anatma

[anatma]

those mannequins really get along

my ideal woman right in front of me her sorrowful eyes shamefully downcast her full lips whisper sweet nothings her body is sculpted of hard plastic i'm in love with everything about you i love you from the bottom of my heart even if you're nothing no more than a doll these feelings are genuine and nobody can erase them you're the most perfect human that i've ever seen

- cese 

[anatma]

Dark

I see to the left and to the right The left is so much brighter More inviting than the right Yet I turn to the right Always the right Because I have no other option I long to turn around and return To those beautiful simple days But I can’t go back anymore So I walk further and further And every day it’s darker and darker This darkness is nothing To the darkness down the path And that darkness is nothing To the darkness even further And knowing that makes it darker Every day I continue to walk forward Sometimes it gets too dark to see So I need to push myself harder Strain my eyes harder Break my own limits every day So I can continue to see the path Some people along the way Tell me I need better eyes I wish I could be sure about that I wish I knew if they lived the same Lived in the darkness that I did Knew the surge that I did Trapped to the fate that I was Then I’d know they were right That I was just too blind to see When everyone else was just fine Where has my sun gone It doesn’t come up anymore No matter how far I search for it Where has the light gone I’m a creature of the dark now But I miss the light So desperately I cry I miss it I relish this pitch black now

-alone

[anatma]

It hurts to be alone. Sometimes it hurts too much and I seek companionship. But throughout the pain, I force myself to remember that being alone is the most pleasant option available to me.

Sabelle

[anatma]

Why am I so good at what I do? Because I'm not distracted by thoughts of death. If you have a reason to fight, you will always be afraid of failing to fulfill that reason. But I don't have that, I live an empty life and go through the motions, waiting for someone to put it all to rest, or for the day I do it myself.

Resoln

[anatma]

echo of pain

i've been told to try and i was told people care i know the world is a big place full of all kinds of strangers

but

my gestures of friendship go unanswered my phone calls go unanswered my silence goes unanswered my cries for help go unanswered

so thats why why i quit i tried to live it doesn't work

- alone

[anatma]

light speed god

we're going supernova all of our thoughts become just one we fly a million miles and then we crash right through the sun we're going supernova our memories have been destroyed nothing can stop us now nothing to know except a void

- euphel

[anatma]

cover for horizons

after years of looking at it i finally took the time i stared deeply into it the way nature thaws a lake and invites life into its water and when i saw what was inside there were so many planes flying over my green hills but my senses are weak i cant see that far into the horizon i cannot see where the planes are going as they leave me behind in these green hills of paradise - cese

[anatma]

like cold hands

it seems like forever ago since i saw you last like the memories i have of you are of a different person now i wonder what kind of world you live in way up there while i sit here waiting for the voices of a distant star ive made new friends and stopped thinking about it mostly not because i wanted to, but because i had no choice so many years ago you left the planet, the solar system, the galaxy i don't know if you'll ever return, if i'll ever hear from you again the years spent waiting for your messages to reach me they've become the only thing i know and now we're two different people living two different lives but as long as i know that you're out there somewhere in the universe i will continue to love you and remember you because from the beginning from the happy innocent days of our childhood it's been only you and even today, i find those memories comforting, albeit empty like the touch of a cold hand 

inspired by voices of a distant star

- alone

[anatma]

a life goodbye

a single drop of rain in its right to fall alone rushes to the ground wants nothing more than to hit the earth to splash and be no more become one with those lost join the water sunk underground never look back

- alone

[anatma]

fear haiku

a distracted soul looks to others for answers it denies plain truth

- alone

[anatma]

cage 16

with my hands on my head i hold hate that won't fade with my vision in red i can see this charade i open their skin to let the life out a sorrowful grin in nothing but doubt

- anatma

[anatma]

overcome

cheer up life's good but the pain doesn't stop misunderstood we'll never reach the top wake up reach out you should escape this place replace all doubt you've got a beautiful face hold on and be conquer this nothingness and soon you'll see the everlastingness

- savior

[anatma]

the flow

static and straight along for the ride crisp and distant across the divide carried by fate a fish in the stream changing the current a useless dream for all the leaves fallen from trees more will grow follow the breeze

- cese

[anatma]

times ive lived

one trillion miles walked one thousand years returned one hundred times i've died too many lessons learned grasping, desperate searching for a light it's not about us it's about what's right we've made a mistake forsaken it all to the hands of those who believe we should fall the future is coming the world is grim there is no perfect it's now sink or swim

- savior

[anatma]

one memory

so gone for so long i cannot remember how it was that for an instant of time i awoke and impaled the world on the blade of suffering

- anatma 

[anatma]

rush!

you'll fly you'll be swift you'll be more than this to dream is a gift you're all that exists i know you'll agree now hold onto me we'll soar through the sea we'll live happily - euphel

[anatma]

the best life

i'm afraid of this waiting we are tired of your hating what is real what is lies will you be satisfied? so much effort just to mend is it worth it in the end? this is war you destroy you give up all your joy so i say from me to you weary life be born anew

- cese