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this past couple of weeks, a bunch of people have... either left my life, been really absent from my life, or desecalated, and it's really hurt

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sorry i haven't been around

I dunno

I haven't been okay

and i only have been getting worse

and im sorry

i... hope you guys haven't forgotten about me

i kinda just feel like a background character

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i cannot cope

i hope you remember me well

i wasn't always this

I'm sorry

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I'm not back. I don't think I'll ever be back.

I'm sorry.

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i cannot cope

i hope you remember me well

i wasn't always this

I'm sorry

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i know.

but i hate that the water has so much power

i almost wish i didn't love so much, care so much, because it hurts so much

with each wave more and more of me is taken out to sea

i feel... forgotten.

this is unsustainable.

i can't keep this up.

but I'm still overflowing with love for everyone in my life and I want to show them that but...

at what point does it get too much

sorry i haven't been around

I dunno

I haven't been okay

and i only have been getting worse

and im sorry

i... hope you guys haven't forgotten about me

i kinda just feel like a background character

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i hope so. i doubt it, but i hope so. I'm just feeling so... lost, and insecure

why am i made so fragile?

like a sandcastle of love, overwhelmed by the sea, waves of unrequited feelings crashing down

i fall in love too easily

i wonder how long before the next wave comes in.

sorry i haven't been around

I dunno

I haven't been okay

and i only have been getting worse

and im sorry

i... hope you guys haven't forgotten about me

i kinda just feel like a background character

[analogue-system]

sorry i haven't been around

I dunno

I haven't been okay

and i only have been getting worse

and im sorry

i... hope you guys haven't forgotten about me

i kinda just feel like a background character

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if this isn't me I don't know what is

and, well, to be honest, I'm usually not just trying to find the controls

i literally stroke the side of my PC idly

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I don't think this is probably the kind of lab shit you want, but here's the guts of my old cyclotron, her name is Tracey.

Omgggg she's so pretty 😍

I mean what lab couldn't be improved with a particle accelerator??

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That last anecdote just 😵‍💫🫠

Men will spend 25% of their day thinking about how they could American sniper their way out of the zombie apocalypse no problem and then they’ll walk into the bathroom and miss the toilet from half a foot away

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this past couple of weeks, a bunch of people have... either left my life, been really absent from my life, or desecalated, and it's really hurt

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But what if eye love granola

Nature valley granola in bed <3

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Eye love granola

Nature valley granola in bed <3

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finally made a little zine from all the photos i took of various wires and machines and pylons and etc

this was sooo fun i need to get it printed

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do you ever enter a new space and just get gripped by the intense fear that someone you used to know is there?

Cause I feel that a lot now and I think that might be trauma, am I traumatised?

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#cat 💯