it’s been a long time. a lot of things happened. good and awful. things i thought good but eventually they’re not, and vice versa. and a lot of people come and go. but yea, well, mostly i’m the one who left.
i will write down below all things i learnt (in the hard way) and i hope i can remind myself when i read it again in the future. a reminder that i have to love myself first, and not to be taken for granted by anyone. and also to live in the present. not the past or the future.
1. failure is fine.
2. take your time to grieve.
3. it’s okay to feel not okay.
4. it’s not always because of you. maybe it’s because of them.
5. try not to take things personally.
6. you’re not perfect and it’s normal. you’re a human being.
7. don’t love to hard. disappointment is a total shit.
8. take care of your mental health.
9. too good to be true IS A REAL THING. don’t trust that shit. take care of your heart, your feelings, your sanity.
10. your body is not perfect. but love it unconditionally.
11. expectation LEADS to disappointment. READ. THIS. AGAIN. AND. AGAIN.
really hate the feeling after you just woke up in the middle of the night, dreaming about somebody that used to be special, and then suddenly remembered ALL the painful feelings that happened to your life because of some other person that used to be your best friend.
God always finds a way to make me feel grateful about life..
even though life is suck
even though life is hurting me
even though i want to give up everything.
God has made me unable to feel that i couldn’t do anything.
God makes me feel that I could still be happy about little things.
Like a beautiful sunset everytime I feel down
and like two fireflies that fly around in front of me says i will be okay. eventually.
....What am I supposed to do to make you want me properly?
I'm taking these chances and getting nowhere
And though I'm trying my hardest you go back to her
And I think that I know things may never change
I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say
I make you feel a way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
Then you'd say all of the right things without a clue....