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npd culture is genuinely believing that some people are NPCs. like theyre so below me and just not with it mentally that they CANT be real.

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I hate having traumatic events sprung on me because I can never be prepared and then I end up not having a script to say and I come across as a jerk!!

“Something bad just happened to me…new trauma…” okay. Uhm. That’s bad?

“You didnt respond the way i wanted you to :/” YOU LITERALLY JUST SPRUNG THIS ON ME AND YOU NEVER TOLD ME EXPLICITLY “please comfort me” you just used me to talk about whatever the fuck happened to you

I am not a pity machine so stop stop trying to get any slight emotional support from me (and sorry that happened i guess or is that not an appropriate response)

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low-key hate hallucinating . if there's no bugs on the wall why do I see em?? if there's no figure why do I see it???

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low-key hate hallucinating . if there's no bugs on the wall why do I see em?? if there's no figure why do I see it???

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*staring sternly into the mirror* you've had a wild week, you haven't eaten today, you've barely interacted with people today. do not trust the Vague Sense of Unease

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love a fictional character who will scowl and tell people “I’m not sick” “I’m not hungry” “I didn’t get injured”

meanwhile he has an extremely high fever, he ate some soup last week, and the blood is soaking through his jacket

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i love sluts i love perverts i love dykes i love faggots i love aromantics i love freaks i love librarians i love ibuprofen

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NPD + imposter syndrome culture is being in a constant state of mental agony

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Nbpd culture is do I really have npd? Maybe I'm faking it. I mostly feel nothingness anyway from bpd OHHH MY GOD I AM THE BEST PERSON ALIVE I COULD FIGHT GODDDD

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Questioning NPD culture is well yeah i know i am better than most people. Generally speaking, if I compare myself with the average person I am better than them. People who don’t understand that I am that good are the ones who are less, because they clearly cant understand something so obvious

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no idea wtf is going on but um

having both npd and an inferiority complex is weird. i have very little self worth and feel like im not worthy of friendship, yet desire it and feel offended when people don't want to be my friend.

im amazing!! im clever and sweet and caring, why WOULDN'T you be my friend???

i'm coming to terms with the npd and it makes so much sense

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NBPD culture is actually having no brake on the revenge plans when someone angers you

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hate it when you bring up the fact you MIGHT have npd and its all "oh you can't have npd!! ive never seen you act like a narcissist"

OF COURSE YOU HAVEN'T?? I HAVE COVERT NPD!! EVEN I DIDN'T REALIZE I HAD IT FOR LIKE 3-4 YEARS!! HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU??

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the good news is not eating worked, theres no more bloating! huzzah! the bad news is i am in incomprehensible agony

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dhsiwhwi i hate this i hate everything literally. i couldn't care less about others opinions, about others in general, unless they involve me. i can't stand negative attention, and i hate that people don't like me, and there's so many out there that don't. my brain can't pick, i either think everyone hates me ever and im the worse, or i genuinely can't comprehend the idea that some people don't like me or find me attractive, i just want everyone to like me, not in a people pleaser way, i want everyone to love me and give me attention and treat me specially, they should, and then i end up acting like a people pleaser anyway just so people don't dislike me or leave, ever