antarcticice

[antarcticice]

Since I've discovered I may be otherkin at Othercon, I've been trying to pinpoint what exactly I am. It's hard to pin down. I am a shadowy amorphous mass, fluid, and perhaps incorporeal, at least sometimes. Sort of like a viscous, odorless, black gas. I am filled with a vast blank white nothing and surrounded by cold. I have an indiscriminate amount of eyes; glowing blue orbs. These bodies are containers, and I fill them, though not necessarily of my own fruition. It is maybe of note I feel this form is in some way connected to my ability to mind control others (in this brain's innerworld/my home world, in which I appear mostly as just a regular human aside from my abilities). I can't say for sure if it is, though. Perhaps even my inexplicable connection to Antarctica is of note.

My similarities and connections to void creatures and shoggoth have been brought to my attention. It is almost poetic in a sense, and maybe there's something there to be had. Neither is a solid enough fit on their own, though. Still, it gives me direction.

If anyone else has any information, suggestions, or resources they think may be helpful, please do share. Questions are welcomed.

[antarcticice]

I don't front often

Christ, is it always this hard to move around this body? The controls are ass. If this body were a car, it wouldn't legally be allowed on the road. I feel like I've bumped into every possible surface and dropped everything. It's a struggle to even get up and walk around. Everything hurts. They have to deal with this all the time? I feel sorry for them.

~ ❄ Antarctica ❄