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Angel wings
Almost 2 weeks ago , you got your angel wings, no more pain/suffering . You were like another mom to me. I know you fought a good long hard battle the last 7 yrs.
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Missing my ......
Missing my daughter/grandson very much... its killing me on the inside. shame on you my kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I know its been very very long time since I been on here..due to family health matters/ deep depression-me. Mentally/physically drained out.
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misunderstood
Lately I’ve been so misunderstood, saying one word,caused trouble. i saw a person’s true colors come out. i have my views on things but won’t say them.
Dealing with so much,,,,holding back so hard lately my body won’t even let me cry now.
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EMOTIONAL
Today, this morning i find myself emotional, empty, like i want to cry, no no drinking going on. I heard a couple songs that just made my heart crumble into more pieces. The songs were really pulling @my heart strings. I had no control over them on the radio, on the bus training on riding today.
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“MIXED FEELINGS EMOTIONS!””
Yes i said it , mixed feeling emotions.. call me old fashion... its been very hard/ accepting Im gonna be a gma of a very bi-racial grandson not super proud i go to tell ppl they are like “’ EEEEP!” I say i have no choice in the matter i, defending a unborn very bi-racial kid. No Im not like super psyched up SORRY!
I BELIEVE WHITES SHOULD BE WITH WHITES, BLACK WITH BLACKS SORRY! I NEVER TOLD MY KID SHE COULDN’T DATE OUTSIDE OF HER RACE THAT WAS HER IDEAO! .. I NEVER THOUGHT THIS WOULD HAPPEN! BUT YET 10-13YRS AGO SHE WAS CALLING PPL “ WHIGGERS “ . ‘OH YES U HAVE , GIRLFRIEND! ‘
Many things is happening due to this situation .
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i know its been awhile since being on here just so much going on. I believe my depression is getting worse,,,,to the point i don’t even want to do anything anymore/ staying away from social situations as much as possible. I feel my heart physically feels broken. I may never get a real true feeling of ever being in love again it has cut my heart into pieces like a knife. im fake 99.9% of the time of being happy put on a happy face Sometimes i just want to go tell these happy go lucky couples to “really?” Bible humpers so up there ass ...sorry i believe it but ur not going to tell me what is right/wrong never will i ever post my opinion on social media again getting a mental mouth full
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CHANGES
so many changes are going on here in my life good/bad. I still have my days when I’m down like today/part of yesterday looking at my body= fat, ugly= unaccepted by guys my age or a just a couple years older than me which brought me to tears/more sadness after real rejection by the guy i like at my church. feeling like a loser
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Feeling...
Feeling...to not feeling much today or yesterday about everything, everyone in my life. I know sounds awful but into getting my work done, trying to enjoy real summer weather.
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7-20-15
As I thought, my car tires were tampered with Sat. night which cost me a days worth of work, then to be taken off my work assignment hrs. later..Honestly it was a sign of relief that I didn’t have to go, Iwill admit i was struggling/ getting sick of the bs. from this big fat ugly girl who was jealous of me. I would of probably gave her some not so nice looks/ and my bp would of shot up cause I couldn’t say my what i would of liked to have said that I wanted to her fat ugly gross ass/bitch she is.
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This town/world...=(
This town is falling apart, drive by shooting not far from me, problems in the neighborhood..I think my front tires were trying to be slashed,, had no problems before hand....I’m trying to get answers from people in neighborhood disturbances lately. I see military, cops getting shot for serving in the military its sad./depressing. I have strong faith in God, everything happens for a reason.. I also sees this as last days of this world..been seeing this for the past 10yrs. that all things weather, world around us, politics. hate what I see...including my own neighborhood/ my own town...so sad!
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Dreams
Lately I’ve had some strange dreams/nightmares that has been really haunting me, to the point i was acting out all my emotions toward somebody in dream. to the point i was yelling, screaming, punching that person for hurting me in my heart. After the nightmare, thoughts during the days following up to realized my heart is still really broken, songs, memories my heart literally feels ripped in two.
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July 5th 2015
Here I’m again on here...Last night I saw beautiful fireworks from my back porch..but in reality felt so all alone,miserable like a blank inside me..Today i made a self commitment to getting my front porch painted, took a good 6 hrs total between paint coats/touch ups. Honestly I didn’t really want to do this..it was like pulling teeth with me. In between times I went got a Sunday news paper..I saw my ex-other-other half again crossing over in his truck to across N. Monroe St. .back to wherever to who he is dating.’s place =( mother firggin trucker! Broke my heart more/ feeling more ugly/fat/ un-attractable. No, he never seen me he was already crossing from Monroe St. to another cross street. ={ The guy i have a crush on thanks to his oldest daughter.. she has done friggin told crap to her dad about me.. so now @ church he is very arrogant, ignorant person...WTF..JAMIELYNN LOOSE you mother friiggin B!” “ i strongly dislike you JAMIELYNNLOOSe(R) how could you do that to me i never did anything to you .. hope your tires get slashed in Oakridge Estates. Monroe Michigan ..”BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaatch!”
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Unusual 4th of July
Today was most unusual 4th of July for me with family, Going to Olive Garden/ and Hollywood Casino in Toledo Ohio. The past few days/nights in past week in a half, I honestly feel, still do I feel my heart is broken, I’ve been hiding my depression/hurting many memories keep crossing into my mind/heart. Im even to starting looking/feeling ugly.
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First day of Summer
Today as of 12:30pm. it officially is now summer. Wow , you can tell with on/ off t-storms or showers with summer’s high humidity. I will take this weather over a winter snowstorm or snow showers any day. I’m going to try to stay up past dark lol. enjoy today/tonight longest day of the year!
I know i need to plant my ��flowers i got close to a month ago... i just been plain busy, tired, and depression...
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“why , why, why?”
Why why, why..is everything hitting @once. No bf or even a male interest, got ignored song that goes thru my mind”Killing Me Softly” by Roberta Flack-original artist of that song. yes he was doing just that@church before service. I just wanted to cry during the service.
Why haven’t i been called back to work, okay vacation is over how i feel now I’m ready to work to help forget all going on.
Why does the specialist for my sister have to send her to MN. this trip is going to be mentally exhausting I will do it, won’t be easy but will do it. I know my mom isn’t happy having to pay out for my ticket/ lodging/ food for the week or maybe more. I know she is crabby about it saying it lightly!
I know for a fact my sister will die eventually like way before me with this disibilating disease there is no cure for as of right now.
My whole family is falling apart within the next 8 yrs...I’ve come to terms, eventually will probably end up ina homeless shelter if i don’t find or get a super good job to support my ugly fat retarded ass!
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If I knew...
If I knew I would be going back to work this week..I would go treat myself to my favorite place for pizza. Buy some cool ingredients for some meals I want to make for myself ...new recipes I seen in a cookbook
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