angelicallyparanoid

[angelicallyparanoid]

This blog is probably gonna go inactive btw! Not gonna specify why cuz yall dont need to know, but itll either go ia or be deleted, depending on what the actual mods want to do with it :) (i am not one of the alters who runs this thing, lol.) we do have another blog for venting + crashing out however it isnt a jirai blog + its being redone rn, so i'll probably add it to the pinned later or something

— 🦴 Zodiac (she/it)

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all I need is a cigarette , an energy drink and a reallyy sharp blade

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Considering starting a project (animatic, probably) about our experiences as a system / with did (we've been thinking about it a lot, especially the first signs..) but we're torn between using People Allergy, Anthropophobia or Abnormality Dancin' Girl... all three could work , but we just dont know which song to use audgghdofhhg

(poll under the cut, since why not <3)

The first two would use the english covers by Jubyphonic, and ADG would use the english cover by either Trickle or MICCHI, but uh poll time i guess? :')

* we have so many animatics that are half finished rn + our life is falling apart as we speak but we still want to at least consider making this idea real, lol. Especially since some time this.. august? iirc? i'll have to fact check that later... will be the 1 year mark since becoming properly aware / accepting that we're a system, so. Idk where im going with this ramble but hopefully yall get my point /lh (technically we were vaguely aware of at least 1 of our alters for about 2 and a bit years beforehand, but that got super messy due to. fear n panic n denial n all that lol. we definitely hadnt come to terms with any of it at that point.)

— 🦴 Zodiac (she/it)

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Welp turns out my last crashout resort is fucked cuz apparently that vape box in the cupboard is empty (which is fine, im really one for vaping anyway...) but our parents dont smoke unless we're on vacation or something. Sighhh.

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This jirai thinks everyone hates them and won’t believe you if you say you don’t hate them

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Any other landmines/jirais out there with NO anons, NO huge following, NO reason to wake up every day- I mean, what?

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All jirais should get a weekly allowance of 100 bucks for not kïļľing ourselves yet

It’s really hard existing when your mentally ill

[angelicallyparanoid]

"Its not a big deal, Im not hurt! Its not a big deal, Im not gonna cry...!" /lyr

[angelicallyparanoid]

Wowwww i look at shblr a couple times for inspo or whatrver, and now all the tumblr ads we're getting are "try therapy with betterhelp!" and "5 breathing excercises to help calm down big emotions!". How subtle you are, tumblr!! /sarc

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“My body my choice” we scream in unison, cutting our wrists and thighs

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Hey, are you still awake...? Even if today felt heavy or weird or too much to explain... I’m proud of you for making it through.

Even if no one said it—I did. I know how much effort it takes just to keep going sometimes.

So come here... just for a sec. Let me hold your hand through the screen, just for a little while. Let’s dream of a softer internet world, together.

💻 Signal... sent ! 𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞. 𝐈 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫.

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I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I csnttakrotanymirs I can’t take it anymore I can’t take it anymore I snt take it anymore I can’t take it snymore (I say as I proceed to take it)