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So, ya girl got diagnosed with bulimia the other day( not the b/p kind, the binge/restrict kind). Feels like I cant even do Ed properly lol

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Crippling depression will make me a skinny legend

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I have my first ever ED therapy on zoom tomorrow and saying that I’m shiteing me pants is saying nothing 😭

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Series 2.0 of clothes I buy but will never wear. Ignore the tracksuit bottoms ( and the playsuit ended up being too big which means I need UK size 8 not 10 so yayyy)

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Cw: 62kg

Gw: 55kg

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I finally asked for help , but the therapist got caught on the one problem, EDNOS. So I’ve been referred to an eating disorder specialist and now I’m scared they’ll make me fat which is irrational because half the problem is that I restrict and absolutely hate myself, the other half is that I binge like a frigging cow and don’t loose or gain weight

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I’m a sick fucking bastard for using pictures of a friend as thinspii from when she was 12 and very underweight/sick

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Ahh, it’s almost Christmas and we know what that means... sweets from each one of my 60 co-workers. Jokes on y’all I’m vegan and I can’t have them😙✌🏻

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12 hours into my 22 hour fast ( awkward number because I don’t want to eat too close to my bed time). Breaking the fast with lettuce with soy pieces and no sugar vegan yogurt salad (220 cal???) and I’m doing this for the next 5 days just to see what happens lol✌🏻

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Me :* chugs milk of magnesia*

Also me:*on the toilet for the next 2 days*

Why am I like this✨

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Ya girl is so excited to be back. I literally can’t stop dancing and I’m at work lol. I must’ve forgotten how disgusting it is being in this state, but nothing is more disgusting than weight gain so ayyyy

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(Not my photo)

I’m baaccckkk!

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When you resist buying trigger food all day just to get home and binge anyway with food you don't even really like

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I just want to stop this suffering and stop caring about how I look, but I also want to feel weak again and half faint. I want to stop living because I’m out of control. I feel so disgusting. I want to cry, but I hate myself too much to self pitty. Anyone else? No? Just me? Ohohkay then heh...

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Hey y’all! Attest months of “recovering” aka mindless bingeing, I’m back on my bullshize ✨ I want to be skinny again and healthy eating makes me fat , so hello guiz

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everyone keeps saying it gets better but i mean does it really, becuase i don’t see this ending there is no way out of this

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YAALL, I’m back in the 50’s(kg) after ONLY 1 DAY of starting work and going back to my routine of just dinner. I’m so fucking happy. The best is yet to come ✨