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Maybe some fluff for the boys please? We know Sam wasnt taking care of himself while looking for Micheal!Dean, he even grew a beard so what if he also lost a lot weight as a result. Dean picking up on it and just taking care of his baby boy plz :-)

hey anon! thank you for the prompt, and sorry it’s been a while! <3

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Dean had expected some effect on Sam of his months-long absence, but he’s not quite prepared for it to be this drastic, and this visible. It’s not just the beard (though Dean really hates that with a passion). Sam’s lost weight; very obviously so, in a way that’s transparent even through his layers.

Dean knows Sam doesn’t have a large appetite. His brother seems quite happy living off salad and other healthy food, and before Dean had left (been taken away by Michael), Sam had been pretty healthy for a guy who mostly ate leaves. He’d used to go on regular runs, and work out whenever he got the chance, and while Dean still thought he could do with a few more pounds, the fact remained that Sam still looked strong and quick, with the physique of a runner.

Now, though, he’s not just lean – he’s skinny. His shirts hang off his shoulders in a way they didn’t before, and Dean hasn’t missed the fact that he’s punched extra holes in his belt so that he can prevent his pants from falling off. It makes Dean’s heart squeeze in his chest when he first notices – Sam hasn’t been that slender in literal years.

“How many meals have you missed, man?” he asks Sam quietly, one evening in the kitchen.

Sam pauses with his beer halfway to his mouth. “What?”

“You’ve lost weight,” Dean points out. “Too much of it, Sammy. It’s worrying me.”

“I’m fine,” Sam says at once, his default response to concern.

“No, you’re not,” Dean retorts. “And that’s okay,” he adds quickly before Sam can speak. “I get it, man, I do.” He knows all too well what it’s like – the year he’d spent with Lisa while Sam had been gone is proof enough of that.

“It’s nothing, Dean,” Sam says after a moment, voice soft. He puts his beer down again. “I just didn’t have a lot of spare time.”

“Yeah, but eating isn’t something you do in your spare time, man,” Dean points out. “It’s sorta essential.”

“I know, I know,” Sam says. “I just… forgot,” he finishes, and then winces as he realized how it sounds.

“Forgot to eat,” Dean repeats flatly.

Sam sighs, and looks away. “Dean–”

“I’m not mad,” Dean says quickly, getting up so he can slide in next to Sam at the kitchen table. “Swear I’m not. I’m just worried, you know? I hate seeing you like this.”

“I’m sorry,” Sam says after a second, subdued. “But I just – Dean, I just couldn’t. You were gone, and it was because of me, and I had to – I couldn’t just sit there and do nothing, I had to find a way, and–”

“Sam,” Dean says, gentle yet firm, and Sam goes quiet at once. “Sammy. Baby. I know.” He reaches out and takes Sam’s free hand, bringing it to his lips so he can kiss Sam’s knuckles. He doesn’t miss how thin and fragile Sam’s wrist looks, how damn breakable. “You don’t have to blame yourself for a damn thing, okay?” Dean tells Sam.

Sam just looks at him, expression uncertain, mouth turning down at the corners. Dean gives him a reassuring smile and then lets go of his hand so he can tuck some of Sam’s hair behind his ear. “It’s all right now, man,” he says. “I’m here now, aren’t I? It’s okay now.”

Slowly, Sam nods, losing some of the unease.

“And I’m gonna look after you,” Dean continues, letting his hand rest on the side of Sam’s neck. “Gonna make sure you’re okay. But you gotta promise me, all right? You gotta eat whatever I make you, whenever I make it. No excuses.”

“No bacon,” Sam says after a moment of consideration.

“No bacon,” Dean promises with a smile, though he doesn’t think he’ll ever understand how Sam can live without it. It’s bacon, and he’d kill a man for it, and he can’t believe Sam refuses to touch the stuff. “On one condition, though,” he adds, an idea occurring to him.

“What?”

“Shave,” Dean says at once. “Get rid of that damn thing, Sammy, or I swear I’ll do it when you’re sleeping. You look like a fucking hipster.”

