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why are we here? just to suffer? every 5 minutes i have to clean my glasses

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Jo log khudse bhaagte hain, woh jaate kahan hain?

- People who run away from themselves, where do they go?

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Jo log khudse bhaagte hain, woh jaate kahan hain?

- People who run away from themselves, where do they go?

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‘Tu rah-naward-e-shoq hai; manzil na kar qubool.’

- You are on the path of amazing journeys, don’t settle for destinations.

Allama Iqbal 

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“Your body is a museum of natural disasters. Can you grasp how stunning that is?”

— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey (via rupikaurpoems)

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“If you were born with the weakness to fall you were born with the strength to rise.”

— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey

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What are the healthiest teas

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i honestly believe human beings are not meant to live like this. we are meant to live in loving communities and be around nature every day and grow our own food and create art and not work day and night until we die. this longing for another life is not human nature, it’s a symptom of modern society.

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Knowing you have the next day off is more relieving than the actual day off

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what if there were professional text post critics

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one of the more valuable things I’ve learned in life as a survivor of a mentally unstable parent is that it is likely that no one has thought through it as much as you have. 

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

The best thing I ever did for myself and my relationships was insist upon frank communication and a categorical denial of subtext. For some people this is a moral stance. For survivors of mentally unstable parents this is a requirement of recovery. 

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Gaya tha main sochke, baatein bachpan ki hongi;

Dost mujhe apni tarakki sunaane lage!!

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singing in the shower is all fun and games until you get shampoo in your mouth

then it just becomes a soap opera

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i just want to thank all those who’ve destroyed me into the person i am today

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