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On the brink of blowing my brains out. But i wont. Just thought I'd share. Ill stay in bed more I guess.

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I have boners when I wake up cuz I'm thinking about u in my sleep fuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfu kruckducj

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Give me one good reason, why I shouldn’t kill myself tonight.  I can’t stop with these thoughts. My head hurts, my hands shake. I’m a fucking mess... And i don’t have a friend in the world that gives a shit. I really, truly don’t. Not even my own brother wants to hear me out. I... can’t take it. I feel like i’ll be unhappy forever no matter what. No matter what I do, i’ll be unhappy. It’s not just you.  I HAVE NO ONE NOW AND IT FUCKING SUCKS.

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I guess she will never understand...

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problem solved

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Anxiety  Depression Hypothyroid Brain-fog Heartbreak Fucking saddness I just keep trying, and keep failing at fixing these things.... And the feeling is so intense i want to die. The thought of dying is on my mind so often, im scared it’s going to become reality, and im going to kill myself. I don’t want this, i really really really don’t want this. I also, don’t want these afflictions anymore, and this intense feeling of loath and pure loneliness.  I lost the person keeping me afloat. I misused her patience. I fucked up my happiness. Self-destructed it. And im lost. 

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LOL NO ONE WANTA TO FUCK ME

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Someone fuck me srsly.

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I hope you all find someone who never stops wanting to get to know you

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My girlfriend of 3 years left me for someone else and lied about it. Who knows how long.... Who knows when I'll recover. Damnit, I loved her more than life.

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i’m going to kill myself again. Fuck you. 

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Why did you cry  If this is what you wanted all along? Why did you cry When you left me helpless When you could have saved this Why did you cry for me WHY DID YOU FUCKING CRY THEN? WHY DID YOU DO THIS?

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Endless

I don’t think I have ever felt so alone before.  So helpless in my own head.  I just want to get better Subside feelings misrepresented in actions No one understands Everyone means well No one understands Between the cataclysm and reality  It’s the same for me I’m so lost.  IM SO LOST GOD. I WISH YOU’D LEAVE MY MIND BUT I NEVER WANT TO FORGET HOW I USED TO FEEL WHEN THE SHEETS WERE TIED AND YOU WERE JUST MINE AND HOW I COULD HIDE FROM MY DEMONS  THAT WRECKED MY INSIDES You helped me hide Now I have to face these broken eyes Knowing someone else is happy And all I do is cry All I do is cry

And the hospital bed fines Only strengthen the guilt From wanting to kill myself Choked on my own emotion and died Crashed and pulled lifeless and reassessed There’s hope for this kid non-the-less If we start his heart, he can try again But my heart is starved and cast The break wont heal overnight But the pain might make me try Too start over, with a new life Or maybe i’ll find my way back, you as my wife Or maybe.. i’ll just..

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OMG HELP ME

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