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me: ok, ill just draw calliope Once, to gwt back into Robot Mode. No Need to Go Crazy

the ps5, speaking to me from inside my brain:

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It's Agender Pride Day, here's some personal art from me

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I was discussing the incident mentioned later in this piece with my wife yesterday and I saw another post by someone earlier doing something mentioned in here and I'm finally going to say something about it.

There is a serious problem in leftist spaces, especially online, especially on Tumblr, when it comes to language.

The way people are expected to speak just to even enter these spaces is incredibly complex, to the point of being outright hostile to those who haven’t already spent time in them. And it’s not just newcomers; people who have important things to say, people speaking from lived experiences, people who don’t have English as a first language but still deserve to be heard, are constantly talked down to or even pushed out entirely for not using the "right" words.

This gets even worse when you factor in how often new terms are coined in English, and then people are shamed for not immediately knowing or using them.

I saw someone reblog their own post saying something like, "I know for a fact more than half of y’all didn’t understand a fucking word I said here."

And honestly? That stuck with me, because yeah, I’ve felt that before. Not because I don’t value critical thinking! because I absolutely do! I just made a post on that too! but because so many of these posts are written in a way that makes them Functionally Inaccessible to anyone who doesn’t already have the right background knowledge. And at a certain point, if you actually want your words to have an impact, if you actually want to create meaningful change, then you’re going to have to accept some things:

People will not always use perfect language.

2. People will not always know the exact terminology you personally prefer they use when engaging in discourse.

3. Dismissing or attacking people for how they say something, instead of engaging with what they’re saying, is actively harmful.

And more than that, if you genuinely want people to understand and engage with the things you’re talking about, especially people who don’t speak English as a first language, especially people without access to higher education, especially people who don’t even know where to begin when it comes to self-education (because yes, that is a skill that has to be taught) then you are going to have to be the one to adjust sometimes. You are going to have to let people say things imperfectly. You are going to have to take a step back and engage with the message rather than just the words being used to express it.

One of the experiences that made me realize that I, as a non-native English speaker, was not welcome in Tumblr leftist spaces was when I spoke about real-life oppression I had experienced. I left one word out of my post, a word which honestly, was not even important when talking about an incident that had Happened To Me, not theory, not hypotheticals or any what-ifs of oppression, a story, a story about something that happened to me.

And because of that, people sat in a Discord server, picking apart my words, accusing me of awful things, and then came into my askbox throwing jargon and buzzwords I’d never even heard before, then got mad at me for being frustrated that this was happening.

Think about that. People who are directly impacted by oppression are being pushed out of spaces meant to discuss it because the way they speak doesn’t conform to certain expectations. That is not justice. That is not solidarity. That is not progress.

There is a fundamental disconnect here between theory and praxis. Ironically so many of you do not know what praxis is, because most of you engage with a lot of theory, and not a lot of praxis, you use the word praxis a lot, but, ironically, you have no idea what it means.

{to put my money where my mouth is, it means Doing Something, in the simplest possible terms}

In theory, leftist spaces should be accessible. They should be places where people can speak openly about their experiences, learn from each other, and work toward meaningful change. But in practice? There’s a gatekeeping of language so intense that many people, particularly those who are marginalized in ways beyond just their political beliefs, are outright excluded.

And this is something I need people to sit with: The assumption that the "right" language is easy to learn, or that anyone who doesn’t use it is being willfully ignorant, is an inherently privileged stance. Knowing where to find information, how to process it, and how to integrate new terminology into your vocabulary is a skill that is largely tied to education. Having the time to engage with leftist literature and theory, to stay up-to-date on every new term that gets introduced, is also a privilege. And the fact that so many people refuse to acknowledge this, that they expect perfect articulation from everyone, regardless of background, and punish those who don’t measure up, is a huge problem.

Worse still, the same people who act as gatekeepers of this language often fail to communicate their ideas in a way that is accessible at all.

This doesn’t mean that complex ideas should never be discussed. It doesn’t mean that people shouldn’t strive for accuracy in their language. But it does mean that if your goal is to educate, if your goal is to spread awareness, if your goal is to help people understand and join the movement, if your goal is to engage with fellow oppressed people, then you have a responsibility to meet people where they are. You have a responsibility to make your language understandable.

Because if people can’t even process what you’re saying, then what’s the fucking point?

And before anyone says, "Well, people should put in the effort to learn!" Let me make something very clear: They do.

People who are new to leftist spaces, or who are coming in from different linguistic and cultural backgrounds, are often trying their best to engage. They are listening, they are learning, they are processing. But if the response to every mistake, every slightly off phrasing, every unfamiliarity with a new term, is immediate hostility,

or even if it's just 'hey I see you're sharing a personal moment, but can you change your language to make me, personally, more comfortable with you discussing your oppression?' then you’re not teaching.

You’re just making sure only the people who already think and speak exactly like you get to stay in the room.

Your language, your terminology, your theory? none of it means anything if you can’t make it accessible to the people who actually need it. And it means nothing if you use it to Exclude rather than Include.

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Tipsy Tonic 🤝 Being a box robot that becomes Supremely Gender 🤝 Mettaton Undertale

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had the bizarre experience of seeing a human Dinobot in a dream and distinctly thinking I'd seen the design somewhere before on Tumblr, but then waking up and being at a loss as to where it came from. Maybe I was thinking of a webcomic ad that had a similar art style??

