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I wish to embrace her

Like the night embraces the stars

How the sun seems to hold the light

Effortlessly in the sky

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I crave destruction

Like a wrecking ball

In search of a building

To cause devastation

The need for someone to feel the pain

That curdles inside me

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A mother’s love

Is that too much to crave

A mother’s love

Just enough to feel ok

A mother’s love

Is something she never gave

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Why do you hold your heart so far from your body? It’s as if you are scared to take hold of it. What is it that terrifies you so, my love. If only you’d take the chance to feel, I promise you it’s not as scary as it seems. Let your heart back in, so that you may let someone else hold it for once. Let me bare your load.

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Knowledge of such things

Is tragically beautiful

It is better to keep

The sweet bliss

Of ignorance

Than to hold

Awareness of subsequence

In ones hand

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It’s in the way that I kiss her knowing I only want to kiss her for the rest of my life, it’s on having a good day just because I know can come home to her after it. It’s in the way that my heart automatically lights up when she smiles. It’s the way her hand fits so well in mine, it’s all these little things that make me realize she’s my last

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These emotions

Build like a tidal wave

Ready to destroy

All hope I still

Cling to

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There’s an empty place

Where the pain should be

Where the pain aches to be

Which in itself has created

A feeling far worse

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These emotions that I can no longer feel build

In a hollow chest that once felt everything

So very deeply

The threshold of emotion has become so high

So as to suffocate the woman trying so desperately

To feel anything at all

If even anger for a fleeting moment

But alas the universe is a cruel seductress

Leaving me to only feel emotions which are not mine

I can no longer produce joy

I must make it in others

Only to feel the sweet taste of exuberance on my lips

Once more

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I ache for you my love

My chest caves under the sorrow

Yet I can not shed a single tear

The drugs make me so brutally numb

To every emotion

In an attempt to end one

I’ve ended them all

Which has made me into your brilliant actress

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A specter

She visits me in the night

When my spirit low

And mind unguarded

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You hold yourself in hands

So far from my own

With a rigid spine

And stone cold glare

Is this life too much to bare?

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Those angel eyes

They’ll be my demise

The way she says my name

With an ounce of pain

Let’s me know she’ll never feel the same

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My hearts an infinite

Expanse of love

Waiting to be claimed

By someone willing to cherish it

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This cold wind

Blowing through my window

Reminds me of the nights we spent

Sleepless under winter stars

An infinite sky of beauty

Yet my eyes were on you

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Late night lover

Drown me in your fears

The ones you’ve kept hidden

For all these years

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I put a spell on you

One for good hope

And bad fortune

I pray your days be plenty

And your heart empty

I pray your house be full

And your love dull

I pray your stomach never empties

And your body never satisfied

These words I weave

So may it be

To you from me

Blessed be