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The way they original post is from 2012, but it still holds up over a decade later is insane lmao

tumblr is basically a gay bar in a mental institute

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I really really really hate being alive rn ngl

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Going for a walk in the rain is such an underrated experience, man. Some darkwave in my earbuds, the smell of the grass and trees amplified by the rain, a cup of coffee waiting to be made as soon as I get home. Peak activity, 10/10 💚

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The tragedy of when a song has fucking magnificent instrumentals, but the vocals or, more often, the fuck ass lyrics make it unlistenable 💀

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Had a Sanrio Last Supper cake for my birthday. Call that Immaculate Confection 🙏🏻✨️

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I think one of my favourite memories is from 2020/2021 when a patient left a complaint about me not being cheery enough and that "the front desk girl makes the first impression so she should ALWAYS have a big smile on her face" and I showed it to my boss (who is also my mother) like "wtf does she want me to do? I'm wearing a mask, everybody in this bitch is required to wear a mask, staff and patients so like???". So she told me to "wear that one really weird mask" to work if they're gonna be so pressed about a damn smile. And that's why I spent the next like month and a half wearing my Kaneki mask to every shift 🫡

Side note, 1. Front desk GIRL? 🤨 so you wouldn't care if I was masc presenting? Not the misogyny 2. Dawg, it was the height of covid, i was seeing an ungodly amount of patients every day for 12 hours straight and and getting screamed at, cussed out, and occasionally threatened multiple times a day, you cannot expect my ass to be fuckin Pinkie Pie through all that. And 3. Bitch, IT WAS AT THE HEIGHT OF COVID, are you telling me to take my fucking mask off while being in direct contact with multiple covid positive patients a day??? You done lost your damn mind - when you get your damn mind, you call me

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Tempted to make a group chat with the two Jay's in my life and only use it to send pictures like these every time one of them cancels plans with me (it will be used often)

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Idk what felt more embarrassing, crying for the first time in my therapy session yesterday or the fact that i was still eating my breakfast and kept getting ranch from my carrots on my fingers 🙃

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So it turns out spending most of your life trying to navigate and manage a parent's emotions (emotional outbursts) for your own emotional and sometimes physical wellbeing actually does largely form who you are as a person and how you act in your relationships, uh oh 🤠

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This may just be me reaching bc I adore Katseye, but I feel like Gnarly is almost an updated version of Valley Girl by Frank Zappa - a tongue in cheek satirization of what is essentially the same crowd, just 40-ish years later

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Ik ben dronken misschien haha

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Ik heb vanavond zoveel plezier gehad!! Ik mis het om de hele tijd naar een concert te gaan!! Maar ik ben zo moe nu…

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If I didn't already commit to going green next month...

i want to dye my hair pink

i don’t know how much longer i can control it

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Wow.

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Removing posts for safety reasons. I'm still doing what I can to help those in need irl, but with everything going on...yeah

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I like that my friends just let me be a house cat at the functions.

If i want attention, I will join them and seek it.

If I want to hang out on my own, they'll let me. Sure, they'll come by and acknowledge me, chit chat for a bit, maybe bother me to be funny, but they don't force me to be more involved than I want. They know that I like being around them, but have a very easily drained social battery, so they just enjoy my presence in whatever capacity I'm able to provide that day and I really appreciate that about them :3

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My fiance just told me that he loves my eyes because they're "sad in a good way" like a Victorian child or Anya Taylor Joy and tbh that's one of the best compliments anyone has ever given me