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Surgery got approved so i gotta lock tf in so 1. They'll have to use less anesthesia 2. I'll have an easier time moving nyself around and 3. I won't be embarrassingly heavy if i need help from someone else to move me esp the first night i really hope i can hobble myself up the stairs on my own lol

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So i completely fell off course for the last couple months and gained a bunch but my new desired hobby (urban exploring) i want to be sk1nny for and work on my upper body and core strength so that I can somewhat reliably watch my own back. Work has the annual fitness challenge going on so perfect time to get ready for it!

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Got this email for a program I'm eligible for through my work benefits 😅

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My review at work went really good and instead of getting the 'little treat' i originally wanted (panda express) i got a new sweater instead and I'm so excited

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Also absolutely miserable that my fall last Wednesday was so bad that it still a week later is hindering workouts. Like i could barely even walk normally until Monday because my knees hurt so bad. I still did move a lot because its been busy at work with the bouts of nice weather but it hurt so bad and i walked so weird (barely moving my knees)

And now that my knees dont hurt from the skin being torn off, my legs just. Ache. I don't know if its the sudden long periods of standing after not as much during the winter or what but its like... the pain I always call "growing pains" even though I'm an adult and I'm not growing anymore. They're just so like... they're extremely achy to the point where its not just aches it's full on pain.

Needless to say I've not been very active lately 😅 really gotta lock in for this wedding

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My manager is getting married next month and I'm supposed to go and genuinely like... wondering if i should go really extreme for a few weeks before. Like maybe do... idk every other week of extreme res and then a week of moderate and then just alternate like that? I kinda fell off and i really need to get back in to my honeymoon phase so i can be super tiny there lol

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So last Wednesday I went on a run, tripped over my own feet, fell, but scared my dog who was attached by a waist leash, and he dragged me a little down the sidewalk. I wish i could have seen it happen because it had to have been hilarious. But i still cannot walk normally. I busted my knees so bad and i guess I jacked up my foot (binion specifically) too cuz its been in such extreme pain that it's also making it hard to walk... rip my exercise regiment

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My favorite recent discovery is the rotisserie chicken from costco. I literally buy one and tear it up and use it for all kinds of things, my favorite is to put some in and use costco frozen mixed veggies and then some sauce depending on my mood. Like? Its so tasty and versatile? And CHEAP?? Amazing

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Had a very small piece of cake at the work dinner (along with salad ofc, it was spaghetti but i hate long noodles so i didn't have any, just a couple meatballs) and then got like super bad sugar high (shocking because it was genuinely a tiny slice) so i spent an hour going to town on the hotel elliptical but i didn't pre plan for it cuz i didnt even think about there being one so i did it in my jeans LOL i was soaked in sweat but i got there and then two other people there for the training came shortly after and both left before me im very proud i worked out longer than these two visibly muscular men

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The company hosting the training is cooking breakfast and lunch for us today and tomorrow (i think they're catering dinner tonight I'm not sure) and today they had quiche and cheesy potatoes and fruit and lucky me I don't like quiche and I took a small bit of potatoes but didnt like them so i had some strawberries, pineapple, and a banana. Not sure what lunch will be but i know they said dinner was spaghetti and meatballs, which I'll probably only have some meatballs cuz i don't like long noodles except in ramen

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At the airport on a work training and they got us lunch at this steakhouse airport and most of the menu was stuff i dont like so i got a salad and the guy that's taking us comes over to me and the coworker from my location I'm traveling with (who got pulled pork Sandwhich and fries) and asked her if she got enough to eat and she said yep and looked at me and went "[name] i know you didn't get enough to eat but don't worry we'll get a steak in ya" He's so nice i feel like I'm being rude LMAO

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but you, sweet prince, will be the people's champion. (pt 2/2)

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My grandma said i looked a lot sk1nni3er since she last saw me (about two weeks ago) yippee

Also saved my c@ls for her house cuz she always f33ds me but she said she was making blts and i told her (truthfully) that I stopped 3@ting those because the texture was off putting so instead she offered me a donut ironically, which I took so that i wouldn't have any issues in the morning waiting to 3@t before my pathfinder game where I have a tendency to munch. I try to bring low c@l snacks but sometimes its hard. But lately I've been so anxious and stressed that f00d is just... unappealing. I don't want any of it, even a lot of tr1ggers like pastries or cheez its so... i guess we'll see what happens

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W3ighed at 131.6 cuz I've been locked in this week (mainly from stress but that's not the point)

Also did this pick up order at a donut shop that offers me a donut at every pick up and I impulsively say yes every time and this time I said no :) they're really good but i also am going to my grandparents later and they always give me plenty to 3at

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Not me getting these ads on snap

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Can't use l@x because the pipes at work have been frozen for over a week now and we have to bring buckets of water to flush the toilet but we have to use it sparingly

Even without using them tho I'm suffering i have a tiny bladder 😭 i don't think it's going to thaw for a while and there's pretty much nothing we can do

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Besties I must admit over the holiday season i g@!ned 😭 like a lot. Like my new cw is 136.4. Like 14lbs i want to ☠️