“Fine, fine,” Sam laughs. “Later.”

“Good,” says Dean firmly. “Damn thing itches. Beard burn isn’t fun, Sammy.”

Sam rolls his eyes, though he’s still smiling. “Now you know how I feel, dealing with your stupid scruff.”

“My scruff is sexy, okay,” Dean counters, flicking Sam’s ear.

“If you say so,” says Sam with a snort.

Dean grins. “Damn right,” he says, and puts his arm around Sam’s shoulders so he can pull him closer. “Man, I missed you,” he tells Sam a second later.

“I missed you too,” Sam says at once, shifting even closer to Dean so he can put his head on Dean’s shoulder. “Don’t you ever leave me again.”

He sounds brittle, voice taut like his skin over bones, like the ribs Dean has counted when they’re in bed, the knobs of his spine jutting out against his skin, and it makes Dean’s heart hurt. “I won’t,” he promises quietly, resting his cheek against Sam’s head. “I swear to you, Sammy, I won’t.”

“Good,” says Sam, voice cracking a little.

Dean holds him to his side for a few seconds later, and then presses a kiss to his temple before letting go. He wants nothing more than to just sit there with Sam for as long as he can and keep his arms around him, but the house is full of people and privacy is no longer a thing he has in abundance. It’ll have to wait till later on, when they’re alone in Dean’s room.

So for now, he gets to his feet, and says, “So – omelet sound good?”

Sam smiles up at him. “Sounds great.”

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Just yesterday I was complaining about no russian words for "baby boy"/"kid"/"baby brother". Pupsik is...cool, but just no.

(I'm sorry, just "baby boy" seems so gentle and sweet to me, but we have the same word for "baby", "baby boy" and "kid" in Russian language - "malysh", and "pupsik" little bit different meaning)

in the Russian dub Dean calls Sam ‘pupsik’ when he slaps his ass in 1x08, which literally means ‘baby boy’ / ‘dolly’

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my mind literally turns off when I see top sam

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I love your blog! :) Do you have any fic recommendations of the boys playing pretend (to be a couple) for a case or any other reason? Preferably no pwp?

Thank you!!! Here are a few pretend couple fics:

Couples Counseling by MsImpala67

What better way to investigate a marriage counselor (who may or may not be responsible for the death of six of her clients) than to go to marriage counseling? It’s just pretend, right? No different than putting on the FBI suits. Of course, nothing ever goes according to plan, and Sam and Dean quickly get more than they bargained for.

Holly, Ivy, Mistletoe by queenklu

It’s a week before Christmas, and Dean is at Stanford hoping for one more impossible thing.

Salt Water Cure by smalltrolven

Set after episode 10.5 “Fan Fiction”- Sam and Dean have to be pretend boyfriends for a case which leads to many changes neither of them ever expected

Windfall for the nonbeliever by glovered

After Sam’s first Hell flashback, he and Dean work a job that means posing as a couple in a planned community.

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SAM & DEAN POETRY CHALLENGE / sketchydean vs whoaeasytiger prompt: Sam is 0 and Dean is 4

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a:  artery (switching)

b:  backseat driver, betting against dean gets you screwed (weecest), blow me ‘verse (switching; leans more toward top!Dean), bumpy ride, burning down the house, by your command

c:  calling the shots, coast on through (switching)

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(x) - starts around 4:10

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Brotherly love

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Guys, guys if it was just Dean and Baby at the church. I smell a wedding between those two(finally). The sexual tension Dean and Baby have was reaching Mulder/Scully levels of tension. It was just too high. They had to do it for the final, it was the right thing to do. After 15 seasons, it was finally time for those 2 to settle down since they're now free. Congratulations to happy couple, may their love be forever.

But, but, but, what about the angel??? 😂😂😂

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Well, I don't think that is sooo bad, because, you know, Cass name on table, he's part of the family (yeah 😬). So, his confession was absolutely platonic. It's hilarious.

