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whatever whatever the “dopamine addiction” industry is lying to you the point of life is to have as broad a range of pleasures as you can. the problem with dependency is not that it’s evil to be dependent on something, it’s that it can be unhealthy to rely completely on a singular source of happiness/pleasure/escape. this does not make the desire to escape inherently evil or some kind of inherent weakness. you are not addicted to dopamine you have a habit of relying on one thing for all your needs and that is a habit you can change slowly over time without complete ‘abstinence’ so to speak. and comparing any of this to a substance addiction is unhelpful + unhealthy + will get your local addict (me) to kick you in the shins very hard

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Y'all have misused the word "empathy" so thoroughly and pervasively that now the world is full of people who full-on believe they have the power to read minds based on their unquestioned gut reactions to a stranger's tone of voice or facial expressions

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Jon and his coworkers trying to defeat Elias

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Hey.

Do you ever think part of the reason Georgie stayed by Jon’s bedside through all 6 months of his coma but then abruptly walked out of his life when he woke up is because she was fully expecting to be a caregiver for him during a long, grueling post-coma recovery process?

Do you think part of the reason she was so spooked by him waking up (relatively) unscathed is because she had mentally, physically, and emotionally prepared herself to take him in? That her best case scenario — what she had planned and hoped for — was that he’d wake up with severe cognitive and/or physical deficits, as one would expect from someone who survived an explosion and six months in a coma? That he’d have to re-learn how to walk or talk or eat or hold a spoon on his own? That he would *need* someone, and even if it wasn’t what she wanted for herself or him, she had decided she would step up and be that person for him?

It can be so jarring when you build up a vision of your near future around one assumption, only for that assumption to be completely shattered by reality. Do you think she constructed a future for him in her head, and when he woke up “fine”, she was so startled by the breaking of her expectations that it felt almost like a betrayal? And the sheer uncanny impossibility of him waking up “fine” made her think that her friend was dead after all?

Do you think that after Martin stopped coming around and Georgie found herself alone at Jon’s bedside, she realized she was all he had left in the world? The only one who held onto hope that he would survive in some form? The only one who thought he could wake up, severely disabled by his experiences but free at last? The only one who thought he deserved the chance at a mundane life after all of this, even if that life would look radically different? Do you think she grappled with the reality that if she didn’t step up for him, no one would? Do you think she spent long hours coping with the fact that she was going to have to take on new responsibilities and make new sacrifices for him, but she was willing to do it for an old friend who deserved better than the hand he was dealt? Do you think she mourned her old vision of her future, before she reconstructed that vision around caring for him?

Do you think she started talking to Jon’s doctors about what she could expect if she brought him home after he woke up? What kinds of disabilities he would live with, and what the prognosis was? About his quality of life afterwards? His road to recovery? Do you think she made up her spare bedroom with a severely disabled person in mind, and then started looking into hiring a part time caregiver to come help her make sure Jon got the help (she assumed) he’d need? Do you think she did all kinds of research into brain injuries and their aftermath? Physical therapy for people with severe atrophy? NG tubes for re-feeding severely starved people? Occupational therapists?

Do you think part of the reason she was so upset when he woke up (relatively) unscathed, lucid and talking and breathing on his own, maybe a little physically weak but still much like his old self, is because she had realistic expectations of what his life would look like after his injuries? And seeing him suddenly defy all odds by waking up into a full cognitive and physical recovery — a completely unrealistic hope that she never even considered as part of the realm of possibility — only reinforced the idea that the old Jon was dead, and this new Jon wasn’t safe for her to be around?

Do you think it hurt when she realized she couldn’t bring him home?

I think about that.

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y'all know that whole left-brained/right-brained thing is fake right? and the "brain fully develops at age 25" thing? and the "we only use 10% of our brains" thing? yeah they're all complete horseshit please yell at anyone who says them

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Jude Perry & Gerry Keay 🔥 By heinrich | lesh_ik

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sometimes i feel like im climing up this incline again alone but thankully sisypus and the itsy bitsy spider and here with me

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it’s the fate of all blonde men to die a gruesome peculiar hamster-like death

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hate when people think the only archetype possible for a male sidekick to a female protagonist is a soft boi and/or himbo. like the implication there is that the only reason a man would ever defer to a woman’s authority is if he was a bumbling idiot. love male supporting characters who are smart and strong and confident and can step up when necessary but still kind and humble enough to let someone else take the lead most of the time

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my tumblr app literally crashed when I tried to scroll down this. you need to get interviewed on a podcast anon, this is fascinating. we need a reality tv show "the secret lives of booktok ghostwriters"

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Poor Michael. He had been on trips for the Institute before.

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real life: sorry im just not a social media kind of guy… i wanna live in the moment y’know…. im like really private i like having secrets

on tumblr at 11:41 pm : guess whose period just started while watching fraggle rock season 1 episode 17

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can you take my white ass to funkytown

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Thank you, Snoop Logg...

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Paranoid Jon doing the dishes.

Thank you to everyone who begged me for domestic housework!Jon. This is for you. Proving again that anything can be achieved if you sing my praises.

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I am going through a time. Luckily because i am a child i can make memes about it though.

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okay no one asked but I wanna share some cool indie games that are criminally underrated and you should go play.

Elsinore - you play as Ophelia, trapped in the story of Hamlet and trying to avoid tragedy in a world that constantly seems to be at risk of unraveling. It changed my life and genuinely got me to enjoy hamlet when we were reading it in high school. the desperate inevitability of tragedy really sunk home for me cause of the medium chosen here. I love it, it is genuinely incredible and I really appreciate what it has to say about interactive storytelling in general.

A Story Beside - it genuinely makes me sad not that many people know about this one. You play as a regular villager growing up during a very JRPG 'ancient evil is awakening that only the hero can stop' plot, who may never become the hero herself, but still manages to leave a great impact. I did not merely cry when I finished this game. I wept. furiously. Everyone go play it. please please please please plea-

I Was A Teenage Exocolonist - this one is also very good and though not as linear or tightly arranged as the other two (and so the actually very interesting things it tries to do are kinda lost to the mechanics), It is still made me very emotional. So. I highly recommend you never reload a save to make a different choice. Just stick with your choices each round, think that would make for the best emotional rollercoaster trip. I love everything about this universe, I love the style, I love the characters, I love the colors, I love the emotional gutpunch it delivered within the first hour of the game, and I love how each playthrough feels like working towards something.

now go play them. that's an order.