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more caitvi and jayvik package doodles, now offering a cheaper shipping alternative as well!

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glad you all enjoyed auntie maysilee! here's grunkle haymitch

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i think the difference between sotr Haymitch and thg-trilogy Haymitch is so interesting not only because obviously there’s 24 yrs and a whole lot of trauma in between, but also because of the narrative POV:

in mockingjay, when Katniss goes to bombed D12 she says, she only notices that Haymitch’s not there with them when they land in the meadow. She asks Plutarch about it and he says that Haymitch ‘couldn’t face it’.

And Katniss goes:

“Haymitch? Not being able to face something? Wanted a day off, more likely,” Insay.

“I think his actual words were ‘I couldn’t face it without a bottle’,” says Plutarch.

I roll my eyes, long out of patience with my mentor, his weakness for drink, and what he can or can’t confront. But about five minutes after my return to 12, I’m wishing I had a bottle myself.

- p134/5

And I think this demonstrates so well, how our view on Haymitch is vastly different in the original trilogy than it is in sotr.

Because while Katniss has such a connection with Haymitch, that in most situations, especially life-or-death situations they literally know what the other is thinking, she also lacks the understanding of how deep and affecting his trauma is, too.

I thinks it’s funny because it quite literally is what an annoyed kid would think of their parents. ‘Haymitch? Not being able to face something?’ - she literally cannot imagine that there could be something he couldn’t do because it is too emotional for him, too painful, because of course that is a side of him she hasn’t experienced and doesn’t know about.

She only sees how his drinking is affecting his life, she only sees his behavior as her mentor and she’s - rightfully - annoyed about that. But she cannot consider - and this is no critique, think it is rather normal in her situation and the kind of their relationship - that it might be due to how affected he is by everything that is going on around them, too, so she usually pegs it down to him being a difficult person. Which is also true, for both of them though, but not the main reason.

As we now know from sotr. Because here we learn how Haymitch feels things. He feels and cares and loves deeply. Like all-fire. And of course trauma impacts this, but as we see in the epilogue it doesn’t change it completely. It alters his behavior more than the way he feels things. And the alcohol is obviously contributing, too. Which is what Katniss see then.

And it is amazing, because somehow Katniss must still understand this in a way, because she is so clear about the fact that Haymitch loves Peeta and her. She just cannot really process it consciously, which, again, is totally fair given her situation, but it does impact the way Haymitch is written from her POV as opposed to what we know from his POV now.

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when in doubt, harrowhark

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zelink for the soul

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おはよう　皆さん

朝メシ　すんだです？

Good morning everyone, have you had breakfast?

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everytime I remember that lesbian couple that have a marble statue of the two of them embracing and sleeping on a bed together over where their graves will be because the artists didn’t believe they would be able to be married before they died, so what they couldn’t have in life they could have in death, I fucking breakdown

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man this year is gonna be the year i either die or become someone else i dont know which one maybe both

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what if we were the only two kids on the whole planet and we hated each other for deeply psychological reasons but we were also everything to each other

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collecting posts of this type

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caitvi celebrating cny 🧧🫶 (pls don’t judge me I forgor to post it here asjdysddg)

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English :

I've written many little one shots these last two years and I decided I needed physical copies.

I chose a simple japanese binding because i could just fold the pages without dealing with double side printing and since the books where small the extra thickness was in fact quite welcome. These are rather cheap materials found in an ordinary office supply shop I just found fun to work with stuff anyone could use.

I also discovered how fun writing and formating chat fics was ! I can't help to add SMS conversations in my writing now.

This is Dix de retrouvés... I wrote in febuary 2024 for a Valentine mounth event.

Français :

J'ai écrit pas mal de petit one shots ces dernières années. Et je voulais en garder une trace physique.

Je suis partie sur une reliure japonaise toute simple parce que ça m'évitait d'avoir à gérer des recto verso (surtout que je croyais que mon imprimante ne pouvait pas en faire alors que finalement, si !!) Il suffisait de plier les pages en deux. D'ailleurs vu le petit nombre de page avoir un peu plus d'épaisseur était finalement pas plus mal. J'ai utilisé que du matériel trouvé en papeterie ordinaire et en fourniture de bureau, c'était marrant de bosser avec du matériel que tout le monde pourrait se procurer.

D'ailleurs, j'ai aussi découvert que c'était vraiment fun d'écrire et de formater des chat fics, je peux plus m'empêcher d'ajouter des conversation SMS dans mes textes.

Cette fic, c'est Dix de retrouvés... que j'ai écrit en février 2024 pour un évènement st Valentin.