Gross!!! They had to add that ass to the table??? I don't care about Jack's tho. But I guess they had to throw another bone to the minions. Sigh.

Well, I'll take that over the other thing any day of the year. Lol

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Sam: Just you and me, going wherever the story takes us. Just us.  Dean: Finally free. 

Then Dean’s arm around Sam and them driving off into the sunset together. 

I DON’T KNOW HOW THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ANY BETTER??

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My very long post about Natalie Fisher, wannabe journalist from hypable.

Let’s start. She came here from the Teen Wolf fandom where she spent much of her time trying to cozy up to writers and the showrunner, Jeff Davis, so she could insinuate Tyler Posey’s part be minimized and the show should concentrate on her ship.

Sound familiar? She actually had Jeff on her TW podcast a few times before she finally overstepped on the sterek shit and was cordially invited to fuck off by tptb. Bc that crew weren’t needy idiots who would sacrifice their show quality just bc a blogger was stroking their ego.

She jumped into our fandom and immediately cozied up to Meredith and Berens. From the start she was trying the same thing she did at TW. “No one cares about Sam. The brother bond is toxic. The show should focus on Dean and Cass.”

She wrote entire articles about what a shit character Sam is, how he’s arrogant and manipulative and no one better challenge her on that because she was getting her info right from her writer friends. 

She went after Jensen when he said destiel didn’t exist, comparing him to a corrupt Trump official and telling him someone needed to teach him how to see Dean as not straight. 

Gradually the show did go in the direction she wanted. Almost no focus on the brothers. An ensemble cast blandly recreating story arcs that were original back in earlier, better eras. Nat and her friends didn’t care. As long as Cass and Dean were there and Sam was sidelined.

The show’s ratings tanked. It was lucky to get a .3 most of the time.  Real critics and reviewers- as opposed to bloggers calling themselves “journalists”- took notice and pointed out the flaws. So what did Natalie do? She tried to manage and manipulate critics.

Well-respected critic @sheilakathleen -who’s a critic for the NY Times and Roger Ebert’s website- started pointing out the issues with Dabb’s version of the show. She’s been writing about SPN since the beginning so she knows her stuff and she has a large following. People listen to her. Apparently this worried Fisher.

So in rides Natalie hoping to “manage” Sheila. Sheila wasn’t having it and asked her to stop. Instead of heeding this, Natalie barged into Sheila’s DMs and sent her wall after wall of text blaming Jared for the show’s problems and trying to guilt her into shutting up.

Keep in mind, this is the first interaction Sheila ever had with Natalie and this all stemmed from a post where Sheila said that Sam’s character is the one suffering from the current writing. And she specifically asked Natalie not to DM her. Instead of listening she went on and on and ON to try and get Sheila to see that yes, the quality is down but it’s all Jared’s fault and Sheila should shut up about it. 

So what’s she’s doing here is attempting to quiet all criticism about current seasons by using the mental health struggles Jared’s been so open about to blame him and throw him under the bus. Why? Because she liked having Sam sidelined. Period. And she’s telling someone who’s a longtime industry professional that Jared can’t do his job. The entertainment world is a very small town. What if Sheila wasn’t as savvy and wonderful as she is and she took Natalie’s story at face value and told others about it? 

I mean, with people who would actually listen to this obsessive, deranged fangirl in charge of Sam and Dean, is it any wonder the guys lost their passion for the show? Is it any wonder that it’s been terrible since most of the good writers left when Dabb became showrunner and we’re left with Natalie’s buddies? 

KEEP IN MIND, I am not saying she’s responsible for how bad it all is or for her ship becoming a one-sided canon flop. I’m saying that she manipulated anyone she could hoping it would go in that direction and she didn’t care who she hurt in the process. If anyone ever writes a book about how a fandom can destroy a show, spn should be the first example. 

Anyway. It’s too late for our show. But considering this is the second fandom where she’s pulled a bunch of nonsense and tried to twist things to make a ship canon, pay close attention to where she goes next and shut her down if you see her heading towards any of your fandoms. 

