anxietyforgaining

[anxietyforgaining]

The only thing I can think of is seeing my schoolteacher again after summer break and I have to tell him I'm not doing okay...

#Ed #Ana #Mia #anorexic#boulimic

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I want to put a background picture at my lock screen, what's reminds me my goal and what's says 'don't give up' . The only thing is, it has to be not that obvious. Other people uses my phone too. Has someone a picture or idea what I can use?

#Ed #Ana #Mia #anorexic #boulimia

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Ideal calorie counter/weightloss app?

I'm currently doing a coding competition and one of the categories was 'design an app for health'. Me, being the anorexic I am, was like hehe time to code my perfect calorie counter/weightloss app.

But then I was like nah, I'm thinking too small here.

All you guys here on ana Tumblr have helped me get through so much, and I want to give back to you all. I don't want the app I'm designing to be just based on me, I want it to be based on what would make life best and easiest for all of you who are already going through the shit of an eating disorder anyway.

When I'm done with the app I'll post it here, and have all the features free to use, none of this premium shit.

Basically what I'm asking is, what would you like in your ideal calorie counter/weightloss app?

All and any ideas are equal, help a programmer out here :)

I want this app the be by the community, for the community :)

[anxietyforgaining]

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Last week was horrible. A complete disaster. But now I'll be back on track. Wish me luck #55kgaftersummerbreak #newgoal #havetolose3kg

#ed #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #boulimia #ana #mia #losingweight #dutch

[anxietyforgaining]

I'm asking myself: do I ask to much of other people?

#ed #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #thoughts #ana #mia #losingweight

[anxietyforgaining]

I'm feeling thinner, but when I'm looking in the mirror I look thicker

#struggles #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #ed #boulimia #ana #mia #losingweight

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Thinking about a new plan for losing weight. I'm gaining like hell, and I don't want that anymore. Right now I have to be strict with myself.

💥 I have to log all my food. Even when I'm binging. If I have a binge, I can cry about it and maybe the next time I'll think twice

💥 I'll make a eating plan with a lot of fruit and I want to start with eating yogurt. I have to eat dinner, most of the time so I want to know that the evening before so I can make my eat plan based on dinner calories.

💥 Sporting as much as possible. And being always from home. When I'm not at home, I can't eat. I'll burn calories because I'm doing something, and I don't eat. I see that as a win win situation

💥 In one hour I have to drink 0.5liters of water. If I do that for 8 hours, I'll drink 4 liters. Hopefully I lose weight with this

Hopefully this will help me...

#ed #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #newplan #losing #weight #boulimia #ana #mia #losingweight #dutch

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My parents in law are noticing I'm eating bad. It worries me because I'm afraid for hard questions and I can't do my thing, but otherwise it's a big compliment and it motivates me to keep going, cause people are noticing.

#ed #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #nederlands #dutch #noticing #mia #ana #boulimia

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Today, I've been asked to be a leader of a youth association. I've been thinking a lot about it since they asked me. My day started great but ended really bad and in the evening they called me to ask if I want to be the leader. I don't know yet, and I'm happy I don't have to decide right now. I have a week to think about it. But the thing is, I have an eating disorder and they don't know. I want to be healthy for them, they deserve that. If I say yes, I can't go seek help because I think I have to go to an eatingclinic or something. And by the way, it is a youth association from church.... How can I be a leader of the group from church if I can't take a look in Gods beatyfull eyes... Anyone a good advice?

#anorexia #boulimia #leader #asking #ed #don'taprojustthetags #advice #eatingdisorder

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My thoughts goes from 'hu, I actually look really great today' to 'I feel like a pig..' in just 5 minutes

#ed #anorexia #notprojustthetags #fat #thoughts #boulimia

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today, I've done something bad I guess... I bought my first pack of cigarettes.. I did smoke before, but that was just for fun and being part of a group. I never owned a package, I just always get it. This is a coping for my coping😂. My coping is an eating disorder and now I start smoking for not feeling hunger. Are there more people who's started smoking because of their ed?

#eatingdisorder #Ana #Mia #noprojustusingthetags #smoking #firstpackage #anyoneelse?

[anxietyforgaining]

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Today discovered that good people still exist❤️

[anxietyforgaining]

From my coach at school I have a task I have to do. He knows about my ED but that stupid voice in my head don't let me do the task... I hate it and it's exhausting

[anxietyforgaining]

this might be potentially triggering to some but is anybodyelse haunted by the constant thought of binging? i cannot go a day without thinking about the possibility of binging and it’s honestly driving me mad. ofc i don’t binge (well, not anymore) but sometimes i do think about how much i’d like to shove an entire packet of biscuits down my throat followed by nutella and other stuff but i don’t understand why...? why is that? i’ve reached a point where i’m genuinely scared of eating the tiniest tiniest piece of food because i’m afraid i won’t be able to stop.