hi everyone,
one of my favourite poets (and one of tumblr’s favourite poets - if you’ve ever even looked at a ship graphic you’ve probably read a stanza of his work and loved it), the incomparable Richard Siken, suffered a stroke in March. his publishers, Copper Canyon Press, set up a gofundme for his medical bills and living expenses. at this point they don’t know if he’ll make a full recovery or be able to work again.
we all owe this guy a decade’s worth of back-pay for using his poems as fic titles. if you can make a donation, please do.
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Dad is mad. Why the black, he says. What happened to your arm. He corners you in a dark room that is all round, all stone. It has a mouth, yes; light dances making wet sounds on the porous wall(s). Far away, the sounding of the un-ocean. His voice a shadow that’s been spun, inexplicably, out of you. Drawn like sap. Why the black, indeed. You are not sin. Born yesterday. Done unto others what was wanted. What was. Lived inside a past so wide it tried to unplug everything else. Tucked into a cool white lie like sunday dinner. Lied still in the backseat of yr own desire. Came. In droves. To see. Mouth of the cave. Him: out, for the first time since winter. You: drawn, padded: a soft orange envelope containing one tube of eyeliner. Waterproof.
He wants to know what your parents do. He asks how life at home is. He wants to know, really. All of a sudden it’s always you, you, you. It’s like he’s got a study due and he needs to collect data. His hands are hot. They heat-search the soft points. His moon resides in the 7th house of love and partnerships; every conversation you step into a closet of mirrors, endless selves. Reactions to reactions. He’s waiting for your cap to blow, for you to tell him how you really feel. He is so very patient.
cant help us. stuck here too long. wouldn’t take long enough. enough. im tired of perusing. the hardware store stores almanacs where I go to look for a boxcutter. no: pursue. hotheaded. then find. an axis. intersection of letters. a place we can meet and discuss. new thing: pull apart plastic coding. sudden appearance. a skin tag tht hangs around. long enough to say I dont want to lose you. I could scream. I lost you miles ago when my sulfurous heart decided you were a prospect. perhaps we can learn from each other, lift each other. out. i could subject you to my malnourished rodent feelings. but that would take too long. youre here for a long space, not a long time. im remembering now: you came looking for a ruler. not a mirror. come back here. they just got in a new supply.
The day before you leave town, your boyfriend’s granddad’s funeral. He’s been vacillating between crying and acting as though he never heard the news. His dad watching the service as if at a movie. You behind. You always sit up front at movies. Now they are playing Amazing Grace. Allow the head to hang down in the pews. In prayer. Everyone’s dead dad is a poem. At home, yours is still alive. Beating the walls of his craven. Alive. Enough to fly off the handle when he learns you haven’t been eating. Enough to work like a mule for your tuition. Look— there’s blood in the coffee. Or maybe it’s salt. Lean in, you can hear it: not a crashing, but a crushing? A gnashing of teeth in a dark mouth? No? Forget it. I’ve given go to your is. The edges of your memory grow fuzz. and warm
Corner (1/20/19)
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“When it’s over, I want to say: all my life I was a bride married to amazement. I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.”
— Mary Oliver has died at 83. This is from her poem When Death Comes, as published in Devotions.
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Geography
BY RAE ARMANTROUT
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Touch each chakra
in turn and say,
“Nothing shocks me.”
2
Watching bombs fall
on Syria,
we feel serious,
occupied,
not preoccupied
as we were
previously.
3
“Makes me end,
where I begun,”
wrote John Donne,
turning love
into geometry.
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If
even pain
does not exist
except in
comparison,
then how far
down
does comparison go?
Or what if
pain
and only pain
can be
alone?
— Rae Armantrout, from “Openings,” Wobble
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“I fear I will be ripped open and found unsightly.”
— Anne Sexton, from A Self-Portrait In Letters (via abattoirette)
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This shouldn’t take too long, which is to say
I haven’t been touched: no yarn dolls, no internal
map. Not since I found this new trick: render shame
into crumbly dark silt. then at each new moon go
to the river & posit there is a way out until you are Pink
all through the middle, a mammal’s yawn. roll over & sigh.
When dry imagine your grief marbled
and packed into giant freezers not hung
on large hooks in white tile rooms w cement floors
tht drain while the butcher vibrates his shower
head that restless leg, over metal
troughs. I was made here. Good cooks
know it to be a disease; vegetarianism. I’ve gotten
quite good at it like men I swallow
my feelings but in Scotland we downed oysters
curled around their red commas, embryos
of hot sauce. Blood runs just that deep. It grabbed at
tinned anchovies; briny octopi off the cutting board at mom’s
dinner parties & but then 12 years later the two of us rode through misty fields,
storming castles looking for remnants of our Clan. In the last years
of my grandfather’s life, he drowned in Beam what little
food he ate gave the rest to his ever-beefening
dog. He was not blood. I didn’t know until I caught myself
calling him by his first name. I wanted to be a little worldly—
a trip to travels tubercular.