Have You Seen This Man, If So, Tell Me

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SPG posted something on Patreon the other day that mentioned them working on the comic and like, all I could muster was "I'll believe it when I see it"

Like maybe I'm bitter that I feel so alone in the Lore niche of the fandom but it's been 13 years since I got into this and 9 since there's been any substantial comic updates. I saw people lamenting about not being in the fandom when it was more active a few years ago and I'm just

Like, I recognize that my relationship with this has had some recurring toxic elements. I've put a lot of them to rest, I'm better than I used to be. I still feel isolated and bitter more than I should be allowing myself to get wrapped up into. And I'm kind of scared that I don't know who I'd be without it.

But like, everyone I used to share my stuff with has moved on and I have to beg to get eyes on my work. And that hurts. Because I still want to write fic and do comics and whatever else. I don't need to be a Big Name Fan and be Super Popular but. I want to be appreciated.

Maybe I need a break from Tumblr/the SPG fandom.

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Ah, I had one of my sleep-for-20-hours episodes. I'm more awake now, but, I'm still struggling to want to do anything.

Maybe I will just have to relax today. I will try just listening to some podcasts and not multitasking, then try and get going again tomorrow.

I'm feeling strangely disconnected from who I've been and lost tonight... I had that spike of energy the other day that went nowhere, then crashed, and I haven't bounced back yet. I've been too tired to focus on much but not to the point where I'm sleeping through it. And I've been eating more than usual so I don't think it's a lack of calories.

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Finally updating my comm info preview for 2025 !

Please keep in mind my commissions are quote based! If you tell me what it is you’re looking for, I can give you a quote.

Commission prices START at: Busts: $10 Half Body: $13 Full Body: $18 Stain Glass: $30

Those prices listed are the minimum, all of which are only considered sketches with the exception of the stain glass drawings.

Add ons to the price: Inks: +$10 (this includes lineart as well as up to a 4 color palette or monochrome, additional colors would be extra)

Simple Shades: +$14 (Fast, single color shading, can be cell or soft shaded but will not include highlights)

Detailed Shading: +$17 (More in depth shading with more colors and will include highlights, can be cell or soft shading)

Additional Character costs is completely piece dependent. Here are some examples.    

Each extra full body character would be 75% on top of the base cost (the base cost being how much a single character of that commission would cost)

Halfbody extra characters would be 50% on top of the base cost. (i.e. the commission is for half body or the extra character is only leaning into the scene, behind a counter, etc.)

Far away characters or background characters that require less detail may only be 25% extra.

PLEASE inquire about additional costs for characters as it will always be a case by case basis

BG cost is always based on detail, some types of bgs take me much less time than others.

Stain glass pieces are very different, and the price is completely dependent on size, amount of characters and amount of symbols.

I WILL NOT DRAW

Porn

Incest/Pedophilia

Fetish Art

Genitalia (Nudity is fine but those parts must be covered or not visible)

If a request feels out of my artistic range I will let you know.

If I give a quote for a piece I will NOT lower my price, but I am willing to work with you to change aspects to make it cheaper. (i.e. changing the background, hiding part of a character, doing a limited palette, etc.)

I reserve the right to turn down any commission that makes me uncomfortable for whatever reason.

If you want to purchase a commission or get a quote you can contact me on Tumblr (SibillaScribbles08) or email me at SibillaScribbles@gmail.com.

Payment is always done through paypal invoices.

Commissions generally will not take me more than a week to complete but life happens. I will always inform you if there are delays. Please inform me up front if you have a deadline.

If you want to see more of my work you can browse my art tag!

Thank you for reading!

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I'm feeling strangely disconnected from who I've been and lost tonight... I had that spike of energy the other day that went nowhere, then crashed, and I haven't bounced back yet. I've been too tired to focus on much but not to the point where I'm sleeping through it. And I've been eating more than usual so I don't think it's a lack of calories.

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I'm not sure how many mutuals of my sister, @ifridiot I have also following me, but I want to attempt to let as many of their friends know that they passed away in the evening of January 15th.

I want to thank everyone for their outpouring of love and support for myself and my family. It has meant so much not to be alone through this.

I miss them more than words can describe. The coming days are going to be the hardest, but it'll be easier knowing I have so many loving souls standing by me.

Thank you for loving them, writing with them, sharing your lives. Every little act of love kept them going and they loved you.

Goodbye, Luce. The world will never be the same.

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Mah girl!

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May 2, 2025

Hey y'all. Same old story: I'm disabled, desperately trying to get medical attention and afford bills, two people living off one income, etc. We basically have, after rent and some bills, $20 for the next two weeks.

I am still doing $15 headshots alongside my regularly priced commissions. There's not a whole lot I won't draw, be it mech, furry, gore, NSFW..

Message me if you're interested!

I take PayPal, Cash app, or venmo, all under the name duessa.

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I've got all this nervous energy lately! I'm having a hard time settling on something to do with it all. I've gotta be careful, though; it'd be really easy to over-extend myself and end up crashing when this energy goes away. Maybe this is a hypomanic period?

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My little guys :3c

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i have this mask with three faces that i should utilize more. although i should minimize the screaming it causes

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Commission for @amuseoffirebane of Riker getting startled by something!

[ID: a chibi of an older man, done in monocolour green tones, flinching away from something, mouth open in a yell, arms held up and close to his chest, one leg held up and away from whatever the thing is.]

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I AM SCREECHING AMAZON PRIME/PARAMOUNT+ KEEPS FLASHING THIS SPLIT SECOND CLIP OF A PEPPERONI PIZZA FROM LITTLE CAESAR'S IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS SCENE 😆😭🤣💀