angrypenguinheart

[angrypenguinheart]

Hey, its been a while huh. Well i forgot my old username so new account!!! 🎉🎉 Well we broke up which was for the better ig he deserves better than me...I also finished a book its called "It ends with us" I really loved it!!! It was sad but amazing, it was about this girl named lilly and a guy named ryle. It was beautiful till he hit her...Then atlas her old bsf came and thats when ryle got really mad! Like hella! And stuff happened, idk how to explain it. Another thing is I think I have a crush on my bsf so thats a thing...He has a gf tho 😅 so I wanna tell him so he can reject me and i move on. Wanna know a funny thing? He used to like me! ME! I rejected him at the time, i didn't really my feelings for him untill it was too late...I regret not realizing that soon. Although idk if i truly like him what if i just think i like him cause i feel the need to be validated. What if thats the only reason i like him? I hate that. I hate myself. Im planning on fasting and doing more exercise!!! 😁 I think its the only way to make sure im skinny, Everyone else is WAYYY skinner than me...I just wanna fit in...At the same time idc what people think about me anymore. I graduate in 4 months!!! I need to focus on myself not on others and dumb crushes. That's a fact, and im planning on doing that. For sure, well imma try 😁 Also we have upcoming practice test next month and we're behind lessons so we need to cath up for the SBAC (american thing) testing starts on March 3rd. Im so nervous!!! Aaaa its nerve wrecking covid has definitely done something. Time goes by so fast...I just want to go back, those were the worst but best moments in my life. My ex, he made me forget all my worries...He made me truly happy, I loved him...He loved me right? Was the time he spent with me just lies? Was he happy with me? Well ig he wasn't, we broke up...He wants to be fuk buddies. I cant believe him. He cheats on me he lies to me. And the audacity he has. To fuvking ask me to be his fuk buddie. I hate him so much. So why wont these Fellings go away...