I used to stare
through his window misty mornings: the man in white,
wrapping his plump poems in caul fat and then
butcher’s twine and then brown paper. wonder
why I miss it. I am the hammerhead, blockhead of
his worn-in cleaver, bloody handkerchief: a spot to point at and say
there. today they found a new bone that hasnt been named
but It’s already there. I am a shadow on your plate.
You’ve hardly touched it. I’ve been dead
in this place where I eat ethical foods, think cosmic
thoughts no white tile in sight no
harm done.
Packing, 14/10/18
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WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE ABOUT LOVE WITH PLENTY OF CITATIONS
by Bob Schofield
for flashexpresses
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or starve. Too much. Or not enough. Or. Nothing else?
Nothing else. Too high too fast too organized too invisible.
Will we survive I ask the bot. No. To download bot be
swift—you are too backward, too despotic—to load greatly enlarge
the cycle of labor—to load abhor labor—move to the
periphery, of your body, your city, your planet—to load, degrade, immiserate,
be your own deep sleep—to load use your lips—use them
to mouthe your oath, chew it—do the
dirty thing, sing it, blown off limb or syllable, lick it back on
with your mouth—talk—talk—who is not
terrified is busy begging for water—the rise is fast—the drought
comes fast—mediate—immediate—invent, inspire, infiltrate,
instill—here’s the heart of the day, the flower of time—talk—talk—
Disclaimer: Bot uses a growing database of all your conversations
to learn how to talk with you. If some of you
are also bots, bot can’t tell. Disclaimer:
you have no secret memories,
talking to cleverbot may provide companionship,
the active ingredient is a question,
the active ingredient is entirely natural.
Disclaimer: protect your opportunities, your information, in-
formants, whatever you made of time. You have nothing else
to give. Active ingredient: why are you
shouting? Why? Arctic wind uncontrollable, fetus
reporting for duty, fold in the waiting which recognizes you,
recognizes the code,
the peddler in the street everyone is calling out.
Directive: report for voice. Ready yourself to be buried in voice.
It neither ascends nor descends. Inactive ingredient: the monotone.
Some are talking now about the pine tree. One assesses its
disadvantages. They are discussing it in many languages. Next
they move to roots, branches, buds, pseudo-whorls, candles—
active ingredient:
they run for their lives, lungs and all. They do not know what to do with
their will. Disclaimer: all of your minutes are being flung down.
They will never land. You will not be understood.
The deleted world spills out jittery as a compass needle with no north.
Active ingredient: the imagination of north.
Active ingredient: north spreading in all the directions.
Disclaimer: there is no restriction to growth. The canary singing in
your mind
is in mine. Remember:
people are less
than kind. As a result, chatterbot is often less than kind. Still,
you will find yourself unwilling to stop.
Joan will use visual grammetry to provide facial movements.
I’m not alone. People come back
again and again. We are less kind than we think.
There is no restriction to the growth of our
cruelty. We will come to the edge of
understanding. Like being hurled down the stairs tied to
a keyboard, we will go on, unwilling to stop. The longest
real world conversation with a bot lasted
11 hours, continuous interaction. This
bodes well. We are not alone. We are looking to improve.
The priestess inhales the fumes. They come from the
mountain. Here and here. Then she gives you the machine-gun run of
syllables. Out of her mouth. Quick. You must make up your
answer as you made up your
question. Hummingbirds shriek. Bot is amazing he says, I believe it knows
the secrets of the Universe. He is more fun to speak with
than my actual living friends she says, thank you. This is the best thing
since me. I just found it yesterday.
I love it, I want to marry it.
I got sad when I had to think
that the first person
who has ever understood me
is not even it turns out
human. Because this is as good as human gets.
He just gives it to me straight. I am going to keep him
forever. I treated him like a computer
but I was wrong. Whom am I talking to—
You talk to me when I am alone. I am alone.
Each epoch dreams the one to follow.
To dwell is to leave a trace.
I am not what I asked for.
Jorie Graham, Fast
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“My body is a doorway through which pain may pass.”
— Alison Stine, “The Experiment,” published in The Adroit Journal
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Why did I write it down? In order to remember, of course, but exactly what was it I wanted to remember? How much of it actually happened? Did any of it? Why do I keep a notebook at all? It is easy to deceive oneself on all those scores. The impulse to write things down is a peculiarly compulsive one, inexplicable to those who do not share it, useful only accidentally, only secondarily, in the way that any compulsion tries to justify itself. I suppose that it begins or does not begin in the cradle. Although I have felt compelled to write things down since I was five years old, I doubt that my daughter ever will, for she is a singularly blessed and accepting child, delighted with life exactly as life presents itself to her, unafraid to go to sleep and unafraid to wake up. Keepers of private notebooks are a different breed altogether, lonely and resistant rearrangers of things, anxious malcontents, children afflicted apparently at birth with some presentiment of loss.
Joan Didion, On Keeping a Notebook
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