And just for laughs, this is a me talking to one of Sheila’s non-fandom friends. It’s still cracking me up. 

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My favorite fics featuring possessive!dean or jensen for all the fans that enjoy Dean or Jensen being jealous. They’re all bottom!sam/jared.

symbols. (de)scent into madness (j2, a/b/o); … and the circus leaves town (wincest, dark!dean, dub-con)

a. a good employee knows… (j2, au); a helping hand (j2, non-au); a question of ownership (wincest); all mine (wincest, hints of sastiel); all roads lead to… (wincest, dark!dean); all tied up (wincest); anger (wincest)

b. battlefield victory (j2, au, dub-con); best birthday ever (j2, roleplay wincest); big isn’t always better (j2, non-au)

c. caught in a blaze (j2, a/b/o, sequel to burning for you, don’t need to read to understand); claim me (j2, a/b/o); claiming what’s mine (wincest); cold without you (wincest, cursed!dean, chaptered); conamore (wincest)

d. dean’s bitch (wincest, prison fic, attempted rape); dirty tricks, dirty sex (wincest); do or do knot (j2, a/b/o); don’t say his name (weecest); dream me off my feet (j2, a/b/o, underage)

e. enough (wincest); eyes on the prize (j2, au); every piece will find it’s place (wincest, prostitute!sam)

f. forty-second (j2); fresh meat (j2)

g. gimme three steps (wincest); giving blowjobs with your eyes (wincest)

h. hard, dark, bloody (wincest, demon!dean, non-con, dub-con, dark, really dark); heat of the blood (weecest); his little slut (weecest); his very own (wincest); hot for teacher (j2, a/b/o); how ya doin’ there, sammy? (wincest, d/s)

i.i don’t wanna touch you too much, baby (weecest); i’ll give you what you like (j2, a/b/o); i’m yours (wincest); i’ve got a jared waiting at home (j2, au, d/s), if you’re warm… (wincest, hints of sastiel, mpreg); in need (wincest)

j. jealous (j2); jealousy (wincest); jealousy is a green-eyed winchester (wincest)

l. like brothers on a hotel bed (wincest); love does not claim possession (j2); love like fools (j2)

m. making you mine (j2, au, chaptered); mine (wincest, hints of sastiel); mine (wincest, a/b/o); mine, baby boy (wincest, demon!dean, non-con); mine (wincest); mirror images (wincest); my bloody valentine (wincest, dub-con)

n. need you now (j2); new neighbors (j2, au, i don’t remember if it mentions bottom!jensen, because it’s been too long since i read it, so be careful)

o. oh baby, no baby (wincest); on the tip of the blade (wincest, dub-con, voyeur!crowley); only mine (j2, a/b/o, mpreg)

p. possessive (wincest), possessive much? (j2, non-au); property of dean winchester (wincest); property of dean winchester (wincest, tattoo!kink); pure no more (wincest, au, hints of sastiel)

r. relationships ain’t for us (weecest)

s. set-up (wincest); silver choker verse (wincest, d/s)

t. territorial (weecest); territory (j2); the alpha problem (wincest, a/b/o); the blue butterfly (j2, a/b/o), the kraken’s gift (j2, au); the night that almost happened (j2, au, chaptered); the sin came later (j2, non-au); the throw down (wincest, d/s); their kind of normal (weecest); think before you act (wincest); this butt is mine (wincest); this too shall pass away (j2, au, mpreg, chaptered, read the tags); this will be, you and me (weecest); to keep him in need (wincest, dark!dean, d/s); to make a claim (wincest); twitter whore (j2, non-au, d/s)

w. we are who we are (weecest); wild horses (j2, au, age difference); winchester vacation (wincest, prison fic); wrapped around my finger (j2, au, asshole!jensen, chaptered, hints of mishalecki); wrath (wincest)

y. yesterday is but a dream (j2, au, a/b/o, chaptered); you are my hero (j2, au, age difference); you’re the one, the only thing (j2, non-au, hints of mishalecki), you’ve gotta a lesson to learn (wincest)

