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yall ever have flashbacks for no reason other than It’s Night

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What is System Mapping for DID/OSDD and how can it be done?

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Dissociated states in DID

DID’s a lot easier to explain in pictures, at least for me. See, when you first start learning, you think you’re dealing with something like this:

The inner circles are dissociative parts. Whoever’s holding the star is at the front, in the driver’s seat, running the show.

I like to think that the hosts job is a bit more like this: you’re holding the star, but you’re trying to keep communications open with everybody:

Thing is, it’s called a dissociative disorder for a reason. Being inside the circle represents being present. As a trauma survivor, your brain has learned to send parts outside the circle as a defense mechanism. Parts can be mentally stuck in the past, depersonalized, derealized, “triggered out”, etc, pushing their consciousness away from the present. That’s the world outside the circle.

Even if you feel stable and grounded, connecting to a part that overlaps with the circle can be weird. You can feel their dissociative symptoms but not necessarily understand where it’s coming from, or why.  

If you’re still following along, let’s get real. The idea of such solid boundaries and fixed positions is unrealistic. It makes a good movie plot. 

For me, daily life with DID is a lot more like this:

With a few elements I can’t draw:

From hour to hour (or even minute to minute) the star flows between parts. Those switches can be subtle or noticable, depending on the context. 

Some parts feel like they’re way in the back watching, while others feel like they’re gone. In this scenario, I’m not able to access red’s memories or skills but I do know she exists. 

Parts overlap. “Mixed” is the term my therapist uses.

The circles - all of them - are moving. They yo-yo in and out, or drift around. The overlaps shift too.

I didn’t draw it, but when Nick takes the wheel, his circle tends to squeeze us out by accident. (We’re working on it).

There’s also the case of unknown parts, chilling outside the circle completely:

This might happen to a part due to things like stress or exhaustion. The part still exists and it can be partially or completely unaware of what’s going on. 

This represents a dissociative fugue:

A part outside the circle takes executive control, leaving the others with time loss and amnesia. The inner parts experience this as a complete or partial blackout.

Finally, this is my best guest at “Feeling Swirly”:

It happens in the mornings, under stress, when I’m high, and in therapy. 

Anyway, that’s the model, and I find it pretty flexible. We use it when we’re reflecting on memories, thoughts, and emotions, trying to figure out wtf happened. There are ugly circles all over our journals, and it’s especially helpful in therapy.

How do you folks model your experience of dissociated states? Does this make any sense at all? 

No art critiques please, I was aiming for clear rather than pretty ;)

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You have the right, especially in multiple-specific communities, to talk about your multiplicity and any/all aspects relating to it.

No, that doesn’t always mean you safely can, or that it’s a good idea. But you still have the right to, if you choose to do so. Many singlets talk about their lives– likes, dislikes, hobbies, work, the people they are dating, etc. Multiplicity is part of your life/lives. If you’re part of a system and you want to talk about it, you are allowed to do so. Whether it’s something serious, or whether So And So did something really funny today and you just want to laugh about it, it’s okay. Really.

Yes, discretion is useful, just as it is also useful to non-multiples. We’re not saying to just run out into the street and open up to strangers about this stuff, because that can be dangerous to you. But among friends, on plural-friendly servers, on your OWN BLOG for crying out loud, you are NOT under a gag-order. Talking about this part of your life/lives doesn’t make you an “attention seeker” or “faker”, even if you talk about it a lot. It makes you, gasp, a person with something you want to talk about. Something that might just be important to you.

And that’s not just okay– that’s awesome.

(Remastered from our old blog.)

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GOSH I hadn’t realized just how unused this thing is lately to the point where there’s absolutely no coherent roster or list of what tumblrs we use. Updated our DW one and added the link to the description (also here it is!)

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Are you a failed math class gay, failed English class gay, or failed science class gay

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Feline Comparison: Huge by sindos

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the royal/dissociative we

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when you tell someone you’re a system and they come out as a system too

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Got set loose on a monster girl creator and made away with riley, Silas, Rose, and Tez

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Joëlle Tuerlinckx “1/MUSEUM : 5 pieces selected for Kabinett Nagel Draxler“, 2017 Ausstellungsansicht Nagel Draxler Kabinett, Berlin

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Systems can go through changes, and it’s a normal part of being a system. Members grow old, change roles, change appearance, and can even change fronting habits.

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Realized we need to actually make a roster for this blog again so people actually know what sideblogs are connected to the same physical body, but who knows when thatll be a thing. These are the blogs we use these days

@lalondeproblems - Main blog. Mostly cultivated by Consensus Kit (all Kits, Riley, Tez, Buffy, Kaylee, George) or posts we're arguing over too much to claim for a sideblog

@komaedastuck* - Sideblog for The Kits when they get stressed by the amount of followers on main and to help figure out the Kitbot/JaspRoseKit binary

@idkmyguy* - riley

@sprungled - silas

@paradiggum* -kaylee

@lesbiangeorgeweasley - George (kin with a different fictional George)

@l1z4rd - Tez

@sprycorpse - Buffy

@intolerablepedant -Rose (slee🅱️y) and sometimes things we want her to see

@lilianaofthedankrealms - Blog for Lili to post things herself, and the rest of us to dump things about her and the web of insiders/littles she and Rose seem to be the gateway to

*We're also figuring out someone who's been hiding in plain sight in our front mechanics, who so far we can't actually talk TO productively, and she doesn't like to type. We've been calling her Blanche (shes had a lot of names over the years though) and content to do with her will go here or on these blogs

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• Lime Green Evening Dress.

Designer/Maker: Mainbocher

Date: 1955

Place of origin: France

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[Kitbot.emoji] I’m finally putting the url @komaedastuck to PROPER use because our main’s been a pretty Kit-centric effort but it’ll be nice to have a place without 1.7k followers Y’KNOW

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