrome chatter means choosing to view yourself as capable of taking space in areas where you used to dream of in the past, creating a persona that closely matches what you've always envisioned your higher self to be, and embodying that persona to its fullest extent unapologetically. That voice in your head has as much power as you choose to give it, so starve it. You are worth it of it all, the best version of yourself is possible and could be real, you just have to have the discipline and consistency that comes with doing the things that will get you closer to manifesting her, but she is real, and she is you, remember that.

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“Those who have not found their true wealth, which is the radiant joy of Being and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth. They are looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfillment, for validation, security, or love, while they have a treasure within that not only includes all those things but is infinitely greater than anything the world can offer.”

Eckhart Tolle

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You don’t even realize how good it’s going to get

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