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There are quite a lot of songs that give me all the wincest feels. I’d like to write a story to every single one of them, but sadly, I just don’t have the time. Instead, I thought I could just paint the picture of a story I’ll probably never write. A song that just screams weecest to me, is 4th of July, Asbury Park (Sandy) by Bruce Springsteen. I’m not American, so Independence Day is basically Wincest Day to me. And the 4th of July 1996—  if it wasn’t the night the boys first kissed, it certainly was the night Dean finally admitted to himself he was head over heels in love with his baby brother.

The song makes me think of the boys a couple years later: John’s dragged them along to the Jersey shore, where he’s hunting a ghost that haunts the tourists on the boardwalks in Asbury Park or maybe one of the other shore towns. Dean is pretty excited to spend some time at the east coast, all too eager to get Sammy out of his head (because being in love with your smart, soft-hearted fifteen-year-old baby brother is devastating), so at first, he’s happy to hang out at the arcades, spending hours wasting his well-earned money on all them flashy games, trying to impress the Jersey girls. But after a week or so, John’s no closer to solving the case and Dean’s gotten sick of playing games with girls and pinball machines (and me, I just got tired of hanging in them dusty arcades, banging them pleasure machines / chasing the factory girls underneath the boardwalk where they all promise to unsnap their jeans), and leaves the arcades to the locals again.

Dean’s heard them talking about Madame Marie, the gypsy queen who tells fortunes at her little booth on the boardwalk, and eventually decides to spend his last bucks on truths instead of games. He walks into her Temple of Knowledge looking his usual, confident self, but she sees right through him, leaves him dazed and confused as he walks back out. She’s just telling you what you want to hear, says a voice in his head, she just knows how to read what people desire, but if ghosts and werewolves and vampires are real, then maybe so are psychic readers, and even if she’s a hoax, she’s managed to plant a little seed of hope in his heart. A couple nights later, he’s hanging out on the boardwalk again, just watching the local people, no money left to spend. (Down in the town, the Circuit’s full of switchblade lovers, so fast, so shiny, so sharp / as the wizards play down on Pinball Way on the boardwalk way past dark / and the boys from the casino dance with their shirts open like Latin lovers on the shore). There’s two boys who caught his eye a while ago, both in light denim and white shirts, unbuttoned, showing off their tan chests, and they look so much alike, almost like brothers, but Dean knows they’re not, even before he hears them talking— You know the cops finally busted Madame Marie for tellin’ fortunes better than they do / for me this boardwalk life’s through babe / you oughta quit this scene too, and finally decides to take matters into his own hands.

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Well, I quite often tell everyone in my public page "I love Nancy and her blog", AND because of the time difference, It's daytime in Moscow, when you all go to sleep, so I'm creepily WATCHING your posts. Sorry if it makes you uncomfortable, you don't know me at all, but we are all know that's how "canon" work, right?

You know, while I was watching, I shared your post with my friend, with "OMG, I LOVE Nancy". Does it mean we are canon too?

We are as canon as that ship is. 

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Leave Megstiel Fans Alone.

Megstiel is still canon. Nothing that happened last night changes that.

Cas was shown twice just this season to NOT be over Meg. Nothing that happened last night changes that either.

We can choose to interpret "love" however we want. There are lots of different kinds of love. We know Cas loves Dean. We've always known that. Just like he loves Sam, and Jack, and still loves Meg, all in their own ways.

Since it was never specified what Cas wants, all of our guesses are equally true. We can guess that he wants Meg back, and we're as right as anyone.

We can believe Cas and Meg are together now on the other side.

Stop coming after us with more bullying. You didn't "win" anything. You can't un-canon a ship. You can't make Megstiel have never happened just because it doesn't fit your narrative.

Leave us alone.

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Sith!Obi-wan & Anakin AU (part 1) “I fell. He followed.”